but~~

"but"

a simple word yet important...

because it can connect two sentence become one...

and...

1. can give the fire heart become cool~~

how??

by saying in word...

" i have no money, no home, not working yet, not that rich BUT i love u and want to marry u now"

and

2. can give the great feeling become down, such as~~

"i love u and want to marry u now BUT i have no money, no home, not working yet"

can u spot the different??

just a thought for me today!!!

BUT....

love for Allah doesn't ask u to sacrifices anything(money,home,time,life) but only your pure n sincere heart...

and because of that pure and sincere heart u actually want to give everything to Allah swt...

got my point??

i do wrong things...and i don't know how to turn back time...

and i want to continue with the right thing, but i don't have the power to do so...

i will stuck in this place forever with the guilty feeling to Allah...

and i can't take it anymore...

crying everyday...

thatz all i can do...and trying hard to improve back my energy and feeling...

BUT~~~~

why i become so negative??

p/s: ayah masuk hospital lagi....and i really need someone to cry on...who can give her shoulder to me??

decided!!

well...well...

tonite...packaging stuff and get off...haha

by tomorrow morning i need to admit one things...

I NEED TO START STUDY....AGAIN...

fuh..thankz Allah coz just one year left...

Alhamdulillah...

well, decide go to Manchester next year...so

guess need to pay some ptptn or else...BLACKLISTED!!!

sgt melampau...aq study lagi kot...siap tak bg tangguh...

uwaaa...ngadu kat mak...haha

however happen today...i guess i feel release..

why??

well, i decided something this morning...

something about my future...what is that??

wait until the day comes...hihi...secret for a moment...

sometimes, we think we can live better without anybody...

but in some moment...we actually can't....

people use to said...

"u only realize that u love something when the things is already gone..."

well, i don't want to be that kind of person...so, i decided to wait...

coz actually i'm already feel scared since last 7 dayz...

thought i already lost something in my life...something important and something that i love..

but actually, i don't...yet...hehe

so, i better take care of it while i still have it...didn't i??yeahhh...

one a.m in the morning...not finish packing my stuff...no one helps...

everybody sleeping and happy...

me...keep smiling~~

hoping and praying next 2 sem will be the best moment in life..insya-Allah...

alritezz yoo...CHOW!!

p/s: well, i guess i have new best frenz today and promise to love this one more..hehe..fair??yeah..i know...not fair... =)

today

TODAY i miss someone, hate someone, love someone, sad, happy, nervous,sick....
how about you??

haha...
getting start again using english or maenglish because i need to start some engine in my mind...haha
next week, back to school again!!!

after 4 month holiday...not really since i went to practical trainee...
but one week raya plus one week full real holiday makes me a bit.......

"arghhh...studyyyy!!!!"...haha..(student...u know...)

a bit nervous anyway...

not yet done my report...not even start it..haha
what a shame of me...get reallll plezzz...

next week nak hantar...oh my~~

somehow, my best frenz must be soo much nervous today...(somehow, i feel nervous for him)

his 1st day on plantation...hope everything will be just fine there...

ok frenz...nothing can stop u...

if u read this...chill out!!

i always support u from behind...so, chillex n smile!!

by the time we feel happy with our situation, other might feel different...

load of work, burden u so much...but less makes u down...

hope my lovely girl will fight the situation just fine...right shida??hehe

uhibbuki fillah ukhti...

let gather and talks someday...miss u!!ooohh

for myself...

2nd day fasting (pose 6)..makes myself busy,and sleep more...haha
need to forget all the things happen in this 4 month...kind impossible to success...

but, i need to...promise already...

yeahh...gambate!!!

alritez...nk p masak2 buke pose!!haha
chow yoo..

yosh!!

reason

tema: sebersih kuning 1.01...1st raye

hari nie...
RAYee ke-4...Jumaat...
serius aq ingat nk start pose 6 isnin depan...

reason??

sebab banyak jemputan la...haha

tinggal xde sape nk jemput aq p majlis kaween je...

no hal...i'm cool...

tema raye ke-2: kotak2 koboi...yeeeehhhaaaa

raye xsemeriah tahun lepas..

reason??

sebab my sis sume raye belah husband 1st day raye...uwaaa

tinggal la kitorg 4 bradik...ish3...

tema tahun lepas purple...tahun nie kuning...

tahun depan..jeng jeng jeng...green...

reason??

sebab mase beli baju kuning tahun nie...

"eii...lawa nye baju hijau nie...knape la tahun nie x hijau..."

and keep saying that until we find our yellow...haha

ape2 pun, i think raye tahun nie sedih skit (utk aq la)...

wawawa....reason??

aq je tau..haha

ok la...nak p raye key ell umah pak itam...
lame seh xmenziarah sedare belah ayah...

setiap tahun...confirm2 raye negeri sembilan...

tp kitorg still xreti cakap loghat n9...peh...lupe daratan beb...hehe

ape2 pun, agama lebih penting..cewah!!

alritez yooo...chow!!

YOSH

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah....

semoga hari nie diberkati dan diredhai Allah swt....ameen

ape y best hari nie dlm hidup korang??

hidup aq??

well, best..best...

hari nie berjaya khatam kan al-quran...

so, insya-Allah nekad nak khatam kali ke-2 ramadhan kali nie...

ameen....

sebenarnye, ramadhan kali nie...rs sangat lain tahun nie...

hari pertama: batuk, selsema + demam...(tarbiyah pertama rmadhan)

hari kedua: mintak cuti dr line manager...mmg sakit kepale n xlarat...

line manager balas: "Ok, rest well n take care"....

my favorite word...TAKE CARE...

n word nie byk kenangan dlm life aq...

nak share sms2 puase dr org la...

1. "Slamat mnyambut bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak...Moga kt dpt mnjalankan kwajipan sbg seorg muslim dgn sesempurna yg bolehn ikhlas keranaNYA"

2. "Jzkk.. Salam Ramadhan.. Moga Ramadhan ini lebih berkah.. Miss u sis"

3. "Salam..slmt mnyambut ketibaan bulan Ramadhan jgk tim..moga kte same2 ptgktkn ibadah, dan insy moga konsisten walau selepas rmdhan.. insy.. :-)"

4. "Alhamdulillah... Tq kak tim. ko xbalik ke bpuase kat rumah shari dua?"

5. "Wslm..amiin..Khaifa haluki ya ukhti?hehe sumenye dh de kn?tgl kte nk rebut je..tgu pe lg?jom amik sme2..ni kne tamak ni..hehe...nway slmt bp0se tim.. ;)"

anyway, byk je lagi msg dpt...tp sebab demam still de skit2 lagi...

so, xlarat nk tulis panjang2..

ape2 pun, i think bulan pose nie mmg byk je pahala nk grab..grrr~~

agak2 mcm tamak x bunyi nye tu...haha

ayuh semua!!!jom kite berpesta ibadah...insya-Allah...

semoga dipertemukan dgn lailatul qadr...ameen....

p/s: batuk da sedikit berdarah...but pray for the best health in this ramadhan...insya-Allah...xde org nk care ke???waiting for someone msg..boleh ke??

hurt

hurt means (past and past part. hurt) 1 (also absol.) cause pain or injury to. 2 cause mental pain or distress to. 3 suffer pain (my arm hurts). —n. 1 injury. 2 harm, wrong.

don't you know it actually can makes people cry badly??

so, don't hurt anyone...please!!!

my opinion, if u mad or angry with someone, u need to say clearly..whatz wrong and so on...

or else, misunderstand will take place...

silent killing, man...it's true~~

well, what the world i'm be talking about this issue??

it's just something i thought, some of these busy day...

i need to revise about something...

don't know la...something happen, and i'm surely don't know what...

but, things change...i just can predict the reason, but yeah....not power enough to make it sure...

a bit tired today..but hey!! its friday...

meaning that, tomorrow is holiday....

rest up my mind...my heart that hurt...yeah~~nobody care...

chow!!!

p/s: feeling like...i don't want today end like this bad...can postpone time a bit eehh??

letz stay up tonight and thinking what should things be....

sabar

alrite~~sabar...

sape xtau...sabar is sabar...haha

ade org, xmampu nk bersabar...tp tau x...

"the time kite rase da xbley sabar, tu lah sebenarnye permulaan sabar"...

so, sabar....haha

tinggal 5 minggu lagi...

last date praktikal aq...26 august 2011...

mmg da x lame lagi...fuh~~sabar..sabar...

today, buat kali ntah keberape ntah....

i keep making bad things, n my best frenz keep patient with my attitude...

well, my d-best frenz is always like that...

and sometimes u may feel bad to have a frenz like that...mcm rs xlayak..haha

ape2 pun, thatz a relationship suppose to be...

bile seorang buat hal, y sorang lagi bagi masa n ruang untuk perbaiki suasana...

because, "time will fix every things"...i'm sure believe that...agree??

anyway, my d-best frenz might be down now since result upu a bit disappointed...

ape2 pun i pray for the best becoming result...

GAMBATE OK!!!! yosh~~

so, lagi sekali...sabar is all about~~

p/s: tired and byk sgt keje...knape la hanya 4 org nak uruskan kerja kosong more than 100 vacancies...stress!!! anyone need job??

haram

Mentality manusia semakin pelik and aq rase akan terus memelik kan diri diorang...

~~cewah...

erm, look what i found pagi2 nie??

perhimpunan HARAM bersih 2.0????

ooo....konsert ala2 dangdut mase smbutan raye hari tu xharam la...pastu malam kebudayaan, hiburan yang melata tu xharam la...

what a word...nie arahan dari uni aq...

lawak la diorng nie...

terus terang...mmg diorng agak2 nk kawal semua student la konon...

mase sem berjalan, kes2 y dirahsia kan tu, xpulak nk kawal...

ape2 pun, rakyat baik remaja ke dewase ke...

semua da jelas dgn propaganda org2 koler putih nie...

da la menipu, siap nk sorok lagi...

kes altantuya sorok, kes anwar difitnah menjadi...smpai da mcm citer kartun da aq dgr...

pada aq, hanya pengecut je y cepat melatah....

BERSIH 2.0 bukan la nk menetang diorang pun...tibe2 melatah xbrenti2....

siap buat iklan y x educated lagi...serius klaka iklan tu....

tp biase la...org y makan cili..mesti rs pedas...padan muke!!

Tuntutan BERSIH terdiri daripada 8 perkara, iaitu:

1. Bersihkan Senarai Undi

2. Mereformasi Undi Pos

3. Guna Dakwat Kekal

4. Masa Kempen Minima 21 Hari

5. Akses Media Yang Bebas Dan Adil

6. Kukuhkan Institusi Awam\

7. Hentikan Rasuah

8. Hentikan Politik Kotor.

so, tetibe y nk terase tu knape??nmpak sgt kecut sebab takut...

bak kate org n9..."takot pocah lubang la tu"..

ape2 pun, jgn gentar wahai rakyat MALAYSIA...mereka merancang dan Allah pun merancang..dan siapakah y lebih baik perancangan nya...

p/s: dpt arahan untuk ke BERSIH...peguam pun da siap tempah...xtau dapat p ke x je nie...insya-Allah dipermudahkan urusan antum semua...TAKBIR!!

what?

today, my colleague got his arm dislocated while playing basketball...so that a lot a lot of work still pending at the office...got so many interview need to be arrange...got myself confius and think beyond the thinking...

someone said to me "makin hari, makin kurang percaya aq kat ko"

erm~~what that suppose to mean??

got myself speechless for a moment....

somehow, i know... to believe someone is not that easy...

and i don't blame anybody...just put the blame on me...wah~~like a song i guess...

actually, i ask one question and i got one answer...

it is so hard when the answer u get, is not the answer u want...

might hurt u...but need to remember,

sometimes, u get what u don't want but it is actually the best for u, and sometimes, u get what u want but it is actually worse for u...Allah knows what u dont know...

so, i will doing my best and let the fate decide...

clear myself about something today...

p/s: i miss the moment i was at bintulu..

baby

baby...baby...baby...oooo

like baby...baby...baby...nooo...~~justin biberr...haha

xde keje kan??ntah tul ke x aq eja name adik justin tu...haha

ok, anyway~~~baru je balik dr salam wida'...serius usrahmates mmg banyak ajar tentang erti real life....

maklum la...aq n one other akhwat je y still bergelar student...
y lain...sume da keje and berfamily~~wah..

byk ilmu y antunna ajar...rindu antunna sgt2...

insya-Allah...next daurah kite jumpe...xlame da...hehe

nti update ye~~

ok2...

knape baby??

cewah...sendiri tanye la plak..as usual..kah kah

xde la...

hari nie, sebenarnye sgt excited nk jumpe my baby tasneem...

maklum la..balik keje penat kot...

so, mase nie la nak jumpe baby tasneem nk lepas penat...

tp, bukak2 je pintu krete...

"eh, mane tasneem?? (dlm hati da sedih~~)"

"Tasneem kat abi die...biar abi die blaja jage baby"

aduh...hancur hati ku...

tu y kuar lagu justin biberr tu..haha

da la my baby chocha jauh nun di seremban...

baby tasneem plak xdtg...waaaaa~~~nk baby!!!

satu bende la aq blaja hari nie...

mungkin setengah2 org kate penat nk jage zauj and baby (bg y da ade family y sah la ye)..

balik keje...nk settle probz umah...

tp my sis nurul kate...

"sebenarnye, byk y awak blaja bile da family nie...satu je..doa utk dpt zauj y memahami kene selalu...klu bley ikhwah la better...tp klu xdpt, cari la yang faham dgn keje dakwah kite...Allah akan tolong awak"

fuh~~ops!!! cukup sharing skit2 je...nk lebih, p la daurah BM...hehe

well, ape2 pun...aq rindu chocha n tasneem...rindu nyer~~~

penat x hilang bile xjumpe diorg~~

alrite all my dear....

besok ade kursus...biase la...bile da bergelar org HR nie...byk la kursus kne attend..cewah~~

anyway, siang td...one of my colleagues cakap...

"eh, fatimah...awak intern je yek??alaa...klu x, bley jd kawan saye"...

haha...da ade peminat tu...jgn jeles, k~~

ok...chow...

assalamualaikum~~~

dictionary:

1. zauj : suami/husband

2. BM : Baitul Muslim (keluarga islam)

3. Abi : ayah/father

p/s: ape pendapat klu amik anak angkat??mane tau bley hilangkan beban mase balik keje...haha...

almost

ok..disebabkan da 3 hari aq xbersama thariq my beloved one nie...

so, aq xnk gunekan software y byk (takut thariq merajuk)...

sooo....no dictionary, no microsoft, no movie maker, no...??

ok cukup...y penting google chrome still my fav features la..tu kne gune...welll~~~

klu xde y bertanye...biar aq y tanye...haha

knape "almost"??(alaa...tajuk kat atas tu...cetengok2...)

don't u know, "Almost" is the longest word in the English language with all the letters in alphabetical order. (credit to: OMG-Fact )

and, walaupun almost is word paling panjang dlm english language..tp xcukup panjang, klu nk dibandingkan dgn "keluh kesah kalah mak esah" aq nie...haha

today, i almost giving up with my job...serius tense and tired...

calling org tu, calling org nie (smpai tergeliat lidah speaking ala2 harry potter nie)...

last2 xdtg interview...mau aq reject je resume diorg tu...nasib bley sabar lagi memandangkan aq pun adalah bakal2 penghantar resume y bakal direject oleh org2 HR (human resource)...fuh~~

nasib kawan2 seperjuangan masih disisi, bersama-sama berkongsi sakit, suke n duke..mengadu cerita hati n jiwa kacau yang semakin membuas...cewah~~~jiwang la plak...serius, klu korang xde..da lame aq resign (padahal aq praktikal je..haha)

ok...buat pe citer pasal stress2 nie...kacau mood i je (ala2 fazura gitu)...

alright~~result UPM da kuar...

aq bajet, dapat la CGPA naik skit p 1st class...makan asap je la~~~whooaaahhh

ok, mcm sem2 lepas...aq tunjuk result aq...haha..jap g aq tunjuk....cewahh~~

sem nie...xde y spoil...sume ok...ok??haha

tp 1 bende la aq kne tanam...confirm2 result tu Allah swt yang bagi...

bukan sape2 tp Allah swt....yakin segalanya datang dari Allah swt....

alhamdulillah, sem nie result ok n a bit unexpected...

aq harap coursemate2 aq sume dpt y terbaik la gak...

nmpak x??haha...click utk y lebih besar....segan la tunjuk besar2..haha

Alhamdulillah...syukur kepada Allah swt atas segala y berlaku semalam dan hari ni...aq yakin besok adalah hadiah dari-MU..sesungguhnya aq mengharapkan y takdir y terbaik, y telah Engkau tetapkan sejak azali buatku...

byk dugaan dan cabaran setiap hari dalam hidup ku...dan aq yakin cinta dan kasih-MU tetap bersama...

and serius, aq rindu Rasulullah saw~~

jika bukan kerna insan y Kau temukan dlm hidupku, hampir sahaja aq lemas dan di bawa arus dunia y xputus2 menarik manusia ke lembah maksiat...

minggu nie mungkin halaqah wida' sebelum di pass ke halaqah lain...

perasaan aq bercampur baur...syg,rindu,sedih...oh my~~

ok la~~panjang plak....

ape2 pun, aq menantikan hadiah dari Allah swt setiap hari y pasti membuat bibir terukir dengan senyuman y tiada siapa pun mampu berikan padaku~~

p/s: baru refill minyak hitam...minyak brek belum lagi...ade sape2 nk sponser masuk duit dalm RHB x??haha~~my pleasure to have it...chow!!!

time

time or....

1 indefinite continued progress of existence, events, etc., in the past, present, and future, regarded as a whole. 2 progress of this as affecting persons or things- oxford

well, i think the 2nd point is really related to myself...

why??because i think i just be a totally different person now...

totally...no doubt~~~

why??because...

when u change, u can feel it...and i feel it...

i'm not like this before...i mean, i much more better la before....

i think i want to change...how bout that??

meaning that, i can live without someone who can i called best friend...

i once live in that lifestyle...and i feel like i live life better~~

should i start today??

no no no....i should start a long time ago...

so, should i start now??yoshh~~

treat all people as the same...

no best friend, no bestest friend, no soulmate...soulmate??kah kah...

(mane la aq blaja perkataan mcm tu..adakah pngaruh rakan sekerja??)

no one could get more love from me...cewah~~

except for Rasulullah saw la...

my heart more toward him, and i won't feel hurt by loving him thiiissssss much...

promise that...haha

tired, hungry, sleepy, not in the mood....

making me unconscious, and in this time (beta wave)...

u can make all the decision as mind set...

so,

i (heart), agree to what brain have set...which...

brain said: "Heart...please don't get hurt again...or u make all the functional body not function..."

heart reply: "well brain...u need to decide something then...please don't think about stupid things again...ok brain??"

brain said: "as u wish, heart"

anyway, in hadith-6 (hadith arbain):

"...sesungguhnya dalam badan kamu terdapat seketul daging...jika baik daging itu, maka baik lah seluruh anggota...dan jika buruk daging itu, maka buruk lah seluruh anggota...ketahuilah bahawa daging itu adalah hati"....

so, the most important part in u, is ur heart...and for sure...

your heart needs al-quran n hadith+sunnah Rasulullah saw more than others things...

so, from now on...

i try to promise myself...

i will take care of my heart, my iman and my amal....

its about time to change~~~but, i really hate myself now....

p/s: ...........bile emosi mula melawan logik...

harap

harap a.k.a hope~~

aq ingat nk berhenti berharap la...bukan pada Allah swt of course...

tp pada manusia...pada dunia....

sebab??

serius, klu la manusia or dunia tu hancurkan harapan kite, confirm2 sakit bro~~

sakit hati y membawa kepada emosi y akan mengakibatkan sakit otak...

full stop~~

so, i hope i'm not hoping for anything else...

except, what have Allah swt already fated for myself...

its always the best..walllaahhhh

klu imbas2 kembali bende2 y aq harap pada manusia,

xbyk y bg respon positif...

sokmo negative je...

last2 aq gak y menangis xbrenti...

benci i~~~haha

tapi kan...

pernah x korang berharap...

korang duk depan mesin ATM, lagi2 mesin bank islam,

pastu harap akaun korang ade angka RM 5***.00..

pernah??pernah??walaupun korang x keje...

pernah??pernah??...

then tibe2 bile masuk kad, tekan no rahsia tu...

pastu tgk2, mmg ade RM 5***.00...

haha...

pernah??well, aq pernah...sape la bg tu agak2??

confirm2 duit rakyat...

anyway...mmg pun....

so, sebab tu...walaupun ape y berlaku mase aq blaja nie...susah, senang, payah, perit....

aq xkan sesekali hampakan rakyat y telah bersusah payah byr aq untuk blaja...

akan ku balas jasa2 kalian...insya-Allah...

secara jujurnya...

sgt beban bile kite dapat biasiswa...

klu kite berfoya-foya...duit rakyat la y kite tipu, yang kita hampakan...

n kite sebenarnye tipu diri sendiri jugak...

berat langkah bile kuar dr pintu kolej, bile pikir pasal tanggungjawab nie sume....

waaaa...kdg2 rs tak sanggup~~~

ok...cukup kesyahduan itu..

aq harap praktikal aq, Allah permudahkan urusan nya...

semua y mohon praktikal da pun dapat tempat praktikal...alhamdulillah...

Allah la sebaik2 perancang...

dan sesungguhnya hanya pada-MU aq berharap ya, Allah...

p/s: aq start 1 june kat kepong...well, my sis bg krete..hehehe...apa lagi~~~~ XD

donation

haha...actually, i just don't know what is the best title should i put...

donation or blood??

anyway, i wanna talk about blood donation...

but since, i used to use only one word to describe things, so maybe donation is the best title to put on that place (title place)...walllaaaa~~

ok...

besok atau hari nie (sebab da jam 2:50 am) bersamaan ahad, 25 jamadilakhir 1432...

ade karnival kesihatan kat kawasan rumah aq...

kat mane??

p je senawang, pastu cakap Apartment seroja...

confirm2 semua tau...glamour kot...haha

well, semua dijemput hadir...

antara aktiviti2 y dijalankan (promote baikk punye)

1. derma darah

2. pertandingan masak2

3. Jualan n gerai...

4. check kesihatan

5. ntah...aq xtau..sebab aq bukan ajk..kah kah

berminat??dtg la..jemput2~~

anyway, sebut pasal blood donation,

teringat zaman bintulu...

well, as a ahli PBSM selama 11 tahun (sejak sekolah rendah),

aq confirm2 pernah derma darah...tp 2 kali je la...hoho

and y paling best, aq pernah jd pengarah program utk kempen derma darah...

pastu aq insaf....xnk jd pngarah lagi...haha~~susah n penuh tanggungjawab

xsanggup rsnya..tp timbalan pengarah aq ok..haha

ape type darah aq??agak2??

darah aq jenis kedekut...type AB+, same la dgn best friend aq..haha

well, aq rindu mase tu...ade la kenangan terindah y setiap kali aq tgk kempen derma darah, kenangan tu mesti menjelma kembali...cewaaaahhh...ayat xtahan...

kenangan ape??xbley la bgtau...

ingat lagi, kne marah pun ade sebab......ops~~rahsia lagi

tp byk aq blaja mase kat bintulu dulu...wah~~~

kire tempat jatuh lg dikenang la...

ok la..besok aq nk p berniaga...haha..

amik kesempatan di karnival itu...sshhhh, rahsia kite2 aje...

ok...jam da 3:06 am...

solat isyak da..so, bley tido la kot...

terbaik~~~

p/s: xde sape pun wish birthday tarikh islam aq (22 jamadilakhir)...sedih2..my best frenz pun xingat...y lain apatah lagi...n nmpak sgt xde sape minat aq...

argghh, suda la...baik aq tido~~~haha

givin'up

give up is a term that people use to show how they down....
its like...

after so many things u try to do to achieve the aims, and after few times u fell...then u will feel this givin'up...

i feel it few times...yeah~~because of this internship...

suddenly, i get the place...

got tesco...maybe in human resource department...

well, may be i'm not good in HR coz not really my field..but, ok la...

but so many things play around in my head...

rumah sewe, transport, duit lagi...adoi...

give up rasenye...

and nk nangis pun ade....

someone y aq hope, kitorg dpt support each other pun mcm~~~hurm...

ape2 la...malas nk pikir...

anyway, i'll try to chill up my own self...

xnk pikir pasal org lain...terserah~~

call my best friend...

well, he the only person i can remember if i had a bad time...

smpai die cakap "oo...bad time je la br nk call aq..."

tp, nk wat mcm mane...haha~~sorry...but u support me a lot la...

tau x cost untuk call org klu gune hotlink youth??

murah la jugak...

12 sen=1 minit (call), no lain 18 sen seminit

1 sen=1 sms (sms), no lain 3 sen 1sms

normally i call someone in one hour...wow~~

3,687 saat= RM 7.38

ok..tu klu sehari...klu 10 hari...

xke RM78.30??

haha...ape tujuan aq bgtau nie??

saje je...

sebab nk g praktikal kat tesco nie, terpakse la budget duit...

mungkin xbley nk call lame2 lagi...haha

mcm nie...

klu aq naik KTM smpai kepong...kos...RM 13.60 (pergi balik)

smpai kepong, ade shuttle bas..............free

dr umah seremban2...............................free (abg ipar hntar)

so, total= RM 13.60 je without makan....

tp klu aq sewe umah...ntah la...

duit sewe, bil letrik air, transport, makan....

agak2 area kepong, brape kos hidup??

ntah la...fenin lalat la....fenin lalat la...haha

ok, fine...

ape2 pun...semua Allah da rancang...baikkk punye...

redha penghilang kesedihan~~kan?kan??

ok la...nk smbung pikir...

jam aq da pukul 1.03 pagi...

full stop!!!!

p/s: i promise not to cry....if i'm not promise that...i would cry right now....

today

finally, i've gotta say goodbye to all my final exam paper...

yeah~~finally...score!!!!

but the knowledge hopefully remains forever...

thankz to all my lecturer and also my course-mate...

my friends and my best friend...

my group member~~

sorry if i said before this i dont want u guyz to be my group member ever...

maybe i just lost control a bit..u know what stress can bring u to...

and specially thankz goes to someone that always be my group member in this semester...

thankz for everything...

next sem??don't know (mane la tau 6 bulan xjumpe)..hehe

talking about today...

firstly, i need to settle all my practical problemz...

not yet settle...erm~~so complicated...

harap2 dapat la...tp klu xdpt pun, insya-Allah, i'm fully prepared..insya-Allah...

and for akhawatz yang tgh wat prog adik IPK...

pray for everything fine...

really sorry coz cannot join u girlz...afwan~~

today, hopefully much better than yesterday...

yesterday gotta be a memoriez...either u want to remember or not...

but, last day (8 may 2011) or "mei" in malay...hehe =P

it is sure be my unique memory...

why>>...secret~~hehe

erm,today...

klu semua perasan la kan...

2-3 hari nie panas lain mcm skit~~

upm, klu panas mesti hujan....tp 2-3 hari nie x...

pelik...pelik~~~ok xde la pelik jugak pun...

mcm la xpernah terjadi...hehe

panas2...layan ice room ok gak na??

terbaik~~lagi2 bile org belanje...thankz =)

sebenarnye rs mcm sayu je nk tinggalkan upm nie...cewah~~

xtau knape...

mungkin sebab sem nie...

1. aq paling kurang balik rumah...

2. aq paling banyak assignemnt

3. aq paling byk habiskan masa dgn upm..

4. aq paling...er~~~tu je kot...haha

jd rs lain...lagi2 klu aq xdapat praktikal cuti nie...

lagi la...

7 bulan kot tinggalkan upm...

and mungkin xjumpe course-mate2 aq selama setahun...

setahun tu~~gonna miss all of them (mcm confirm je xdpt pratikal)...haha

ok...satu rangkap untuk semua:

"kasihku.....

ku amat mencintai kamu.......

kerna kau beri arti hidup...

ku kan terus mencinta....

sedetik lebih~~~

selepas selamanya...."

p/s: besok insya-Allah balik ghumah den kek somban...lamo bonar den xbalik...smpai anak buah den pun x kenai laie maksu dio...xbley jd nie...4 bulan nie den nk kenalkan diri den je kek anak buah den...confirm~~~lame tu....fuh~~

langkah

i'm not sure, what is "langkah" in arabic, but i know...

muntalaq mean langkah bermula...

someone ask me:

"betul ke nie ujian kite??"

"ape y kite rancang, x macam yang kite rancang.."

me: "yup, ini lah ujian.."

mungkin dalam keadaan depress, kite akan rasa mcm2 dgn takdir yang berlaku...

kite rs xbermaya, xde mood, rs nk larikan diri dr dunia y penuh dgn harapan y palsu...

tp bile smpai satu tahap...kite akan dapat rase hikmah disebalik setiap kejadian yang berlaku...

sudah menjadi fitrah manusia yang inginkan hikmah itu didepan mata (muqadimah tafsir fi zilal)

tp, keyakinan dan pegangan y kuat akan buat kite sabar dan tabah dlm hidup...

the truth is:

mungkin aq tertekan dgn kehendak dan keperluan...

kehendak nak abiskan degree 3 tahun, mcm kne pending dulu...

dan atas sebab kehendak tidak dapat dipenuhi...

keperluan jd mcm bukan lagi keperluan...

mood: mula rs malas nk amik tahu segla bende...rase mcm.....xbest...

mungkin rs nk marah sepanjang masa...mungkin rs xbley nak bercakap dgn baik...

setiap word mula ditemani dgn air mata...

n bile dipikir2 balik...knape la jd mcm nie???

kehendak menguasai diri melebihi keperluan...

binasa la jiwa klu mcm nie...

mungkin helaian 1-2 muka surat al-quran da xcukup lagi utk tenang kan hati and jiwa yang berkecamuk...kne tambah bilangan page nie...

semoga Allah permudahkan urusan...

p/s: rs mcm Allah da bg aku uruskan dunia aku sendiri...teruk nye aq sebgai insan dan bukan manusia...

undur

undur (in malay) or reverse (in english) means:

"turn the other way round or up or inside out. 2 change to the opposite character or effect. 3 (cause to) travel backwards. 4 make (an engine etc.) work in a contrary direction. 5 revoke or annul (a decree, act, etc."-oxford dictionary...

i'm not really wanna talk about reverse anyway...

i was just thinking, if i cant turn back time...

what actually i wanna be today??

that i am better or much worse??

ever have a thought about it??

someone said, that i reveal too much my personal story in my writing...

well, he's right...

i should do something thats benefits others using this social media...

but, i'm not good in advising people...apatah lagi untuk meng'inspired' orang lain...

so, i just thought maybe my story would be some moral value to others...

about what am i doing, what am i feels about what am i doing...

i just hope so...but if it wasn't, so i couldn't do anything bout it...

today, i go through my 2nd killer subject...

yeah...but always keep a thought in my mind..

"bukan lecture yang bagi markah...tp Allah yang bagi markah.."

and i believe, evertyhing is already being fate...

like hadith 19 in hadith arbain...

"pena telah terangkat dan dakwat telah kering"...

in life..."reward (pahala) goes to somebody that keep the hardwork...."

i need to keep that in mind...

actually, many things keep running around and around in my mind....

1stly,my practical not yet decided...may be not going to settle my degree in 3 years...

i actually sad...and sometimes, i can't even focus...

the things that i plan not going as i plan...anyways, Allah is the best planner...

yeah...i know and i should believe it...but still i want to cry...(need someone to talk to)...

2ndly, i make a lot of mistake in my bizness plan...(well, its going to ruin my others members mark)

feel guilty about it...sgt~~~

am i stress about it??

no...i'm not...

someone use to wrote something to me:

"dont stress up ur self again..coz i dont want to see ur face full of stress again"

so, i hope i dont show any of my stress stuff towards others...

let see the positive side of this life...be optimistic person...

or maybe...if i stress, i can go to "TAMAN RIMBA KITA" and screammmm there~~~

so that, i will smile back later...insya-Allah...

as conclusion (cewahhh~~)

i don't think i'll be better person if i can turn back time...

coz, the best thing that happen in life is the things that already be fated for us by Allah swt...

right??

to someone: don't stress up urself too...smile can heal the hurt...not only for u, but also for someone else...

p/s: 2 more paper to go...pray for everything goes smoothly...hehe..dean in hand??pray for that also...haha

menang

menang a.k.a win(english) means:

"secure as a result of a fight, contest, bet, effort, etc. 2 be the victor; be victorious in. —n. victory in a game etc" - oxford

first...sgt letih karnival renang hari nie..but...

i am absolutely happy...sebab ape??

finally, i dont have to think anything more about this carnival...mess...

ok...forget about the bad things that happen...=P

ehm, why win??

yeah...i am the winner...haha

doing my synchronize jumping and guess what??

i get the first prize worth: RM50...dont be jelous...

i beat up all the 13 others group...

wow!!~~

actually, i use to dream to be in that synchronize jumping (always watch in TV mase kecik2)...

but now, i won the game...

should/need go to WAMY this evening...

got important thing...

alamak!!!tazkirah x cari lagi...

alrite lah...

just want to talk about my victory...haha what the...

may be we can share something by tomorrow...

let me list up my job:

1. Bizness plan

2. Marketing plan

3. SWOT analysis and MAtrix function

4. IASS...what???

IASS???!!!!ohhh....letz fight for the best!!!!

p/s: really hope somebody would slap me because of my bad attitude i had...need to change that...for sure....

stress

stress means

"1 a pressure or tension. b quantity measuring this. 2 a physical or mental strain"-oxford

i just realize, even though my life full with all this stress stuff...

but i never wrote this title...i guess i'm not stress enough then...

besok, presentation bizness plan...

after i ruin my marketing plan presentation, i pray i dont do the same tomorrow..

gambate to all 3 group that will present tomorrow...

my group: shami himitsu farm

and other group:

pentagon leaf, plus "my superman" group..

since i made the logo for my group and pentagon leaf...

let see...is it ok??(doesnt matter..besok da nk present pun)..haha

so how??hehe...

ohh ya, isnin depan pun ade presentation lagi...

semoga Allah permudahkan urusan sihir ku yang nmpak nye semakin hebat menerjah diriku...

sihir...sihir...

team~~jgn la jd student oriented....promise myself that one...

but

the question is??

did i feel stress because all this stuff??no...never....

but i do feel stress for something else...

sometimes, no matter how hard we try to forget, we just can't...

so many things happen today...

already 3:01 am, and i dont feel like i wanna sleep...

because......arghh, forget it...

why i have this fragile heart...

i suppose to be cold person...

so that i will ignore all the things that makes my life miserable...

hate myself.....

i should focus on what exactly the most important in life...not this feeling...

i should try to get sleep, or i will lost on presentation tomorrow...

p/s: bile la agak2nyer org bintulu tu nk dtg semenanjung...

da xsanggup nk duduk upm nie...

hampir rosak jiwa....

cepat la datang.....