peace =P

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

wordless Wednesday #2


my 2nd wordless wednesday...wuuhuuu~~~

:::::my wish for:::::
MUHD NUR AS SHABAH MOHAMED
Vanue: Cafe Serumpun
Semoga diberkati umur dan sentiasa mendapat keredhaan dari Allah swt....
kawin cepat skit...xsanggup aq nk tunggu sampai hang umur 30...kih kih

even though, hari nie sambutan kali ke-2 birthday ko...tp we had fun along the way, right??
and kek pun sedap kan??kan??
(sobah, thankz sanggup lmbat p tgk bola malaysia lwn Taiwan)
bak kate siti "da lame x happy mcm nie"
thankz to y meraikan:
1. Siti Nasihah
2. Zaim
3. Suhailah
4. Teh Arfah

p/s: lepas penat keje, rindu plak nk masuk blaja balik...wah~~2 bulan lagi!!!!

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

pray

i pray for the best~~
letz pray for the best~~
kita hanya merancang, dan Allah swt pun merancang...
dan sebaik2 perancang adalah Allah swt dan yakin lah perancangan Allah swt itu la yang terbaik buat kita...
baik buat aq, kamu, dia dan semua....

Oh Tuhan, seandainya telah Kau catatkan
Dia milikku, tercipta untuk diriku
Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Titipkanlah kebahagiaan

Ya Allah, ku mohon
Apa yang telah Kau takdirkan
Ku harap dia adalah yang terbaik buatku
Kerana Engkau tahu segala isi hatiku
Pelihara daku dari kemurkaanMu

Ya Tuhanku, yang Maha Pemurah
Beri kekuatan jua harapan
Membina diri yang lesu tak bermaya
Semaikan setulus kasih di jiwa

Ku pasrah kepadaMu
Kurniakanlah aku
Pasangan yang beriman
Bisa menemani aku
Supaya ku dan dia
Dapat melayar bahtera
Ke muara cinta yang Engkau redhai

Ya Tuhanku, yang Maha Pengasih
Engkau sahaja pemeliharaku
Dengarkan rintihan hambaMu ini
Jangan Engkau biarkan ku sendiri

Agarku bisa bahagia
Walau tanpa bersamanya
Gantikanlah yang hilang
Tumbuhkan yang telah patah
Ku inginkan bahagia
Di dunia dan akhirat
PadaMu Tuhan ku mohon segala

doa seorang kekasih by: in team

p/s: Hari nie mintak cuti...and my manager kate "ok"...tp aq rindu manager kat department distribution n logistic la...haha...boleh x??

Monday, June 27, 2011

arghhh


alrite, tgk title pun da tau aq stress tahap gaban...

masalah lepas satu, satu, dan satu lagi...dan lagi...dan lagi....
tak sanggup rasenye untuk teruskan praktikal...

belum 30 hari lagi, tp bebanan sgt2 men'down'kan aq...
serius...
setiap hari, ade je masalah...
and makin teruk dan terus teruk...

teringat satu lagu..
~~ujian adalah..tarbiyah dr Allah....~~

yup, tau...cume aq xsanggup untuk tunggu masalah terus terusan menjadi makin teruk dan teruk...
terase lmbat sgt 30 hari berlalu...
ketenangan y Allah tarik selama 30 hari ni buat aq semakin rs down...
setiap hari penuh dgn debaran n masalah...
ooo...sgt negatif rasenye jiwa aq sekarang..
bak kate nabil JK...jiwa kacau beb~~

besok ingat nk mintak cuti...
aq nk settle kan problem2 y menarik jiwa aq dr ketenangan...
so that aq xnk tanggung bende y semakin teruk...

ok la..chow!!!

p/s: i waiting a call that seems like not going to happen...so, i need to rest up my mind...fuh~~
zzzzzz......

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

wordless Wednesday #1

p/s: aq pun da terikut2 blogger lain wat wordless nie...tp nk jugak ckp skit..haha

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

scream


scream —n. 1 loud high-pitched cry of fear, pain, etc. 2 similar sound or cry. 3 colloq. hilarious occurrence or person.- oxford dictionary

well, klu buang "s", jd word cream..sound delicious~~

actually,
one unhappy day for me today....
because i just be rejected by somebody...
after 3 week reject another resume candidates for a job,
then today...i've be rejected...
seriously, the feeling not that good....
haha~~
what should i do then??
scream??cry??laugh??or pretend it never happen??
advice me one...please~~

forget about it??sound simple but impossible, rite??
but what other choice do i have??lansung xdiberi pilihan...hanya arahan....
but, ok...keje kat tempat prktikal aq skang pun kne dgr arahan...
so, might not bother me to follow this one...

hari nie,
duk depan komputer, tgk hmpir 200 resume and arrange 8 interview for my manager...
and sepanjang masa tu...aq senyum dan pikir...
oh Allah, ape y aq buat hari nie sgt lawak and sgt memperbodohkan diri aq sendiri...
hampir jatuh air mata aq, tp thankz Allah..disebab kan keje y banyak dan org kat bhg HR yang rmai...buat air mata aq lupa ape y perlu die lakukan...

but at least, i get my answer...
even though the answer hurting me so much...

so, no more question left in my mind...
everything was so clear...as clear as my tear...

p/s: need to note this date...so that i won't forget the hurt...so i won't do the same mistake~~


Sunday, June 19, 2011

uhibbuki~~

sejak 8 may 2011 sampai la hari nie...19 jun 2011...
brape hari da agak2 nyer hah???
erm...setelah kire hampir seminit...
nmpak nye jumlah keseluruhan hari adalah 42 hari...
wah~~seakan masa lambat sgt bergerak...
tp byk bende da berlaku dlm hidup aq, kita, dia, engkau, mereka, kamu etc...

setiap hari, ade je bende y happen...
baik, buruk, indah, teruk, kosong, gembira, sedih etc...

tak tau hari nie, mcm rindu sgt pada seorang insan...
insan y byk memberi aq erti hidup bertuhan...
i mean, mengenalkan aq pada jalan menuju ilahi...
aq tau...mesti susah utk die....dpt teman seteruk aq...

tp sejak aq balik semenanjung, tahun 2009 tu....
kite da jarang sgt tidur sama, makan sekali, berbual mesra same2~~
org kate, kami selalu sgt bersama...
so, tiap kali daurah mesti kne pisahkan...tp sebenarnye,kite da jarang bersama...
masa y ade cume dlm train bile nak p usrah same2...jaulah pun pisah krete....
train ktm tu je la mase kite...rindu saat tu sekarang!!!

rindu sgt nk sit and share same2 mcm dulu2....
byk sgt y da brubah dlm diri nie...
tau je...xbley jadikan alasan sebab kite da jarang bersama n kurang caring each other menyebabkan kite mudah lemah n mungkin malas, or mungkin down...
niat kne sentiase betulkan..memang pun, n tau je...
cume....klu dpt bersama2 lagi best...
hamassatus shabab!!

ape2 pun, jazakillah khair buat ukhti kesayanganku yang juga merangkap teman sejati, sahabat dunia akhirat, buah hati saya...hehe
serius, tanpa ukhti...mmg rs lain~~jauh kite walaupun sejengkal sememangnye memberi kesan y teruk buat saya...seems like i need u to baby sit me again n forever...
balik la upm, jenguk saya...duk pahang lame2 pun, bukan best...hehe

uhibbuki fillah (i love u because of Allah)

p/s: sedih sgt....n mcm xnk p keje je besok...xsuke...xsuke...xsuke~~~

Saturday, June 18, 2011

hilang

.......what else.......

i just feel like i missing something in my life today...

ignore me??
left me??

totally can't focus in what am i doing today~~

i have my headache...can't think anymore...
and plez to myself...don't cry...
hurt is nothing...

today,
its been 2 month of our friendship...
hope it will stay forever...
but if it turn the other way...
just letz smile to each other....

p/s: senyap dan terus diam...rase mcm ditinggalkan~~

Thursday, June 16, 2011

sorry

its been a long time i didnt wrote in english...
even my english was so bad, but still...i need to improve la...rite??

normally, i wrote in english when i had a bad time..
so that, i wont write long...haha

i dont know, but i feel bad in this weeks....
too many things comes in my mind..too many things to think..
feeling guilty with someone...
if i can turn back time, i won't send those msg...
but, it is absolutely impossible to turn back time...confirm!!

one thing i realize about my self...
i never learn from the past..keep repeating the same mistake over and over again...
(ntah bile la nk berubah nie??)

and i believe, things wont be the same again after this...
but, i bet...only the best thing happen...coz Allah swt is the one who planned all this...
so,what should i do now, is to be thankful...

but..its ok~~
i will be just fine...its about time to cure...


"maafkanlah bila hati tak sempura mencintaimu~~"

a great man won't cry if the big things comes, but actually will become more stronger...

p/s: pagi td nmpak je bulan penuh color oren tu...haha, xtau plak gerhana...well, love it..thankz Allah for that gift today~~

baby


baby...baby...baby...oooo
like baby...baby...baby...nooo...~~justin biberr...haha

xde keje kan??ntah tul ke x aq eja name adik justin tu...haha

ok, anyway~~~baru je balik dr salam wida'...serius usrahmates mmg banyak ajar tentang erti real life....
maklum la...aq n one other akhwat je y still bergelar student...
y lain...sume da keje and berfamily~~wah..
byk ilmu y antunna ajar...rindu antunna sgt2...
insya-Allah...next daurah kite jumpe...xlame da...hehe
nti update ye~~

ok2...
knape baby??
cewah...sendiri tanye la plak..as usual..kah kah

xde la...
hari nie, sebenarnye sgt excited nk jumpe my baby tasneem...
maklum la..balik keje penat kot...
so, mase nie la nak jumpe baby tasneem nk lepas penat...
tp, bukak2 je pintu krete...
"eh, mane tasneem?? (dlm hati da sedih~~)"
"Tasneem kat abi die...biar abi die blaja jage baby"
aduh...hancur hati ku...
tu y kuar lagu justin biberr tu..haha

da la my baby chocha jauh nun di seremban...
baby tasneem plak xdtg...waaaaa~~~nk baby!!!

satu bende la aq blaja hari nie...
mungkin setengah2 org kate penat nk jage zauj and baby (bg y da ade family y sah la ye)..
balik keje...nk settle probz umah...
tp my sis nurul kate...
"sebenarnye, byk y awak blaja bile da family nie...satu je..doa utk dpt zauj y memahami kene selalu...klu bley ikhwah la better...tp klu xdpt, cari la yang faham dgn keje dakwah kite...Allah akan tolong awak"

fuh~~ops!!! cukup sharing skit2 je...nk lebih, p la daurah BM...hehe

well, ape2 pun...aq rindu chocha n tasneem...rindu nyer~~~
penat x hilang bile xjumpe diorg~~

alrite all my dear....
besok ade kursus...biase la...bile da bergelar org HR nie...byk la kursus kne attend..cewah~~

anyway, siang td...one of my colleagues cakap...
"eh, fatimah...awak intern je yek??alaa...klu x, bley jd kawan saye"...
haha...da ade peminat tu...jgn jeles, k~~

ok...chow...
assalamualaikum~~~

dictionary:
1. zauj : suami/husband
2. BM : Baitul Muslim (keluarga islam)
3. Abi : ayah/father

p/s: ape pendapat klu amik anak angkat??mane tau bley hilangkan beban mase balik keje...haha...

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

gegar

fuh~~
sekarang nie susah la nk stay up...
pukul 11 p.m je mule la....haha

so, klu selalu update pkul 2-3 pagi, untuk 2-3 bulan nie xdpt la...
serius xlarat...
keje belambak...xcaye, tnye rakan sekerja saye...sape??
haha...carik sendiri....

buat mase nie...ade 7 keje y diberi...hope xtambah lagi...
skang nie...meje aq penuh dgn dokumen2, fail2...
tu xciter dlm laci...resume belambak...tp aq da bace la semua...dont worry~~
ade rezeki, dpt la...doa2 la....

satu bende la aq blaja sejak duk HR nie...
syarikat besar, serius susah nk amik dak2 fresh graduate..
klu diorg nk amik pun, pointer kne 3.5 ke atas..serius~~
tp jgn smpai 3.9...tu pun diorg reject...
sebab pe??sebab takut...dak2 pandai nie, klu dpt tawaran lagi bagus, confirm2 die lari...haha
well, tips nie kite2 aje...haha

ok, berbalik pada cerite gegar...
aq adalah diantara y merase gegaran nye...
pening smpai bawak ke malam...haha, power x power kuase Allah swt, lu pikir la sendiri...

5.5 skala dr indon membawa ke malaysia...ternyata kite serumpun...
haha...apakah motif nye??wah~~kite mmg sedare seislam pun kan....
so, peace bro~~

ok la...xde pe pun nk cakap...
hari nie penat otak..petang td pun, aq tinggal je manager tu interview...
da tu, sape suruh wat interview lepas 5.30 ptg, sape nk tunggu...haha

p/s: jiwa kacau la hari nie..byk bende aq pikir...pasal persahabatan...wujud ke persahabatan di zaman kacau bilau nie??argghhh~~aq serius malas nk layan otak mereng aq mlm2 nie...

Monday, June 13, 2011

almost

ok..disebabkan da 3 hari aq xbersama thariq my beloved one nie...
so, aq xnk gunekan software y byk (takut thariq merajuk)...
sooo....no dictionary, no microsoft, no movie maker, no...??
ok cukup...y penting google chrome still my fav features la..tu kne gune...welll~~~

klu xde y bertanye...biar aq y tanye...haha
knape "almost"??(alaa...tajuk kat atas tu...cetengok2...)

don't u know, "Almost" is the longest word in the English language with all the letters in alphabetical order. (credit to: OMG-Fact )

and, walaupun almost is word paling panjang dlm english language..tp xcukup panjang, klu nk dibandingkan dgn "keluh kesah kalah mak esah" aq nie...haha

today, i almost giving up with my job...serius tense and tired...
calling org tu, calling org nie (smpai tergeliat lidah speaking ala2 harry potter nie)...
last2 xdtg interview...mau aq reject je resume diorg tu...nasib bley sabar lagi memandangkan aq pun adalah bakal2 penghantar resume y bakal direject oleh org2 HR (human resource)...fuh~~

nasib kawan2 seperjuangan masih disisi, bersama-sama berkongsi sakit, suke n duke..mengadu cerita hati n jiwa kacau yang semakin membuas...cewah~~~jiwang la plak...serius, klu korang xde..da lame aq resign (padahal aq praktikal je..haha)

ok...buat pe citer pasal stress2 nie...kacau mood i je (ala2 fazura gitu)...

alright~~result UPM da kuar...
aq bajet, dapat la CGPA naik skit p 1st class...makan asap je la~~~whooaaahhh
ok, mcm sem2 lepas...aq tunjuk result aq...haha..jap g aq tunjuk....cewahh~~
sem nie...xde y spoil...sume ok...ok??haha
tp 1 bende la aq kne tanam...confirm2 result tu Allah swt yang bagi...
bukan sape2 tp Allah swt....yakin segalanya datang dari Allah swt....
alhamdulillah, sem nie result ok n a bit unexpected...
aq harap coursemate2 aq sume dpt y terbaik la gak...



nmpak x??haha...click utk y lebih besar....segan la tunjuk besar2..haha

Alhamdulillah...syukur kepada Allah swt atas segala y berlaku semalam dan hari ni...aq yakin besok adalah hadiah dari-MU..sesungguhnya aq mengharapkan y takdir y terbaik, y telah Engkau tetapkan sejak azali buatku...
byk dugaan dan cabaran setiap hari dalam hidup ku...dan aq yakin cinta dan kasih-MU tetap bersama...
and serius, aq rindu Rasulullah saw~~

jika bukan kerna insan y Kau temukan dlm hidupku, hampir sahaja aq lemas dan di bawa arus dunia y xputus2 menarik manusia ke lembah maksiat...

minggu nie mungkin halaqah wida' sebelum di pass ke halaqah lain...
perasaan aq bercampur baur...syg,rindu,sedih...oh my~~

ok la~~panjang plak....
ape2 pun, aq menantikan hadiah dari Allah swt setiap hari y pasti membuat bibir terukir dengan senyuman y tiada siapa pun mampu berikan padaku~~

p/s: baru refill minyak hitam...minyak brek belum lagi...ade sape2 nk sponser masuk duit dalm RHB x??haha~~my pleasure to have it...chow!!!


Tuesday, June 7, 2011

emosi


sejak 2 menjak aq praktikal nie,
byk betul aq main emosi...

train lambat....emosi
train cepat tp sardin...emosi
minyak hitam krete probz...emosi
tank minyak petrol asik tunjuk jarum full je walaupun da 3 hari....emosi (haha)
keje banyak....emosi
xde keje...emosi
and y paling tak tahan petang td

kne perli kat tempat praktikal....serius emosi~~
siap kutuk uni aq kot...
hellloooo~~universiti ranking ke-4 kot...
aq pun bagus ape...
keje patut 8:30 am- 5:30 pm...
tp aq dtg pukul 8:15 am- 6:00pm kot...
and elaun aq xde la beribu jugak pun....
nasib la y lain mmg 1st class...tinggal sorang tu je...
so IN-THE-BOX~~huh!!
kluar la skit dr kotak pemikiran kolot tu...
ade lagi org mcm tu kat dunia nie...issshhh~~~

dgn emosi y kurang stabil tu,
balik2 bilik je....
dpt pulak cerite2 y meng"geli"kan hati~~
ok...double attack kot...
skit2 da la~~xselera aq makan..terpakse tapau...mencikkk!!!

kadang2 perkataan kite bley mnyakitkan hati org lain...

dan
"tidak beriman seseorang itu, sehingga dia mencintai saudaranya seperti dia mnyintai dirinya sndiri"- Hadith 13 (hadith arbain)

so, bro~~lu pikir la sendiri~~
cube bygkan situasi nie...

"lu dtg rumah org, pastu lu curi semua harta org tu n bunuh semua ahli keluarga org tu,
last2 le, lu mintak maaf..."

agak2 ape perasaan org tu...
mgkin la die kate maafkan n xkesah (baik tu..hehe)...tp serius, makan dalam kot...

teringat kate2 ustaz rahmat dlm sang murabbi:
klu kite da paku sesuatu dinding, n bile kite tanggal balik paku tu....mmg paku da xde...
tp kesan stay kot....
mcm tu la jugak kate2 yang xberhikmah...

sedih aq....
n xde sape nk pujuk...xpe2...pujuk diri sendiri la~~haha


ok~~cukup la kenangan itu buat aq tersenyum...cewah~~
ok...chow!!!!

p/s: keje bertimbun td aq tinggalkan...so, aq nk tido dulu...then emosi aq da ok...buat keje pun mesti senyum punye...
tp bile pikir kwn sekerje sebelah meje aq....arggghhh...2 bulan lebih lagi tu...

Monday, June 6, 2011

time


time or....
1 indefinite continued progress of existence, events, etc., in the past, present, and future, regarded as a whole. 2 progress of this as affecting persons or things- oxford

well, i think the 2nd point is really related to myself...
why??because i think i just be a totally different person now...
totally...no doubt~~~

why??because...
when u change, u can feel it...and i feel it...
i'm not like this before...i mean, i much more better la before....

i think i want to change...how bout that??
meaning that, i can live without someone who can i called best friend...
i once live in that lifestyle...and i feel like i live life better~~

should i start today??
no no no....i should start a long time ago...
so, should i start now??yoshh~~

treat all people as the same...
no best friend, no bestest friend, no soulmate...soulmate??kah kah...
(mane la aq blaja perkataan mcm tu..adakah pngaruh rakan sekerja??)

no one could get more love from me...cewah~~
except for Rasulullah saw la...
my heart more toward him, and i won't feel hurt by loving him thiiissssss much...
promise that...haha

tired, hungry, sleepy, not in the mood....
making me unconscious, and in this time (beta wave)...
u can make all the decision as mind set...

so,
i (heart), agree to what brain have set...which...
brain said: "Heart...please don't get hurt again...or u make all the functional body not function..."
heart reply: "well brain...u need to decide something then...please don't think about stupid things again...ok brain??"
brain said: "as u wish, heart"

anyway, in hadith-6 (hadith arbain):
"...sesungguhnya dalam badan kamu terdapat seketul daging...jika baik daging itu, maka baik lah seluruh anggota...dan jika buruk daging itu, maka buruk lah seluruh anggota...ketahuilah bahawa daging itu adalah hati"....

so, the most important part in u, is ur heart...and for sure...
your heart needs al-quran n hadith+sunnah Rasulullah saw more than others things...
so, from now on...
i try to promise myself...
i will take care of my heart, my iman and my amal....
its about time to change~~~but, i really hate myself now....

p/s: ...........bile emosi mula melawan logik...

Saturday, June 4, 2011

cabaran




4th June 2011- 1:06 p.m.

arrgghhh....aq dalam dilema la...
besok my sensei nak kawin kat muar...
tp~~~byk bende kne pikir...

kenderaan, minyak, jalan (takut sesat)...
n y paling penting, isnin nk masuk ofis~~cewah....so, ape nk buat ar??
nak p ke x??nak ke x??adoiii.....

ok xpe...nti pikir lagi...

pemberitahuan: aq da start praktikal
hari pertama rs mcm nk giving up je...
serius byk giler keje...hari kedua, fail da ade atas meje...
hari ketiga, ade keje y nk kne settle hari isnin...waahh~~

serius kne telan habis2...byk bende kne hafal n buat...
nk tau aq bahagian ape?? jeng jeng jeng...haha
bahagian HR recruitment n training...
well, aq budak training, then aq kne train org...
best ke x, lu pikir la sendiri...
br la paham perasaan mereka2 y da keje...

mane dengan balik lmbatnye...
tenage kne perah habis2...pastu, mlm2 nye la nk p program kite, halaqah...
tp itu la kehidupan....
nanti~~bile Allah swt tanye tentang hidup di dunia...
at least kite xjawab "ohw..sy keje balik lewat...n xsempat nk fikir masalah umat lagi"

aq xnk hidup jd robot..
bgun pagi, keje, makan, balik keje, pastu tido...
besok...the same thing repeated...sgt robot..

biarlah aq balik bilik pukul 12 mlm pun...
penat, n kne pikir byk bende lagi...aq hepie~~

itu aq la..
aq tau je...rmai lagi daie kat luar y lebih besar cabaran mereka...
y aq belum rs..
teringat kate2 seseorang...
"klu x di uji dgn kesusahan, rs mcm xdisayangi Allah je"
well, serius betul....

ok la...hampir zohor...
yuk solat yuk~~~
semoga hari nie akan menjadi satu anugerah terindah dlm hisup kalian...
insya-Allah...amin

p/s: penat je menuggu org jhr balik upm, tp xde berite pun...so, nk balik seremban la...xnk tunggu lagi....

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