peace =P

Saturday, December 24, 2011

down

Last day today...next week study week...
the next next week...exam final coming!!!

waaaa....
a bit down, stress for today...
because?? my carry mark for quantitative is not cool...
ok, my bad...need to study hard..
yet most importantly, hubungan dengan Allah y kne jage betul2..
my bad..my bad...

but insyAllah...
i try to study hard...
so i wont bring bad example for others..hehe

ok..nothing much coz i am down ok...
so, i made 5 new logo for my frenz...
am i creative??
i don't know...
joining international symposium as publicity team does not showing how creative i am...
so, what actually my strength??

erm~~~~~




p/s: nak 4 flat sem nie...tp mcm harapan tinggal harapan je...owhh~~`

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

MyDay


Assalamualaikum~~~

wahh...lame bebenor rasenyer xmeninggalkan kesan di umah fevretku nie..hehe
First of all, Alahamdulillah...
selesai sudah Family Day akhawat di Morib...
nk bagi berape markah ye??erm~~180% kot...haha

sgt2 best....
tempat, mkanan, video...n y paling penting~~~
PENGISIAN JIWA...

insyaAllah...
satu bende y aq kne igt is...
pergantungan hanya kepada ALLAH SWT...

ye kite hidup perlu berteman...menghharapkan kawan n manusia lain...
tp bile fikir2 kan balik...
mcm mane pergantungan dgn Allah...
manusia lebih atau Allah lebih...ur soul, ur answer...

Manusia juga lemah, xperfect...
jadi hubungan y perlu lebih kuat adalah dengan Allah...
settle hubungan dengan Allah...settle la hubungan dengan saudara kita...
itu kene igt mati2 an...hehe

sebab...
at last..bile semua manusia kite da xmampu harap...
HANYA ALLAH YANG AKAN FAHAM...sebab ALLAH MAHA MENGETAHUI...
Allah segalanya...Allah la dalam setiap niat kita...
smpai kapan pun...(eh, gune indonesian plak...hehe)

InsyaAllah...
klu video ciptaan akhawat boleh dipublish di youtube...
pasti semua akan dapat manfaat yang sama...
tema kami: TAKAFUL (tolong-menolong)
korang ade??hehe

p/s: Minggu terakhir di semester ni sebelum exam final...gambate!! assignment bykkk~~~

Friday, December 9, 2011

quote

tonight i got some stress...
why??
Final Year Project proposal not yet done...say what??
next week are the presentation...
my supervisor must be mad at me...oh my~~

today at 8 am...
i've got Industrial Training Presentation...
plus at the same time, i got Quantitative class...
so??Dr. Amin...please release us...
xmo ponteng2 lg...huhu (best student~~)

alrite...
everytime i stress, normally i can think about one jiwang sentence...
and tonite...

i create this quote...haha~~~

"the stupid one is not the fish who cant climb the tree, but the one who think the fish can climb the tree...everybody have their own specialties, and dont judge something is bad just because he can't be what u want him to be...accept people with open heart, and help the helpless not judging them with your own thought coz its call cruel~~"

amacam?? >.<
hehe
klu xbest...xpe...i'm cool~~~

aq rase aq patut bersyukur dgn nikmat y ade selagi aq mampu...
rase mcm banyak nye dosa da dilakukan...
bukan macam...tp mmg byk~~~uwaaa, bad musleem...and that is me!!!

Semoga Allah masih menyayngi hambaNya y byk salah n silap nie...
nk bangun qiam hari nie...
jom~~~insyaAllah....
so, kne tido skrg...cewah....

already create a banner for iass..hope accepted~~~

p/s: be cool team...u can do it

Sunday, November 27, 2011

saywhat!!!

alritez...
feeling ok and fine and cool and normal today~~

my dad discharge from ppum today...
but yeah, there 3 times check up more on december...
but ok la...

mom looks old...
she kind of worried about hospitalization fee and so on...
yeah...if we r be ruled by khalifah,
there will be no worries for the un-rich people, rite??
so, dgr kate pilihan raya nk dekat...
SAY WHAT~!!!
hehe, choose the better...
close ur eyes n feel the right~~

PC fair at seremban...
going already??
crowded...sooooooo crowded!!!
but i got my stuff...
anti-virus...yeah~~~
finally, KASPERSKY 2012 in the house!!!
tgh update xsiap lg nie...
so, smbil buat FYP and Home Test...why not update my own blog...
cewah~~


SELAMAT TAHUN BARU 1433!!!
bukan laptop je kne ade anti-virus ye...
diri sendiri pun kne tau...
update la anti-virus sempena tahun baru nie dgn azam y kukuh dlm diri...
dan mcm anti-virus y lain jgk...
sentiasa kne update virus terbaru,
so that kite xkne hack or corrupted selama 365 hari mulai hari nie!!
kan??kan??
life is all about choices...
you choose the right, u get the right!!!
terbaek~~~

alritez chow yo!!!
yosh!!!

p/s: nk wat appointment dgn jabatan pertanian....agak2 bley selamat x FYP i nie...hehe

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

but~~

"but"
a simple word yet important...
because it can connect two sentence become one...
and...

1. can give the fire heart become cool~~
how??

by saying in word...

" i have no money, no home, not working yet, not that rich BUT i love u and want to marry u now"

and
2. can give the great feeling become down, such as~~

"i love u and want to marry u now BUT i have no money, no home, not working yet"

can u spot the different??
just a thought for me today!!!

BUT....

love for Allah doesn't ask u to sacrifices anything(money,home,time,life) but only your pure n sincere heart...
and because of that pure and sincere heart u actually want to give everything to Allah swt...
got my point??

i do wrong things...and i don't know how to turn back time...
and i want to continue with the right thing, but i don't have the power to do so...
i will stuck in this place forever with the guilty feeling to Allah...
and i can't take it anymore...

crying everyday...
thatz all i can do...and trying hard to improve back my energy and feeling...
BUT~~~~

why i become so negative??


p/s: ayah masuk hospital lagi....and i really need someone to cry on...who can give her shoulder to me??


Wednesday, November 9, 2011

fuh~~

fuh~~sambil meletakan tapak tgn kanan ke dahi dan dr dahi perlahan2 bawak ke kanan dahi dan alihkan tgn...

banyak peluh???
1. klu banyak, maknenye anda da berusaha keras hari nie...tahniah!!!
2. klu xde peluh...meaning that anda masih ber relax2 wlupun ironinya kerja belambak...say what??(amik quote aiman azlan)hehe

banyak bende happen dlm hidup aq...
baik y aq tau, die tau, DIA tau mahupun ada y aq sendiri tak tau...
ape2 pun...aq buat kesilapan n keep repeat it...
why?? i even dont have the answer...
yup!! ade satu hadith berbunyi "org y beriman tidak akan jatuh 2 kali ke dalam luang yang sama"...
dan mase teringat hadith nie, aq rs jauhnye term beriman dlm hidup aq...

mmg aq masih punya Allah swt yang menyayangi dan Rasulullah saw y merindui...
namun klu aq keep repeat the same mistake over n over again...
aq mungkin akan kehilangan Allah n Rasul dlm hidup aq...
semoga kite dipermudahkan urusan dunia mahupun akhirat...insya-Allah...

kite sering buat kesalahan...namun hati dambakan syurga...
kite sering melanggar larangan Allah namun hati mahukan cintaNYA...
2-3 minggu aq fikir...layak kah aq??

ade satu bende y kite perlu kawal sgt2 dlm diri...
tau x??
itu la NAFS...nafs y baik bawak kite ke syurga dan sebaliknya....
satu bende y aq harus perbetulkan...
sebelum semuanya terlambat....

mungkin sudah tiba masanya aq bukan lagi ber status "single"...
semoga Allah permudahkan segalanya...ameen~~~

semoga hari2 pengorbanan y baru je lepas memberi 1001 kebaikan pada mereka y mencari hidayah Allah...dan untuk aq...
aq perlukan hari y baru untuk berubah...



takbir di rumah sempena raya haji....credit to my brother dzul...

p/s: aq rase berdosa y amat sgt...semoga aq tidak menjadi punca hidayah tidak smpai ke adik2...aq takut~~~ :'(

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

remind

a lots of things happen...
down, stress, tired....
a lot of assignment need to be settle in this week...
next week??holiday~~
am i happy??
no...why??
don't know...

i need to be strong....
to make everything back to normal...
insyaAllah....




p/s: walaupun die senyum, terasa berat dlm hati...mcm mane nk kembalikan senyumanya??

Monday, October 17, 2011

ISDK

lame nye tak update blog..ke x??haha
ape2 pun, byk sgt hal happen 4-5 hari nie...
and aq...serabut ar skit...haha
somehow life still need to move on...
serius JK a.k.a jiwa kacau but i'm cool~~hehe

back to my topic...
ISDK...ape tu??
pernah dgr ISK (Ini Sejarah Kita)??well, as u may see...
even my address is teamISK.blogspot...
tp ISDK nie istilah baru skit...
baru dapat dlm mukhayyam ikram gombak semalam kat kem nur laman bistari....
penyampai??my favourite ustaz: akhi faiz
sejak balik semananjung nie, nie 1st time dpt balik semangat bintulu...
terbaekk...akhawat lain dont be jeles..please...hehe

ok fine...what is ISDK??
ia adalah singkatan kepada "Ini Sejarah Datuk Kita"
amacam?? ada berminat...jom join tarbiyah!!!
dalam halaqah kite citer...hehe

erm, at least i got recover my broken heart...
yup...i need to focus on how to bring islam back in our life...
and not to put our self on fire of an-nar...
spirit bro...spirit!!!
HAMASATUSSHABAB!!!
mean semangat pemuda...wahh~~~berapi nie..hehe

alritez, utk anak2 baru (walaupun xjumpe lagi..hehe)
dalam halaqah kite share what is this ISDK...alritez??
untuk y lame pun bley je share...kite rehlah ke jaulah ke same2...xde hal~~
my pleasure to share this with all musleem in this world...

for who doesn't know me...
PM me...on number...waits....haha
just leave your comment la and email...cewah~~
promote2...

alritez...class calling, assigment waiting...terbaek~~
chow yo!!

p/s: baru beli phone baru...lihat gamba di bawah...haha..my mini galaxy!!

Saturday, October 8, 2011

list



list means 1 number of items, names, etc., written or printed together as a record or aid to memory. 2 (in pl.) a palisades enclosing an area for a tournament. b scene of a contest. —v. 1 make a list of. 2 enter in a list. 3 (as listed adj.) a (of securities) approved for dealings on the Stock Exchange. b (of a building) of historical importance and officially protected.  enter the lists issue or accept a challenge. [Old English] - oxford dictionary

guess, there be a long time i'm not list up my task...
ok, let see...how busy i am:

2. preparing some program book for IASS 2012
3. promoting IASS website for to all international university...
4. designing poster for agriculutre club
5. designing t-shirt for company
6. assignment current issue
7. final year project - not even discuss about what research that i want to do..
8. oh yeah...research method and quantitative exam~~next week

fuh...not even reach 10...guess not that much la..
however...all that 8 items not exactly an human priority job...
but if u not think that way...think back!!!

Allah not creating us to do that 8 items job...
for ALLAH sake, the answer NOOO.....
the priority is to be a musleem...
how??lets go to see what dakwah is all about...

whatever that all sahabat do a long time ago, thatz is exactly what we going to now!!!
no excuses...because why???
because....can't u see??
"betapa rosaknya umat" and i realize, how worse i am...

all that 8 item that i need to do, must not be the reason for not doing whatever Allah ask me to do...oh Allah, give me strength and never let me out from this path~~

passion to do whatever Allah ask, comes together with the perfect iman (faith)..
and the perfect iman comes together with great amal (action)...
and great amal come together with tsaqafah (knowledge)...
pray for everybody best!!!InsyaAllah...
_____________________________________________________

someone comeback from japan tomorrow...
have a safe great journey~~
welcome home....
excited already!!!

alritez...dhuhr(zohor) already...
chow yo....
yosh...
assalamualaikum~~

p/s: pray for everything goes as plan tomorrow...nervous~~

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

story

argh...got tense over and over and over again...
1st TEST COMING!!!!!
assignment keliling pinggang~~
ntah la....

and last nite i've got an accident...

mcm nie story die...
mase my frenz bawak krete, tetibe ade api jatuh depan krete tgh jalan...
ape lagi brek mngejut ar....
tau2 pakcik PJSD tu sibuk nk bakar sarang tebuan tp x blok jalan...
kureng betul...
dah tu kerete belakang pun brek..nasib sempat brek..xde la berlanggar...
da tu...kawan aq y bawak krete cuak dgn api terus nak reverse...
sakit tekak aq jerit ade krete kt blakang,
last2...dushhh...langgar gak...
da tu terjadilah situasi gelak2 y besar...
xteruk...tp kureng betul la pakcik PJSD tu...
haha, saje aq nk highlight kan PJSD tu...geram kot...
duit~~duit~~

tgh mlm, my coursemate call sebab risau...
da la br abis meeting...sian die...
die kate xmahal la setakat bumper kancil...dlm RM80 kot...
and plat dlmRM20 jugak...tp nti die follow up la...
anybody know the exact amount??hehe

and pg nie my best friend hntr msg:
"Assalamualaikum..
Sobahunnur..ohaiyo gozaimasu..slmt pg..
lets have a nice kick strt 4 2day..B)"

and sure...aq xbley balas msg sebab kredit da xde 3 hari...
so, jap lg nk p kelas...aq nk beli top up dulu...
penting tu...sebab byk msg2 akhawat y aq x dapat balas...
and ade la jugak my frenz y kecewe dgn aq...

aq xpernah harap org paham aq...
tp mmg bile masuk sem nie...keje aq byk sgt...
masalah byk sgt...dgn FYP lg....
seriusly, kdg2 give up jugak...

thankz to Allah swt cause always be with me...
the only one who understand me...
and seandainya aq give up dgn manusia pun,aq still ade Allah...
it just, aq je y xnk dgr cakap Allah selalu...
and aq nk cinta Allah je....and Rasulullah pun...

alrite...
nk p kelas...besok 1st test...
pray for everything will b fine...insya-Allah =)

chow yo...YOSH!!

p/s: aq rs ade org hecked my email plak la...benci giler...hari tu FB nie Email...agak2 arr~~~

Sunday, October 2, 2011

cry


should i give any definition regarding this word "Cry"??
i can't...because i would cry either...T.T

its so sad, when someone you love and trust not understand u....
when whatever u said just be ignored...
seems like your feeling is not important at all...
you might feel shame...or should feel shame of your self...
when you are begging for something, and suddenly you be ignored...
and because of it,
some pure water from eyes will fallen till no more tear can came out...
and that is cry...

when your heart is broken into pieces...
when you have no more word to say...
then the tears plays it role...
and that is cry...

even you means nothing to the person you love...
still you need to survive...
because before you fall in love, you once with nobody...

and i believe...
the tears mean a lot to someone who appreciate you...
and lets stop crying...and begin to smile...

p/s: people wont say that my face is full of smile, if i'm not smiling...

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

idiot

well, idiot means:
"1 stupid person. 2 mentally deficient person incapable of rational conduct.  idiotic adj. idiotically adv. [Greek idiotes, = private citizen, ignorant person] "

anyway, past few days...i feel like kind of idiot...
why??whatever i done seems like "kurennngg sokmo"...
my report = not done
my problem= not settle
my job= crap!!!

maybe i think to much about things that i not suppose to think...
some changes happen to me and my usrati...
feels a bit different and sad...ohhww my~~
i planned, and He planned...the best Planner win...
and i know it is the best for me, for them and for all....insyaAllah...

my frenz send me some picture from japan...
its beautiful in japan...isn't it??but my heart right now not that beautiful...uwaaa

don't know why, but i feel like not happy in past few days...
down...so not in the mood....
my best frenz ask me to chillex...
but the feeling inside not as simple as word....

maybe i should stop all the things before it is too late...
for sure, i choked my own word when someone said this to me
"the bad things that happen to us, might come from the bad things that we hide from others"

and i know...as Allah swt knows everything about me...
and i can't hide anything...
about things inside me~~
about things that i care so much before...and now...
that things seems so bad...
feels like i'm a bad person...

so that i decided to change....

need to rest in peace!!
choww~~

p/s: i know silent really kill me inside...hate it and want to forget about it...3 days in row sleep at 3.00 am...save me from this stupidity!!!!

Friday, September 23, 2011

japan

japan is a country..erm, yup...it is..
and hoping that i could go there and stay and work there and marr***...ehhh, acah kot...
tp one of my favret place la to explore...
yup, after Makkah of course...

now in japan is..... autumn...cayalah!!!


only few hour left...
and i have mixedfeeling!!!
someone going to japan today...flight on 23:00
for some agriculture conference...
wah~~isn't that great??
hopefully, he might get the best experience...

pesanan aq??
jgn lupe tnye..."makanan nie ade arak x??"
yela...walaupun sushi vege, org japan suke gune sake(alkohol) dlm nasi sushi tu...
haha...pesanan terbaek...
well, u are what u eat...2 yang aq besau skang...haha
aq suruh bawak mee cawan...tp beli 5 jer...
cukup ke untuk 14 hari...
and RM1000 convert to yen, cukup gak ke 14 hari??
risau jugak klu ade ape2 happen....
hope and pray everything going just fine...

ok la...before die fly, kne wat list pesanan...
alritez yooo...chow!!

p/s: besok ke program di KLIA....see ya all gurlzz~~

Monday, September 19, 2011

panic

yup...its panic...not picnic!!!

my intern report...NOT YET DONE...
and guess what??
presentation could be today...hope not~~plezzz prof...
not really panic but a bit la...

theres 2 things that i totally panic now...

1. batuk kering...
serious, this cough seems different from any others cough i ever had...
so much worried...but not yet go to "pusat kesihatan UPM"...no time..
what can i do...well,well, well....

syabas kepada SYABAS kerana selamatkan kami sekejap dgn air...waahhhh da lame xde memories mcm nie...kih kih kih

2. water gone....arghhh
much panic???serumpun collages out of water...
smpai amik wuduk pakai air mineral tu...
somebody say...someone stole our main pipe...
ape ke hal nye la makhluk tu...xtau ke betape buruk nye kesan pd org lain...
"klu die kesah, die xcurik"...yeah right!!..

3. new student arrived...
yeah...last but not least...new student arrived...
guess..a lot of work to be done...and i expected someone to be arrived soon...
pray for the best for all of you...
me?? still stress with my intern report and a lot of assignment that need to be done...

actually i taken may be 27 kredit this sem...is that alrite???
final year project lagi...argghhh!!! chillex team...haha
alrite...at least i'm not going to do some recruitment tomorrow...hehe


alritez yoo...chow!!

p/s: somebody going to japan this week...and me?? all alone~~

Saturday, September 10, 2011

decided!!


well...well...
tonite...packaging stuff and get off...haha
by tomorrow morning i need to admit one things...
I NEED TO START STUDY....AGAIN...
fuh..thankz Allah coz just one year left...
Alhamdulillah...

well, decide go to Manchester next year...so
guess need to pay some ptptn or else...BLACKLISTED!!!
sgt melampau...aq study lagi kot...siap tak bg tangguh...
uwaaa...ngadu kat mak...haha

however happen today...i guess i feel release..
why??
well, i decided something this morning...
something about my future...what is that??
wait until the day comes...hihi...secret for a moment...

sometimes, we think we can live better without anybody...
but in some moment...we actually can't....
people use to said...
"u only realize that u love something when the things is already gone..."
well, i don't want to be that kind of person...so, i decided to wait...
coz actually i'm already feel scared since last 7 dayz...
thought i already lost something in my life...something important and something that i love..
but actually, i don't...yet...hehe
so, i better take care of it while i still have it...didn't i??yeahhh...

one a.m in the morning...not finish packing my stuff...no one helps...
everybody sleeping and happy...
me...keep smiling~~

hoping and praying next 2 sem will be the best moment in life..insya-Allah...
alritezz yoo...CHOW!!

p/s: well, i guess i have new best frenz today and promise to love this one more..hehe..fair??yeah..i know...not fair... =)

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Wordless Wednesday#3-fasting





3rd day fasting...for me...
1st day fasting...for my best frenz (at plantation)...=)

makanan buke pose???
sume masak sendiri u...jgn jeles meles ye...

alritez yoo...CHOW!!

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

today

TODAY i miss someone, hate someone, love someone, sad, happy, nervous,sick....
how about you??
haha...
getting start again using english or maenglish because i need to start some engine in my mind...haha
next week, back to school again!!!
after 4 month holiday...not really since i went to practical trainee...
but one week raya plus one week full real holiday makes me a bit.......
"arghhh...studyyyy!!!!"...haha..(student...u know...)

a bit nervous anyway...
not yet done my report...not even start it..haha
what a shame of me...get reallll plezzz...
next week nak hantar...oh my~~

somehow, my best frenz must be soo much nervous today...(somehow, i feel nervous for him)
his 1st day on plantation...hope everything will be just fine there...
ok frenz...nothing can stop u...
if u read this...chill out!!
i always support u from behind...so, chillex n smile!!

by the time we feel happy with our situation, other might feel different...
load of work, burden u so much...but less makes u down...
hope my lovely girl will fight the situation just fine...right shida??hehe
uhibbuki fillah ukhti...
let gather and talks someday...miss u!!ooohh

for myself...
2nd day fasting (pose 6)..makes myself busy,and sleep more...haha
need to forget all the things happen in this 4 month...kind impossible to success...
but, i need to...promise already...
yeahh...gambate!!!

alritez...nk p masak2 buke pose!!haha
chow yoo..
yosh!!

Friday, September 2, 2011

reason



tema: sebersih kuning 1.01...1st raye

hari nie...
RAYee ke-4...Jumaat...
serius aq ingat nk start pose 6 isnin depan...
reason??
sebab banyak jemputan la...haha
tinggal xde sape nk jemput aq p majlis kaween je...
no hal...i'm cool...

tema raye ke-2: kotak2 koboi...yeeeehhhaaaa

raye xsemeriah tahun lepas..
reason??
sebab my sis sume raye belah husband 1st day raye...uwaaa
tinggal la kitorg 4 bradik...ish3...
tema tahun lepas purple...tahun nie kuning...
tahun depan..jeng jeng jeng...green...
reason??
sebab mase beli baju kuning tahun nie...
"eii...lawa nye baju hijau nie...knape la tahun nie x hijau..."
and keep saying that until we find our yellow...haha

ape2 pun, i think raye tahun nie sedih skit (utk aq la)...
wawawa....reason??
aq je tau..haha

ok la...nak p raye key ell umah pak itam...
lame seh xmenziarah sedare belah ayah...
setiap tahun...confirm2 raye negeri sembilan...
tp kitorg still xreti cakap loghat n9...peh...lupe daratan beb...hehe

ape2 pun, agama lebih penting..cewah!!

alritez yooo...chow!!

YOSH
SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

Saturday, August 27, 2011

erm~~


malam 27 ramadhan...
last day aq trainee...
perasaan...xreti ar nak kate...speechless...
mcm xpercaye pun ade...
as my colleague ckp la...die mcm xpercaye je aq xde nti...
as least aq dpt ucap selamat tinggal kat manager kesayangan aq...
hehe...

as my manager nk suruh aq smbung keje kat sane one year later...
so, i guess...i need a deep thinking...sure i should...

somehow, this week mmg hijeck skit...
tidur mmg pukul 1 pagi n bangun 5 pagi...wah~~
agak mem bz kan diri...

ape2 pun sebelum terlambat..aq nk ucap

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR N BATIN ATAS SEGALA SALAH SILAP, BAIK KATA MAHUPUN PERBUATAN...BIAR KITE KENAL MAHUPUN X KENAL...ATAU BARU NK MENGENALI...SEMOGA HUBUNGAN AKAN KEKAL KUKUH SAMPAI KE JINJANG PELAMIN (utk y berkenaan la)...haha



alrite yoo....chow!!!

Thursday, August 11, 2011

berbuka~~

alhamdulillah...

nak masuk 11th day fasting in this holy month..Ramadhan..
what its mean guy??
meaning that 10 day of rahmat already gone and now...
WE ARE IN 2ND PHASE...which is "keampunan"
so, ape tunggu lagi...
kejar yop kejau...hehe

anyway, today i had some "majlis buka pose HR Department"...
foods...
a lot a lot of food...can't imagine...
someone, somebody y belanje...so, blasah je...
nk tau total payment??
RM 1150.00...impressive huh??
my allowance for 2 month be spending within 2 hours....
Alhamdulillah~~bile lagi ye x...

somehow, teringat org2 kat gaza n palestine...
that thousand can spend mcm2 utk diorg kan??kan??
well, org blanje...so, syukur is important...ok??
syukur alhamdulillah...

tibe2 nak share kate2 one of my frenz today...for me especially...

"tim...thats is not something i need to say, its already implanted in my heart to always b there 4 u...cewaaahh"

serius terharu...waaahh!!!
happy....
ok chow~~

p/s: cepat nye ramadhan berlalu...sedih~~~ T.T

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah....
semoga hari nie diberkati dan diredhai Allah swt....ameen

ape y best hari nie dlm hidup korang??
hidup aq??
well, best..best...
hari nie berjaya khatam kan al-quran...
so, insya-Allah nekad nak khatam kali ke-2 ramadhan kali nie...
ameen....

sebenarnye, ramadhan kali nie...rs sangat lain tahun nie...
hari pertama: batuk, selsema + demam...(tarbiyah pertama rmadhan)
hari kedua: mintak cuti dr line manager...mmg sakit kepale n xlarat...

line manager balas: "Ok, rest well n take care"....
my favorite word...TAKE CARE...
n word nie byk kenangan dlm life aq...

nak share sms2 puase dr org la...

1. "Slamat mnyambut bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak...Moga kt dpt mnjalankan kwajipan sbg seorg muslim dgn sesempurna yg bolehn ikhlas keranaNYA"
2. "Jzkk.. Salam Ramadhan.. Moga Ramadhan ini lebih berkah.. Miss u sis"
3. "Salam..slmt mnyambut ketibaan bulan Ramadhan jgk tim..moga kte same2 ptgktkn ibadah, dan insy moga konsisten walau selepas rmdhan.. insy.. :-)"
4. "Alhamdulillah... Tq kak tim. ko xbalik ke bpuase kat rumah shari dua?"
5. "Wslm..amiin..Khaifa haluki ya ukhti?hehe sumenye dh de kn?tgl kte nk rebut je..tgu pe lg?jom amik sme2..ni kne tamak ni..hehe...nway slmt bp0se tim.. ;)"

anyway, byk je lagi msg dpt...tp sebab demam still de skit2 lagi...
so, xlarat nk tulis panjang2..

ape2 pun, i think bulan pose nie mmg byk je pahala nk grab..grrr~~
agak2 mcm tamak x bunyi nye tu...haha
ayuh semua!!!jom kite berpesta ibadah...insya-Allah...
semoga dipertemukan dgn lailatul qadr...ameen....

p/s: batuk da sedikit berdarah...but pray for the best health in this ramadhan...insya-Allah...xde org nk care ke???waiting for someone msg..boleh ke??

Sunday, July 31, 2011

my 1st

capture masa pesta flora...subhanallah~~
well...well...well....

its already RAMADHAN...oh my..nervousnye!!!
somehow, we already in ramadhan again...great feeling huh!!

great feeling, come in a great month with a great amal...wah~~
pahala ganda2 kot...

bulan nie...
amalan sunat dpt pahala amalan wajib...
n amalan wajib ganda 70...power kan??kan??
byg kan la...sebelum nie dosa2 byk kot...
y sengaje...yang terrr....haha
ape lagi...top up la beribu2 atau berjuta2, atau bertrillion2...haha
mungkin xdpt cover dosa2 y lepas (terlampau2 byk la kot, kan)...
tp at least...keampunan dan redha Allah la y paling penting...

nak masuk syurga, REDHA ALLAH la y diperlukan...
so...tok sah nk pikiaq2 lagi da...
jln je...byk ke x pahala, y paling penting ikhlas...
as pahala kan xnmpak...so, buat la dgn ikhlas..insya-Allah banyak...hehe

semoga dipermudahkan urusan...
as my 1st time...keje n pose...
tak pe...praktik2...

teringat mase jadi kem komanden bulan pose tahun lepas...rs mcm baru sekejap masa berlalu..
tanda x lama lagi dunia ini sebelum pengakhiranye...
semoga, aq bley me"remind"kan diri sendiri...
supaya bukan neraka y dikejar...tp syurga lah y menjadi idaman...
insya-Allah...ameen...

untuk mereka2 y minat orkid putih...special nie..hehe

alritezz yo, chow!!

p/s: my best frenz ask me if, we both should practik converse in arabic in our daily life...well, klu dpt tmbah pahale free, why not...hehe

Saturday, July 23, 2011

hurt


hurt means (past and past part. hurt) 1 (also absol.) cause pain or injury to. 2 cause mental pain or distress to. 3 suffer pain (my arm hurts). —n. 1 injury. 2 harm, wrong.

don't you know it actually can makes people cry badly??
so, don't hurt anyone...please!!!

my opinion, if u mad or angry with someone, u need to say clearly..whatz wrong and so on...
or else, misunderstand will take place...
silent killing, man...it's true~~

well, what the world i'm be talking about this issue??
it's just something i thought, some of these busy day...

i need to revise about something...
don't know la...something happen, and i'm surely don't know what...
but, things change...i just can predict the reason, but yeah....not power enough to make it sure...

a bit tired today..but hey!! its friday...
meaning that, tomorrow is holiday....
rest up my mind...my heart that hurt...yeah~~nobody care...
chow!!!

p/s: feeling like...i don't want today end like this bad...can postpone time a bit eehh??
letz stay up tonight and thinking what should things be....


Tuesday, July 19, 2011

sabar

alrite~~sabar...
sape xtau...sabar is sabar...haha

ade org, xmampu nk bersabar...tp tau x...
"the time kite rase da xbley sabar, tu lah sebenarnye permulaan sabar"...
so, sabar....haha

tinggal 5 minggu lagi...
last date praktikal aq...26 august 2011...
mmg da x lame lagi...fuh~~sabar..sabar...

today, buat kali ntah keberape ntah....
i keep making bad things, n my best frenz keep patient with my attitude...
well, my d-best frenz is always like that...
and sometimes u may feel bad to have a frenz like that...mcm rs xlayak..haha
ape2 pun, thatz a relationship suppose to be...

bile seorang buat hal, y sorang lagi bagi masa n ruang untuk perbaiki suasana...
because, "time will fix every things"...i'm sure believe that...agree??

anyway, my d-best frenz might be down now since result upu a bit disappointed...
ape2 pun i pray for the best becoming result...
GAMBATE OK!!!! yosh~~

so, lagi sekali...sabar is all about~~

p/s: tired and byk sgt keje...knape la hanya 4 org nak uruskan kerja kosong more than 100 vacancies...stress!!! anyone need job??


Tuesday, July 12, 2011

open

today, i just came back from office...suddenly i saw one video about bersih 2.0..
let go to this video: BERSIH 2.0

something playing around in my mind...
"Malaysia kah ini?? mentality kelas terendah..."
mane perginya hati perut as manusia??
mane pergi nya agama islam yang sepatutnya jadi pegangan...
persaudaraan sesama manusia....hak asasi manusia...
mane hilangnye bende2 tu...
serius....
well, hello....3 jam je kot...tp perangai polis2 dlm video tu sgt2 mengecewakan aq...
hancur habis respect aq kat pihak polis...
serius, drama Gerak Khas pun xkan dpt ubah lagi kebencian rakyat pada polis...
klu ye pun marah...tolong la...itu manusia kot..bukan haiwan...
kite tentu2 xnak ikut yahudi...for sure~~

ape2 pun kemarahan rakyat semakin membuak2...
mungkin ade y terbuka mata...n pada y belum, jelaskan video2 yang telah diambil mase perhimpunan bersih...
australia, and beberape ngare lain pun, sokong bersih..aman je...
tu negara bukan islam, k..tapi kite kat Malaysia???ape da jadi??

ape2 pun, kemenangan islam itu pasti...terbaek!!!!
____________________________________________________

ok, semalam berlansung la "wacana tarbawi Naib Mursyid am Ikhwan Muslimin"
mengingatkan kembali tugas n tanggungjawab setiap ikhwah akhawat baik y dtg mahupun xdatang....

alhamdulillah, Allah masih memberi kudrat pada aq n akhawat lain utk hadir ke majlis tu...
yup, sesat la jugak...
bley tak bg cadangan...jgn wat shah alam...confius jalan...tanda jalan xcukup..hehe

ok, letz see some picture: credit to Abdullah Mujahid



nmpak aq x??haha...
brothers in the house!!!


Saturday, July 9, 2011

haram

Mentality manusia semakin pelik and aq rase akan terus memelik kan diri diorang...
~~cewah...

erm, look what i found pagi2 nie??


perhimpunan HARAM bersih 2.0????

ooo....konsert ala2 dangdut mase smbutan raye hari tu xharam la...pastu malam kebudayaan, hiburan yang melata tu xharam la...
what a word...nie arahan dari uni aq...
lawak la diorng nie...

terus terang...mmg diorng agak2 nk kawal semua student la konon...
mase sem berjalan, kes2 y dirahsia kan tu, xpulak nk kawal...

ape2 pun, rakyat baik remaja ke dewase ke...
semua da jelas dgn propaganda org2 koler putih nie...
da la menipu, siap nk sorok lagi...
kes altantuya sorok, kes anwar difitnah menjadi...smpai da mcm citer kartun da aq dgr...

pada aq, hanya pengecut je y cepat melatah....
BERSIH 2.0 bukan la nk menetang diorang pun...tibe2 melatah xbrenti2....
siap buat iklan y x educated lagi...serius klaka iklan tu....
tp biase la...org y makan cili..mesti rs pedas...padan muke!!

Tuntutan BERSIH terdiri daripada 8 perkara, iaitu:
1. Bersihkan Senarai Undi
2. Mereformasi Undi Pos
3. Guna Dakwat Kekal
4. Masa Kempen Minima 21 Hari
5. Akses Media Yang Bebas Dan Adil
6. Kukuhkan Institusi Awam\
7. Hentikan Rasuah
8. Hentikan Politik Kotor.


so, tetibe y nk terase tu knape??nmpak sgt kecut sebab takut...
bak kate org n9..."takot pocah lubang la tu"..

ape2 pun, jgn gentar wahai rakyat MALAYSIA...mereka merancang dan Allah pun merancang..dan siapakah y lebih baik perancangan nya...

p/s: dpt arahan untuk ke BERSIH...peguam pun da siap tempah...xtau dapat p ke x je nie...insya-Allah dipermudahkan urusan antum semua...TAKBIR!!




Monday, July 4, 2011

what?

today, my colleague got his arm dislocated while playing basketball...so that a lot a lot of work still pending at the office...got so many interview need to be arrange...got myself confius and think beyond the thinking...

someone said to me "makin hari, makin kurang percaya aq kat ko"
erm~~what that suppose to mean??
got myself speechless for a moment....
somehow, i know... to believe someone is not that easy...
and i don't blame anybody...just put the blame on me...wah~~like a song i guess...

actually, i ask one question and i got one answer...
it is so hard when the answer u get, is not the answer u want...
might hurt u...but need to remember,

sometimes, u get what u don't want but it is actually the best for u, and sometimes, u get what u want but it is actually worse for u...Allah knows what u dont know...

so, i will doing my best and let the fate decide...
clear myself about something today...

p/s: i miss the moment i was at bintulu..

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

wordless Wednesday #2


my 2nd wordless wednesday...wuuhuuu~~~

:::::my wish for:::::
MUHD NUR AS SHABAH MOHAMED
Vanue: Cafe Serumpun
Semoga diberkati umur dan sentiasa mendapat keredhaan dari Allah swt....
kawin cepat skit...xsanggup aq nk tunggu sampai hang umur 30...kih kih

even though, hari nie sambutan kali ke-2 birthday ko...tp we had fun along the way, right??
and kek pun sedap kan??kan??
(sobah, thankz sanggup lmbat p tgk bola malaysia lwn Taiwan)
bak kate siti "da lame x happy mcm nie"
thankz to y meraikan:
1. Siti Nasihah
2. Zaim
3. Suhailah
4. Teh Arfah

p/s: lepas penat keje, rindu plak nk masuk blaja balik...wah~~2 bulan lagi!!!!

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

pray

i pray for the best~~
letz pray for the best~~
kita hanya merancang, dan Allah swt pun merancang...
dan sebaik2 perancang adalah Allah swt dan yakin lah perancangan Allah swt itu la yang terbaik buat kita...
baik buat aq, kamu, dia dan semua....

Oh Tuhan, seandainya telah Kau catatkan
Dia milikku, tercipta untuk diriku
Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Titipkanlah kebahagiaan

Ya Allah, ku mohon
Apa yang telah Kau takdirkan
Ku harap dia adalah yang terbaik buatku
Kerana Engkau tahu segala isi hatiku
Pelihara daku dari kemurkaanMu

Ya Tuhanku, yang Maha Pemurah
Beri kekuatan jua harapan
Membina diri yang lesu tak bermaya
Semaikan setulus kasih di jiwa

Ku pasrah kepadaMu
Kurniakanlah aku
Pasangan yang beriman
Bisa menemani aku
Supaya ku dan dia
Dapat melayar bahtera
Ke muara cinta yang Engkau redhai

Ya Tuhanku, yang Maha Pengasih
Engkau sahaja pemeliharaku
Dengarkan rintihan hambaMu ini
Jangan Engkau biarkan ku sendiri

Agarku bisa bahagia
Walau tanpa bersamanya
Gantikanlah yang hilang
Tumbuhkan yang telah patah
Ku inginkan bahagia
Di dunia dan akhirat
PadaMu Tuhan ku mohon segala

doa seorang kekasih by: in team

p/s: Hari nie mintak cuti...and my manager kate "ok"...tp aq rindu manager kat department distribution n logistic la...haha...boleh x??

Monday, June 27, 2011

arghhh


alrite, tgk title pun da tau aq stress tahap gaban...

masalah lepas satu, satu, dan satu lagi...dan lagi...dan lagi....
tak sanggup rasenye untuk teruskan praktikal...

belum 30 hari lagi, tp bebanan sgt2 men'down'kan aq...
serius...
setiap hari, ade je masalah...
and makin teruk dan terus teruk...

teringat satu lagu..
~~ujian adalah..tarbiyah dr Allah....~~

yup, tau...cume aq xsanggup untuk tunggu masalah terus terusan menjadi makin teruk dan teruk...
terase lmbat sgt 30 hari berlalu...
ketenangan y Allah tarik selama 30 hari ni buat aq semakin rs down...
setiap hari penuh dgn debaran n masalah...
ooo...sgt negatif rasenye jiwa aq sekarang..
bak kate nabil JK...jiwa kacau beb~~

besok ingat nk mintak cuti...
aq nk settle kan problem2 y menarik jiwa aq dr ketenangan...
so that aq xnk tanggung bende y semakin teruk...

ok la..chow!!!

p/s: i waiting a call that seems like not going to happen...so, i need to rest up my mind...fuh~~
zzzzzz......

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

wordless Wednesday #1

p/s: aq pun da terikut2 blogger lain wat wordless nie...tp nk jugak ckp skit..haha

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

scream


scream —n. 1 loud high-pitched cry of fear, pain, etc. 2 similar sound or cry. 3 colloq. hilarious occurrence or person.- oxford dictionary

well, klu buang "s", jd word cream..sound delicious~~

actually,
one unhappy day for me today....
because i just be rejected by somebody...
after 3 week reject another resume candidates for a job,
then today...i've be rejected...
seriously, the feeling not that good....
haha~~
what should i do then??
scream??cry??laugh??or pretend it never happen??
advice me one...please~~

forget about it??sound simple but impossible, rite??
but what other choice do i have??lansung xdiberi pilihan...hanya arahan....
but, ok...keje kat tempat prktikal aq skang pun kne dgr arahan...
so, might not bother me to follow this one...

hari nie,
duk depan komputer, tgk hmpir 200 resume and arrange 8 interview for my manager...
and sepanjang masa tu...aq senyum dan pikir...
oh Allah, ape y aq buat hari nie sgt lawak and sgt memperbodohkan diri aq sendiri...
hampir jatuh air mata aq, tp thankz Allah..disebab kan keje y banyak dan org kat bhg HR yang rmai...buat air mata aq lupa ape y perlu die lakukan...

but at least, i get my answer...
even though the answer hurting me so much...

so, no more question left in my mind...
everything was so clear...as clear as my tear...

p/s: need to note this date...so that i won't forget the hurt...so i won't do the same mistake~~


Sunday, June 19, 2011

uhibbuki~~

sejak 8 may 2011 sampai la hari nie...19 jun 2011...
brape hari da agak2 nyer hah???
erm...setelah kire hampir seminit...
nmpak nye jumlah keseluruhan hari adalah 42 hari...
wah~~seakan masa lambat sgt bergerak...
tp byk bende da berlaku dlm hidup aq, kita, dia, engkau, mereka, kamu etc...

setiap hari, ade je bende y happen...
baik, buruk, indah, teruk, kosong, gembira, sedih etc...

tak tau hari nie, mcm rindu sgt pada seorang insan...
insan y byk memberi aq erti hidup bertuhan...
i mean, mengenalkan aq pada jalan menuju ilahi...
aq tau...mesti susah utk die....dpt teman seteruk aq...

tp sejak aq balik semenanjung, tahun 2009 tu....
kite da jarang sgt tidur sama, makan sekali, berbual mesra same2~~
org kate, kami selalu sgt bersama...
so, tiap kali daurah mesti kne pisahkan...tp sebenarnye,kite da jarang bersama...
masa y ade cume dlm train bile nak p usrah same2...jaulah pun pisah krete....
train ktm tu je la mase kite...rindu saat tu sekarang!!!

rindu sgt nk sit and share same2 mcm dulu2....
byk sgt y da brubah dlm diri nie...
tau je...xbley jadikan alasan sebab kite da jarang bersama n kurang caring each other menyebabkan kite mudah lemah n mungkin malas, or mungkin down...
niat kne sentiase betulkan..memang pun, n tau je...
cume....klu dpt bersama2 lagi best...
hamassatus shabab!!

ape2 pun, jazakillah khair buat ukhti kesayanganku yang juga merangkap teman sejati, sahabat dunia akhirat, buah hati saya...hehe
serius, tanpa ukhti...mmg rs lain~~jauh kite walaupun sejengkal sememangnye memberi kesan y teruk buat saya...seems like i need u to baby sit me again n forever...
balik la upm, jenguk saya...duk pahang lame2 pun, bukan best...hehe

uhibbuki fillah (i love u because of Allah)

p/s: sedih sgt....n mcm xnk p keje je besok...xsuke...xsuke...xsuke~~~

Saturday, June 18, 2011

hilang

.......what else.......

i just feel like i missing something in my life today...

ignore me??
left me??

totally can't focus in what am i doing today~~

i have my headache...can't think anymore...
and plez to myself...don't cry...
hurt is nothing...

today,
its been 2 month of our friendship...
hope it will stay forever...
but if it turn the other way...
just letz smile to each other....

p/s: senyap dan terus diam...rase mcm ditinggalkan~~

Thursday, June 16, 2011

sorry

its been a long time i didnt wrote in english...
even my english was so bad, but still...i need to improve la...rite??

normally, i wrote in english when i had a bad time..
so that, i wont write long...haha

i dont know, but i feel bad in this weeks....
too many things comes in my mind..too many things to think..
feeling guilty with someone...
if i can turn back time, i won't send those msg...
but, it is absolutely impossible to turn back time...confirm!!

one thing i realize about my self...
i never learn from the past..keep repeating the same mistake over and over again...
(ntah bile la nk berubah nie??)

and i believe, things wont be the same again after this...
but, i bet...only the best thing happen...coz Allah swt is the one who planned all this...
so,what should i do now, is to be thankful...

but..its ok~~
i will be just fine...its about time to cure...


"maafkanlah bila hati tak sempura mencintaimu~~"

a great man won't cry if the big things comes, but actually will become more stronger...

p/s: pagi td nmpak je bulan penuh color oren tu...haha, xtau plak gerhana...well, love it..thankz Allah for that gift today~~

baby


baby...baby...baby...oooo
like baby...baby...baby...nooo...~~justin biberr...haha

xde keje kan??ntah tul ke x aq eja name adik justin tu...haha

ok, anyway~~~baru je balik dr salam wida'...serius usrahmates mmg banyak ajar tentang erti real life....
maklum la...aq n one other akhwat je y still bergelar student...
y lain...sume da keje and berfamily~~wah..
byk ilmu y antunna ajar...rindu antunna sgt2...
insya-Allah...next daurah kite jumpe...xlame da...hehe
nti update ye~~

ok2...
knape baby??
cewah...sendiri tanye la plak..as usual..kah kah

xde la...
hari nie, sebenarnye sgt excited nk jumpe my baby tasneem...
maklum la..balik keje penat kot...
so, mase nie la nak jumpe baby tasneem nk lepas penat...
tp, bukak2 je pintu krete...
"eh, mane tasneem?? (dlm hati da sedih~~)"
"Tasneem kat abi die...biar abi die blaja jage baby"
aduh...hancur hati ku...
tu y kuar lagu justin biberr tu..haha

da la my baby chocha jauh nun di seremban...
baby tasneem plak xdtg...waaaaa~~~nk baby!!!

satu bende la aq blaja hari nie...
mungkin setengah2 org kate penat nk jage zauj and baby (bg y da ade family y sah la ye)..
balik keje...nk settle probz umah...
tp my sis nurul kate...
"sebenarnye, byk y awak blaja bile da family nie...satu je..doa utk dpt zauj y memahami kene selalu...klu bley ikhwah la better...tp klu xdpt, cari la yang faham dgn keje dakwah kite...Allah akan tolong awak"

fuh~~ops!!! cukup sharing skit2 je...nk lebih, p la daurah BM...hehe

well, ape2 pun...aq rindu chocha n tasneem...rindu nyer~~~
penat x hilang bile xjumpe diorg~~

alrite all my dear....
besok ade kursus...biase la...bile da bergelar org HR nie...byk la kursus kne attend..cewah~~

anyway, siang td...one of my colleagues cakap...
"eh, fatimah...awak intern je yek??alaa...klu x, bley jd kawan saye"...
haha...da ade peminat tu...jgn jeles, k~~

ok...chow...
assalamualaikum~~~

dictionary:
1. zauj : suami/husband
2. BM : Baitul Muslim (keluarga islam)
3. Abi : ayah/father

p/s: ape pendapat klu amik anak angkat??mane tau bley hilangkan beban mase balik keje...haha...

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

gegar

fuh~~
sekarang nie susah la nk stay up...
pukul 11 p.m je mule la....haha

so, klu selalu update pkul 2-3 pagi, untuk 2-3 bulan nie xdpt la...
serius xlarat...
keje belambak...xcaye, tnye rakan sekerja saye...sape??
haha...carik sendiri....

buat mase nie...ade 7 keje y diberi...hope xtambah lagi...
skang nie...meje aq penuh dgn dokumen2, fail2...
tu xciter dlm laci...resume belambak...tp aq da bace la semua...dont worry~~
ade rezeki, dpt la...doa2 la....

satu bende la aq blaja sejak duk HR nie...
syarikat besar, serius susah nk amik dak2 fresh graduate..
klu diorg nk amik pun, pointer kne 3.5 ke atas..serius~~
tp jgn smpai 3.9...tu pun diorg reject...
sebab pe??sebab takut...dak2 pandai nie, klu dpt tawaran lagi bagus, confirm2 die lari...haha
well, tips nie kite2 aje...haha

ok, berbalik pada cerite gegar...
aq adalah diantara y merase gegaran nye...
pening smpai bawak ke malam...haha, power x power kuase Allah swt, lu pikir la sendiri...

5.5 skala dr indon membawa ke malaysia...ternyata kite serumpun...
haha...apakah motif nye??wah~~kite mmg sedare seislam pun kan....
so, peace bro~~

ok la...xde pe pun nk cakap...
hari nie penat otak..petang td pun, aq tinggal je manager tu interview...
da tu, sape suruh wat interview lepas 5.30 ptg, sape nk tunggu...haha

p/s: jiwa kacau la hari nie..byk bende aq pikir...pasal persahabatan...wujud ke persahabatan di zaman kacau bilau nie??argghhh~~aq serius malas nk layan otak mereng aq mlm2 nie...

Monday, June 13, 2011

almost

ok..disebabkan da 3 hari aq xbersama thariq my beloved one nie...
so, aq xnk gunekan software y byk (takut thariq merajuk)...
sooo....no dictionary, no microsoft, no movie maker, no...??
ok cukup...y penting google chrome still my fav features la..tu kne gune...welll~~~

klu xde y bertanye...biar aq y tanye...haha
knape "almost"??(alaa...tajuk kat atas tu...cetengok2...)

don't u know, "Almost" is the longest word in the English language with all the letters in alphabetical order. (credit to: OMG-Fact )

and, walaupun almost is word paling panjang dlm english language..tp xcukup panjang, klu nk dibandingkan dgn "keluh kesah kalah mak esah" aq nie...haha

today, i almost giving up with my job...serius tense and tired...
calling org tu, calling org nie (smpai tergeliat lidah speaking ala2 harry potter nie)...
last2 xdtg interview...mau aq reject je resume diorg tu...nasib bley sabar lagi memandangkan aq pun adalah bakal2 penghantar resume y bakal direject oleh org2 HR (human resource)...fuh~~

nasib kawan2 seperjuangan masih disisi, bersama-sama berkongsi sakit, suke n duke..mengadu cerita hati n jiwa kacau yang semakin membuas...cewah~~~jiwang la plak...serius, klu korang xde..da lame aq resign (padahal aq praktikal je..haha)

ok...buat pe citer pasal stress2 nie...kacau mood i je (ala2 fazura gitu)...

alright~~result UPM da kuar...
aq bajet, dapat la CGPA naik skit p 1st class...makan asap je la~~~whooaaahhh
ok, mcm sem2 lepas...aq tunjuk result aq...haha..jap g aq tunjuk....cewahh~~
sem nie...xde y spoil...sume ok...ok??haha
tp 1 bende la aq kne tanam...confirm2 result tu Allah swt yang bagi...
bukan sape2 tp Allah swt....yakin segalanya datang dari Allah swt....
alhamdulillah, sem nie result ok n a bit unexpected...
aq harap coursemate2 aq sume dpt y terbaik la gak...



nmpak x??haha...click utk y lebih besar....segan la tunjuk besar2..haha

Alhamdulillah...syukur kepada Allah swt atas segala y berlaku semalam dan hari ni...aq yakin besok adalah hadiah dari-MU..sesungguhnya aq mengharapkan y takdir y terbaik, y telah Engkau tetapkan sejak azali buatku...
byk dugaan dan cabaran setiap hari dalam hidup ku...dan aq yakin cinta dan kasih-MU tetap bersama...
and serius, aq rindu Rasulullah saw~~

jika bukan kerna insan y Kau temukan dlm hidupku, hampir sahaja aq lemas dan di bawa arus dunia y xputus2 menarik manusia ke lembah maksiat...

minggu nie mungkin halaqah wida' sebelum di pass ke halaqah lain...
perasaan aq bercampur baur...syg,rindu,sedih...oh my~~

ok la~~panjang plak....
ape2 pun, aq menantikan hadiah dari Allah swt setiap hari y pasti membuat bibir terukir dengan senyuman y tiada siapa pun mampu berikan padaku~~

p/s: baru refill minyak hitam...minyak brek belum lagi...ade sape2 nk sponser masuk duit dalm RHB x??haha~~my pleasure to have it...chow!!!


Tuesday, June 7, 2011

emosi


sejak 2 menjak aq praktikal nie,
byk betul aq main emosi...

train lambat....emosi
train cepat tp sardin...emosi
minyak hitam krete probz...emosi
tank minyak petrol asik tunjuk jarum full je walaupun da 3 hari....emosi (haha)
keje banyak....emosi
xde keje...emosi
and y paling tak tahan petang td

kne perli kat tempat praktikal....serius emosi~~
siap kutuk uni aq kot...
hellloooo~~universiti ranking ke-4 kot...
aq pun bagus ape...
keje patut 8:30 am- 5:30 pm...
tp aq dtg pukul 8:15 am- 6:00pm kot...
and elaun aq xde la beribu jugak pun....
nasib la y lain mmg 1st class...tinggal sorang tu je...
so IN-THE-BOX~~huh!!
kluar la skit dr kotak pemikiran kolot tu...
ade lagi org mcm tu kat dunia nie...issshhh~~~

dgn emosi y kurang stabil tu,
balik2 bilik je....
dpt pulak cerite2 y meng"geli"kan hati~~
ok...double attack kot...
skit2 da la~~xselera aq makan..terpakse tapau...mencikkk!!!

kadang2 perkataan kite bley mnyakitkan hati org lain...

dan
"tidak beriman seseorang itu, sehingga dia mencintai saudaranya seperti dia mnyintai dirinya sndiri"- Hadith 13 (hadith arbain)

so, bro~~lu pikir la sendiri~~
cube bygkan situasi nie...

"lu dtg rumah org, pastu lu curi semua harta org tu n bunuh semua ahli keluarga org tu,
last2 le, lu mintak maaf..."

agak2 ape perasaan org tu...
mgkin la die kate maafkan n xkesah (baik tu..hehe)...tp serius, makan dalam kot...

teringat kate2 ustaz rahmat dlm sang murabbi:
klu kite da paku sesuatu dinding, n bile kite tanggal balik paku tu....mmg paku da xde...
tp kesan stay kot....
mcm tu la jugak kate2 yang xberhikmah...

sedih aq....
n xde sape nk pujuk...xpe2...pujuk diri sendiri la~~haha


ok~~cukup la kenangan itu buat aq tersenyum...cewah~~
ok...chow!!!!

p/s: keje bertimbun td aq tinggalkan...so, aq nk tido dulu...then emosi aq da ok...buat keje pun mesti senyum punye...
tp bile pikir kwn sekerje sebelah meje aq....arggghhh...2 bulan lebih lagi tu...

Monday, June 6, 2011

time


time or....
1 indefinite continued progress of existence, events, etc., in the past, present, and future, regarded as a whole. 2 progress of this as affecting persons or things- oxford

well, i think the 2nd point is really related to myself...
why??because i think i just be a totally different person now...
totally...no doubt~~~

why??because...
when u change, u can feel it...and i feel it...
i'm not like this before...i mean, i much more better la before....

i think i want to change...how bout that??
meaning that, i can live without someone who can i called best friend...
i once live in that lifestyle...and i feel like i live life better~~

should i start today??
no no no....i should start a long time ago...
so, should i start now??yoshh~~

treat all people as the same...
no best friend, no bestest friend, no soulmate...soulmate??kah kah...
(mane la aq blaja perkataan mcm tu..adakah pngaruh rakan sekerja??)

no one could get more love from me...cewah~~
except for Rasulullah saw la...
my heart more toward him, and i won't feel hurt by loving him thiiissssss much...
promise that...haha

tired, hungry, sleepy, not in the mood....
making me unconscious, and in this time (beta wave)...
u can make all the decision as mind set...

so,
i (heart), agree to what brain have set...which...
brain said: "Heart...please don't get hurt again...or u make all the functional body not function..."
heart reply: "well brain...u need to decide something then...please don't think about stupid things again...ok brain??"
brain said: "as u wish, heart"

anyway, in hadith-6 (hadith arbain):
"...sesungguhnya dalam badan kamu terdapat seketul daging...jika baik daging itu, maka baik lah seluruh anggota...dan jika buruk daging itu, maka buruk lah seluruh anggota...ketahuilah bahawa daging itu adalah hati"....

so, the most important part in u, is ur heart...and for sure...
your heart needs al-quran n hadith+sunnah Rasulullah saw more than others things...
so, from now on...
i try to promise myself...
i will take care of my heart, my iman and my amal....
its about time to change~~~but, i really hate myself now....

p/s: ...........bile emosi mula melawan logik...

Saturday, June 4, 2011

cabaran




4th June 2011- 1:06 p.m.

arrgghhh....aq dalam dilema la...
besok my sensei nak kawin kat muar...
tp~~~byk bende kne pikir...

kenderaan, minyak, jalan (takut sesat)...
n y paling penting, isnin nk masuk ofis~~cewah....so, ape nk buat ar??
nak p ke x??nak ke x??adoiii.....

ok xpe...nti pikir lagi...

pemberitahuan: aq da start praktikal
hari pertama rs mcm nk giving up je...
serius byk giler keje...hari kedua, fail da ade atas meje...
hari ketiga, ade keje y nk kne settle hari isnin...waahh~~

serius kne telan habis2...byk bende kne hafal n buat...
nk tau aq bahagian ape?? jeng jeng jeng...haha
bahagian HR recruitment n training...
well, aq budak training, then aq kne train org...
best ke x, lu pikir la sendiri...
br la paham perasaan mereka2 y da keje...

mane dengan balik lmbatnye...
tenage kne perah habis2...pastu, mlm2 nye la nk p program kite, halaqah...
tp itu la kehidupan....
nanti~~bile Allah swt tanye tentang hidup di dunia...
at least kite xjawab "ohw..sy keje balik lewat...n xsempat nk fikir masalah umat lagi"

aq xnk hidup jd robot..
bgun pagi, keje, makan, balik keje, pastu tido...
besok...the same thing repeated...sgt robot..

biarlah aq balik bilik pukul 12 mlm pun...
penat, n kne pikir byk bende lagi...aq hepie~~

itu aq la..
aq tau je...rmai lagi daie kat luar y lebih besar cabaran mereka...
y aq belum rs..
teringat kate2 seseorang...
"klu x di uji dgn kesusahan, rs mcm xdisayangi Allah je"
well, serius betul....

ok la...hampir zohor...
yuk solat yuk~~~
semoga hari nie akan menjadi satu anugerah terindah dlm hisup kalian...
insya-Allah...amin

p/s: penat je menuggu org jhr balik upm, tp xde berite pun...so, nk balik seremban la...xnk tunggu lagi....

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

harap

harap a.k.a hope~~

aq ingat nk berhenti berharap la...bukan pada Allah swt of course...
tp pada manusia...pada dunia....
sebab??
serius, klu la manusia or dunia tu hancurkan harapan kite, confirm2 sakit bro~~
sakit hati y membawa kepada emosi y akan mengakibatkan sakit otak...
full stop~~

so, i hope i'm not hoping for anything else...
except, what have Allah swt already fated for myself...
its always the best..walllaahhhh

klu imbas2 kembali bende2 y aq harap pada manusia,
xbyk y bg respon positif...
sokmo negative je...
last2 aq gak y menangis xbrenti...
benci i~~~haha


tapi kan...
pernah x korang berharap...
korang duk depan mesin ATM, lagi2 mesin bank islam,
pastu harap akaun korang ade angka RM 5***.00..
pernah??pernah??walaupun korang x keje...
pernah??pernah??...
then tibe2 bile masuk kad, tekan no rahsia tu...
pastu tgk2, mmg ade RM 5***.00...
haha...

pernah??well, aq pernah...sape la bg tu agak2??
confirm2 duit rakyat...
anyway...mmg pun....
so, sebab tu...walaupun ape y berlaku mase aq blaja nie...susah, senang, payah, perit....
aq xkan sesekali hampakan rakyat y telah bersusah payah byr aq untuk blaja...
akan ku balas jasa2 kalian...insya-Allah...

secara jujurnya...
sgt beban bile kite dapat biasiswa...
klu kite berfoya-foya...duit rakyat la y kite tipu, yang kita hampakan...
n kite sebenarnye tipu diri sendiri jugak...
berat langkah bile kuar dr pintu kolej, bile pikir pasal tanggungjawab nie sume....
waaaa...kdg2 rs tak sanggup~~~

ok...cukup kesyahduan itu..
aq harap praktikal aq, Allah permudahkan urusan nya...
semua y mohon praktikal da pun dapat tempat praktikal...alhamdulillah...
Allah la sebaik2 perancang...
dan sesungguhnya hanya pada-MU aq berharap ya, Allah...

p/s: aq start 1 june kat kepong...well, my sis bg krete..hehehe...apa lagi~~~~ XD

Sunday, May 29, 2011

donation


haha...actually, i just don't know what is the best title should i put...
donation or blood??
anyway, i wanna talk about blood donation...
but since, i used to use only one word to describe things, so maybe donation is the best title to put on that place (title place)...walllaaaa~~

ok...
besok atau hari nie (sebab da jam 2:50 am) bersamaan ahad, 25 jamadilakhir 1432...
ade karnival kesihatan kat kawasan rumah aq...
kat mane??
p je senawang, pastu cakap Apartment seroja...
confirm2 semua tau...glamour kot...haha
well, semua dijemput hadir...
antara aktiviti2 y dijalankan (promote baikk punye)
1. derma darah
2. pertandingan masak2
3. Jualan n gerai...
4. check kesihatan
5. ntah...aq xtau..sebab aq bukan ajk..kah kah

berminat??dtg la..jemput2~~


anyway, sebut pasal blood donation,
teringat zaman bintulu...
well, as a ahli PBSM selama 11 tahun (sejak sekolah rendah),
aq confirm2 pernah derma darah...tp 2 kali je la...hoho
and y paling best, aq pernah jd pengarah program utk kempen derma darah...
pastu aq insaf....xnk jd pngarah lagi...haha~~susah n penuh tanggungjawab
xsanggup rsnya..tp timbalan pengarah aq ok..haha

ape type darah aq??agak2??
darah aq jenis kedekut...type AB+, same la dgn best friend aq..haha


well, aq rindu mase tu...ade la kenangan terindah y setiap kali aq tgk kempen derma darah, kenangan tu mesti menjelma kembali...cewaaaahhh...ayat xtahan...
kenangan ape??xbley la bgtau...
ingat lagi, kne marah pun ade sebab......ops~~rahsia lagi
tp byk aq blaja mase kat bintulu dulu...wah~~~
kire tempat jatuh lg dikenang la...

ok la..besok aq nk p berniaga...haha..
amik kesempatan di karnival itu...sshhhh, rahsia kite2 aje...
ok...jam da 3:06 am...
solat isyak da..so, bley tido la kot...
terbaik~~~

p/s: xde sape pun wish birthday tarikh islam aq (22 jamadilakhir)...sedih2..my best frenz pun xingat...y lain apatah lagi...n nmpak sgt xde sape minat aq...
argghh, suda la...baik aq tido~~~haha

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