but~~

"but"

a simple word yet important...

because it can connect two sentence become one...

and...

1. can give the fire heart become cool~~

how??

by saying in word...

" i have no money, no home, not working yet, not that rich BUT i love u and want to marry u now"

and

2. can give the great feeling become down, such as~~

"i love u and want to marry u now BUT i have no money, no home, not working yet"

can u spot the different??

just a thought for me today!!!

BUT....

love for Allah doesn't ask u to sacrifices anything(money,home,time,life) but only your pure n sincere heart...

and because of that pure and sincere heart u actually want to give everything to Allah swt...

got my point??

i do wrong things...and i don't know how to turn back time...

and i want to continue with the right thing, but i don't have the power to do so...

i will stuck in this place forever with the guilty feeling to Allah...

and i can't take it anymore...

crying everyday...

thatz all i can do...and trying hard to improve back my energy and feeling...

BUT~~~~

why i become so negative??

p/s: ayah masuk hospital lagi....and i really need someone to cry on...who can give her shoulder to me??

remind

a lots of things happen...

down, stress, tired....

a lot of assignment need to be settle in this week...

next week??holiday~~

am i happy??

no...why??

don't know...

i need to be strong....

to make everything back to normal...

insyaAllah....

p/s: walaupun die senyum, terasa berat dlm hati...mcm mane nk kembalikan senyumanya??

list

list means 1 number of items, names, etc., written or printed together as a record or aid to memory. 2 (in pl.) a palisades enclosing an area for a tournament. b scene of a contest. —v. 1 make a list of. 2 enter in a list. 3 (as listed adj.) a (of securities) approved for dealings on the Stock Exchange. b (of a building) of historical importance and officially protected.  enter the lists issue or accept a challenge. [Old English] - oxford dictionary

guess, there be a long time i'm not list up my task...

ok, let see...how busy i am:

1. designing tag for IASS (international agriculutre student symposium)

2. preparing some program book for IASS 2012

3. promoting IASS website for to all international university...

4. designing poster for agriculutre club

5. designing t-shirt for company

6. assignment current issue

7. final year project - not even discuss about what research that i want to do..
8. oh yeah...research method and quantitative exam~~next week

fuh...not even reach 10...guess not that much la..
however...all that 8 items not exactly an human priority job...

but if u not think that way...think back!!!

Allah not creating us to do that 8 items job...

for ALLAH sake, the answer NOOO.....

the priority is to be a musleem...

how??lets go to see what dakwah is all about...

go to: dakwah.info

whatever that all sahabat do a long time ago, thatz is exactly what we going to now!!!

no excuses...because why???

because....can't u see??

"betapa rosaknya umat" and i realize, how worse i am...

all that 8 item that i need to do, must not be the reason for not doing whatever Allah ask me to do...oh Allah, give me strength and never let me out from this path~~

passion to do whatever Allah ask, comes together with the perfect iman (faith)..

and the perfect iman comes together with great amal (action)...

and great amal come together with tsaqafah (knowledge)...

pray for everybody best!!!InsyaAllah...

_____________________________________________________

someone comeback from japan tomorrow...

have a safe great journey~~

welcome home....

excited already!!!

alritez...dhuhr(zohor) already...

chow yo....

yosh...

assalamualaikum~~

p/s: pray for everything goes as plan tomorrow...nervous~~

ISABELLA

for the first time, a women names' appear to be my entry title today...cewah~~

wondering...who is actually this girl??

what does she do to me??

will she touch my heart??

or maybe, she can change me to be a better person...

well, i think she can...

and she can do it to most people...

ok~~continue...

isabella is actually a title of novel that i am reading now...

the real story, ok.....(beli mase pesta buku hari tu)

what can i say about this book (i just read the first 70 pages now) is...

SUBHANALLAH....AMAZING!!

theres only 272 pages...but i'm sure...it has a lot of input to all of us...

different than other novel i use to read..(well, for real...im not really read books)

but this novel is absolutely great and different...

why dont try and find it if u hav time to do so...

can also borrow from me...if u know me...hehe

alrite...after i finish this, maybe i can give the overall feedback and maybe some sinopsis about this book....

ape2 pun, xmnyesal p pesta buku hari tu dan beli buku nie...

p/s: nk cari keje la...bosan gell duk umah 4 bulan...bley hypertense aq..haha

gambate

gambate (Japanese) means berusaha in bahasa..

cewah...see, i can speak japanese what..haha

nervousnyer..

final exam just around the coner..haha

my brother: "aq tinggal lagi 2 paper"~~siot je...

just wanna make me jealous...not going to happen...

anywhow, all subject this sem is killer...fuh~~

some assignment still pending...arghhh...tired doing this "sihir" job...

ntah bile nk tamat...adoyaiii...

let see what subject that gonna kill us...

1. farm management (killer)

2. leadership

3. entrepreneurship in agribusiness (killer)

4. financial management in agribusiness

5. agribusiness marketing (most killer)

fine~~forget about exam and all that dunniya things...

today i finally had a simple daurah with akhi...

after 2 years waiting, and finally....

can't tell u guys what actually i feel that time...

almost drop my valuable tears...huhu

first things that he remind us is

"Jalan dakwah perlukan keikhlasan yang jelas"

"keep asking urself, why choose this path and not the other"

"tekanan yang kuat kne di lawan dengan jiwa kita yang lebih kuat, or else kite akan hanyut"

oh my Allah...

this day, gonna be my day of push factor...

yes~~i wanna be the change agent....to change things not to be change by things...

permudahkan urusan dakwah ku ya Allah...

jgn sekali2 kau lalaikan aq dengan jahiliyyah baik yang da dibuang mahupun yang masih bertapak....

meh bace doa rabitah skit:

YA ALLAH,

Engkau mengetahui hati-hati ini

telah berkumpul kerana mengasihiMU,

bertemu untuk mematuhi perintahMU,

bersatu memikul beban dakwahMU,

hati-hati ini telah mengikat janji setia untuk

mendaulat & menyokong syariatMU,

maka eratkanlah YA ALLAH akan ikatanya…

Kekalkanlah kemesraan antara hati-hati ini

akan jalanNYA yang sebenar,

Penuhkanlah hati ini dengan cahaya RabbaniMu

yang tidak kunkung malap,

Lapangkanlah hati-hati ini dengan

limpahan iman dan keyakinan

dan keindahan tawakkal kepadaMU,

Hidup suburkanlah hati-hati ini dengan

ma’rifat (pengetahuan sebenar) tentangMU,

Jika Engkau mentakdirkan mati,

maka matikanlah pemilik hati-hati ini

sebagai para syuhada dalam perjuangan agamaMU,

Engkaulah sebaik-baik sandaran

dan sebaik-baik penolong,

YA ALLAH,

Perkenankanlah permintaan ini…

p/s: kepada mr.hiccup...jgn stress...semoga dipermudahkan urusan anda~~kite backup..=P

active

active means:

"marked by action; energetic; diligent (an active life)"-oxford dictionary

"Having the power or quality of acting; causing change; communicating action or motion; acting; -- opposed to passive, that receives; as, certain active principles; the powers of the mind."

-think exist.com

seems like my sister semakin active mengaktifkan kelas bahasa jepun online die...

the latest is "donna supo-tsu?" which means "sukan apa?"
tergeliat lidah i nak mnyebut but great sharing sis...love it

credit to u la : hayatinogoogle

mention about tergeliat,
my english not so good la...how??

trying hard to speak well, but haiyakk!!...really can't...

need some private class...without payment...anyone willing??hehe-kidding =P

some assignment already done, and some not even start yet...

oh my Allah....permudahkan urusan hambamu ini...ameen..

one question:

is that too much if we not allowed our best friend to have another best friend??

yeah....its too much...like i don't have that experience...haha

so, i think i make a mistake last day...i suppose to plan what i'm going to say before i started to open up my mouth....terlajak perahu bley di undur, terlajak kata....speechless jadinye...haha

hope no matter what the decision that my best friend take just now, don't have anything to do with my statement last day...hope so...or i will feel guilty forever...

remember about some thought that i read from a magazine:

"tak mungkin hati seseorang itu bersih jika kata2 nya tidak"

-lebih kurang mcm tu la nasihat buku tu...

takut kan??word from your mouth actually represent your heart...

semoga hati2 kita dilindungi dari sebarang noda...insya-Allah...

try hard and istiqamah is important...

tibe2 miss akhawat2....miss bintulu jugak....miss kenangan2 best kat tanjung batu...

miss...ops~~enough...nanti ter"nangis" plak..payah2...

erm~~anyway mcm pelik...

knape 2-3 hari nie asyik sebut pasal best friend aq jer...bosan la...

is there no other topic to talk about in my best ever life???~~whatever...my writing anyway...

oh ya...baru paham knape...

because there some person yang not allowed me to talk about him...

nak mention name x???erm~~agak2??haha

xpe la..nti merajuk plak...

ape2 pun, besok kne plan perjalanan...supaya x kucar kacir....banyak bende nie nak settle...

cewah...mcm la busy sgt...fuh~~busy2....

p/s: yahoo...da masuk minggu 14...hampir tamat jugak sem nie....
pray for everything run smoothly.....insya-Allah...as Allah planning the best for me and the rest...=)

guilty

guilty mean:

"1 culpable of or responsible for a wrong. 2 conscious of or affected by guilt. 3 causing a feeling of guilt (a guilty secret)"-oxford dictionary

sometimes, when we make a wrong decision, or some mistake...we dont actually realize the effect from that decision...after couple of time, then we know and realize...

yes..we can feel the uncomfortable about decision that we make...but to choose between two things~both will cause the same feeling~the, what should we do??

forget about "we"..its actually me...

i guess i just make the big mistake in mylife today...first time in my life...or i mean second time...

rase nak nangis??yup...but my best frenz use to say "u r stronger than u think"...

then, i know he is right...plus,

i know i need to pay fee for my mistake...xcukup ke dgn ape y berlaku sekarang...

thankz to Allah for make me to pay this in the world...it is better then hereafter...

need to change??that is the exactly i need to do...(tired of promise myself about this tp i'm still the same person as yesterday...what a pity of myself)...

pray for Allah not to take away this path from me...i know i make mistake and keep on doing it, but please dont take this from me...i really want to see him in hereafter...the one YOU love, and the one that i love too...

p/s: suddenly i feel like i need some word from my best frenz...tp die xkan paham jugak pun...

ape yang die tahu...ketawa...ish..mcm xde masalah jer die tu.... ape2 pun...thankz to someone for realizing this one...

attack

well attack a.k.a serang or "sorang" in negeri sembilan term....

attack ape??well, bukan aq yang attack sape2 tp assigment and ujian Allah yang bertubi2 yang attack aq...

syukur alhamdulillah to my beloved, Allah swt....

without some ujian, then i will not realize something...something that are very precious in my life...which is iman,amal and jalan tarbiyah nie...

its really hard and at some point its hurt, but i kind to love the feeling of hurt....

the hurt to love u, Allah...

lepas ape yang jadi 2-3minggu before nie, or maybe 2-3 bulan before nie, orrr maybe 2-3 tahun before...buat aq tersedar dari angan2 yang aq cipta sendiri...the dreams....

my frenz said: "once kite cakap yang kite cintakan Allah, then Allah akan bg kite ujian... whether it is true that we really love Him or not"

dan aq yakin setiap cinta pasti ada ujian bg mengukuhkan cinta....(sape kate org single xpernah bercinta...hehe)

i already get my test of love....test yang sangat2 mencabar dan kadang2 rase tercabar...

kite selalu nk jage hati orang smpai terlupa nk jage hati Allah...(just analogi kite sering abaikan Allah)..and aq xnk jd hamba yang macam tu....

teringat kisah Nabi Musa as...terlalu banyak ujian yang Allah bg pada baginda sebagai ujian cinta...dan baginda sgt2 hebat untuk melepasi setiap ujian....

pertama ujian tiada anak, n bile dapat anak diperintahkan sembelih (kisah korban), lepas ujian tu dtg pulak arahan untuk meninggalkan Nabi Ismail dan Hajar...dan banyak lagi ujian cinta dr Allah untuk baginda...

cemburu bile memikirkan, bagaimana baginda melepasi ujian cinta yang sebegitu hebat dan dahsyat jika dibandingkan dengan ujian cinta aq....subhanallah....

back to the title...attack...

assignment attack yang berlambak2 buatkan aq lupe skit rase berat hati...

and i hope i will forget something that i'm not suppose to remember soon...insya-Allah....

p/s: semoga hati ini terpelihara buat yang selayaknya...insya-Allah...

amazing

sea?? i know...
river?? i know...i know...
river under the sea???...thatz impossible, bro...
well, for Allah..nothing is impossible....kun fayakun!!!...

Dan Dialah yang membiarkan dua laut yang mengalir (berdampingan); yang ini tawar lagi segar dan yang lain asin lagi pahit; dan Dia jadikan antara keduanya dinding dan batas yang menghalangi. al-furqan:53

p/s: today is my sis birthday(in masihi)...pray for her best..

realize

realize means: be fully aware of; conceive as real

sometimes we are doing what we like..it is ok...
sometimes we are doing what others dont like...it is not ok...
yes, sometimes we dont even care about others but can u think why others dont like??

absolutely u can think...
if the things that u do, theres no bad outcome to other, i guess its fine...
but how if the other way round???

i just wanna share this...

we like to play YM, SKYPE, and what-so-ever la yang ade chating...
i guess 80% will lie about their self but not the other 20%...
this 20% will end with happie ending or horror ending...

change phone numbers and what-so-ever is really unrasional...
hey, that chatting ok...what u expected for??

it is alrite if the information that u given is something urs but please do not involve someone else such as your brother, and most importance is, dont sell out your sister number or info...
thats stupid attitude toward this evil world, IT chatting..
u dont know what is coming if your relation end with sad ending...

a thousand phone calls and unrasional text will be the outcome for others that u sell out, just because of the stupidity of this 20%...

realize something here...if not, please do...

hey girls outhere, dont jump yourself into such world...be genius...
we're not in 60's...

this is not a good picture but please realize something...

p/s: too many thing inside mymind now...with who i need to share????argghhhh