peace =P

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

harap

harap a.k.a hope~~

aq ingat nk berhenti berharap la...bukan pada Allah swt of course...
tp pada manusia...pada dunia....
sebab??
serius, klu la manusia or dunia tu hancurkan harapan kite, confirm2 sakit bro~~
sakit hati y membawa kepada emosi y akan mengakibatkan sakit otak...
full stop~~

so, i hope i'm not hoping for anything else...
except, what have Allah swt already fated for myself...
its always the best..walllaahhhh

klu imbas2 kembali bende2 y aq harap pada manusia,
xbyk y bg respon positif...
sokmo negative je...
last2 aq gak y menangis xbrenti...
benci i~~~haha


tapi kan...
pernah x korang berharap...
korang duk depan mesin ATM, lagi2 mesin bank islam,
pastu harap akaun korang ade angka RM 5***.00..
pernah??pernah??walaupun korang x keje...
pernah??pernah??...
then tibe2 bile masuk kad, tekan no rahsia tu...
pastu tgk2, mmg ade RM 5***.00...
haha...

pernah??well, aq pernah...sape la bg tu agak2??
confirm2 duit rakyat...
anyway...mmg pun....
so, sebab tu...walaupun ape y berlaku mase aq blaja nie...susah, senang, payah, perit....
aq xkan sesekali hampakan rakyat y telah bersusah payah byr aq untuk blaja...
akan ku balas jasa2 kalian...insya-Allah...

secara jujurnya...
sgt beban bile kite dapat biasiswa...
klu kite berfoya-foya...duit rakyat la y kite tipu, yang kita hampakan...
n kite sebenarnye tipu diri sendiri jugak...
berat langkah bile kuar dr pintu kolej, bile pikir pasal tanggungjawab nie sume....
waaaa...kdg2 rs tak sanggup~~~

ok...cukup kesyahduan itu..
aq harap praktikal aq, Allah permudahkan urusan nya...
semua y mohon praktikal da pun dapat tempat praktikal...alhamdulillah...
Allah la sebaik2 perancang...
dan sesungguhnya hanya pada-MU aq berharap ya, Allah...

p/s: aq start 1 june kat kepong...well, my sis bg krete..hehehe...apa lagi~~~~ XD

Sunday, May 29, 2011

donation


haha...actually, i just don't know what is the best title should i put...
donation or blood??
anyway, i wanna talk about blood donation...
but since, i used to use only one word to describe things, so maybe donation is the best title to put on that place (title place)...walllaaaa~~

ok...
besok atau hari nie (sebab da jam 2:50 am) bersamaan ahad, 25 jamadilakhir 1432...
ade karnival kesihatan kat kawasan rumah aq...
kat mane??
p je senawang, pastu cakap Apartment seroja...
confirm2 semua tau...glamour kot...haha
well, semua dijemput hadir...
antara aktiviti2 y dijalankan (promote baikk punye)
1. derma darah
2. pertandingan masak2
3. Jualan n gerai...
4. check kesihatan
5. ntah...aq xtau..sebab aq bukan ajk..kah kah

berminat??dtg la..jemput2~~


anyway, sebut pasal blood donation,
teringat zaman bintulu...
well, as a ahli PBSM selama 11 tahun (sejak sekolah rendah),
aq confirm2 pernah derma darah...tp 2 kali je la...hoho
and y paling best, aq pernah jd pengarah program utk kempen derma darah...
pastu aq insaf....xnk jd pngarah lagi...haha~~susah n penuh tanggungjawab
xsanggup rsnya..tp timbalan pengarah aq ok..haha

ape type darah aq??agak2??
darah aq jenis kedekut...type AB+, same la dgn best friend aq..haha


well, aq rindu mase tu...ade la kenangan terindah y setiap kali aq tgk kempen derma darah, kenangan tu mesti menjelma kembali...cewaaaahhh...ayat xtahan...
kenangan ape??xbley la bgtau...
ingat lagi, kne marah pun ade sebab......ops~~rahsia lagi
tp byk aq blaja mase kat bintulu dulu...wah~~~
kire tempat jatuh lg dikenang la...

ok la..besok aq nk p berniaga...haha..
amik kesempatan di karnival itu...sshhhh, rahsia kite2 aje...
ok...jam da 3:06 am...
solat isyak da..so, bley tido la kot...
terbaik~~~

p/s: xde sape pun wish birthday tarikh islam aq (22 jamadilakhir)...sedih2..my best frenz pun xingat...y lain apatah lagi...n nmpak sgt xde sape minat aq...
argghh, suda la...baik aq tido~~~haha

Friday, May 27, 2011

givin'up


give up is a term that people use to show how they down....
its like...
after so many things u try to do to achieve the aims, and after few times u fell...then u will feel this givin'up...

i feel it few times...yeah~~because of this internship...
suddenly, i get the place...
got tesco...maybe in human resource department...
well, may be i'm not good in HR coz not really my field..but, ok la...
but so many things play around in my head...
rumah sewe, transport, duit lagi...adoi...
give up rasenye...
and nk nangis pun ade....
someone y aq hope, kitorg dpt support each other pun mcm~~~hurm...
ape2 la...malas nk pikir...
anyway, i'll try to chill up my own self...
xnk pikir pasal org lain...terserah~~

call my best friend...
well, he the only person i can remember if i had a bad time...
smpai die cakap "oo...bad time je la br nk call aq..."
tp, nk wat mcm mane...haha~~sorry...but u support me a lot la...

tau x cost untuk call org klu gune hotlink youth??
murah la jugak...
12 sen=1 minit (call), no lain 18 sen seminit
1 sen=1 sms (sms), no lain 3 sen 1sms

normally i call someone in one hour...wow~~
3,687 saat= RM 7.38
ok..tu klu sehari...klu 10 hari...
xke RM78.30??
haha...ape tujuan aq bgtau nie??
saje je...

sebab nk g praktikal kat tesco nie, terpakse la budget duit...
mungkin xbley nk call lame2 lagi...haha

mcm nie...
klu aq naik KTM smpai kepong...kos...RM 13.60 (pergi balik)
smpai kepong, ade shuttle bas..............free
dr umah seremban2...............................free (abg ipar hntar)
so, total= RM 13.60 je without makan....

tp klu aq sewe umah...ntah la...
duit sewe, bil letrik air, transport, makan....
agak2 area kepong, brape kos hidup??

ntah la...fenin lalat la....fenin lalat la...haha
ok, fine...
ape2 pun...semua Allah da rancang...baikkk punye...
redha penghilang kesedihan~~kan?kan??

ok la...nk smbung pikir...
jam aq da pukul 1.03 pagi...
full stop!!!!

p/s: i promise not to cry....if i'm not promise that...i would cry right now....

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

intern

intern means: latihan industry...(kamus:aq sendiri)
when i open up oxford dictionary, i also don't understand what the dictionary wanna explain about whats is intern means...so, i use bahasa kasar which mean praktikal industri...
get it??...no???
never mind...avoid it...i'm cool~~

well, suppose to be 8 person will be going for internship this holiday...
however, problemz appear...(appear la sgt...benci)...
so, the person that already go for their internship only 3 person...
my fren, my frenz, n my frenz...jd la 3 orang...kah kah
oh my~~

and tomorrow, (tukar bahase la...tergeliat speaking2 nie...a.k.a xde mood)
sorang lagi my friend akan p internship...
xdapat nk borak sepanjang malam lagi...cewah~~
kat mane??
kluang...(oohhh...snap) -tempat kluang man~~terbaik!!!
yup...dekat kluang, johor...
doakan supaye semuanya akan ok besok...baik pendaftaran, baik perjalanan, baik penginapan...
jgn tido dlm krete sudah...haha

cakap pasal tido dlm krete...
ade brite sedih...bile sorang budak 3 tahun, meninggal sebab tertingal dlm krete...
berite td kat tv...Al-Fatehah~~
tu belum lagi kisah pasal umah anak2 yatim : tragedi hulu langat

so, pesanan khidmat masyarakat...
take care kat tempat org...n jgn tido dlm krete...terbaik~~

intern aq??
oh my...malas nk cite...tp nk cakap gak...
mule2 mintak munchy's...senyap
then, mintak tlg one of my lecturer...dpat...tp prof plak reject...
fama??mintak maaf...klu bley nak lain..hehe
dapat giant....aq tolak...
mintak tesco...erm, resume da hntr...tinggal nk call besok...
klu dapat, dapat la...klu x, jom kite enjoy~~!!!
insya-Allah perancangan Allah swt lah yang terbaik sekali...
klu de rezeki ade la...MOJ (mak ok jer~~)

gonna miss them'all....skang pun da rindu~~waaaaaa

knape beriye aq nk intern: ceciter...ceciter...
1. aq nk tamatkan study aq 3 tahun je...
2. aq takut, lame2 aq study...mood nk 1st class degree hilang
3. sebab klu xdapat, nti aq xsame kelas dengan.........ops~~haha
4. aq dapat join graduation tahun depan...dgr x??tahun depan...excited ni..haha
5..ok cukup...polygamy xbley lebih 4 (ade kaitan ke??) whatevaahhh....

so, doakan semua berjalan lancar besok...
baik untuk aq mahu pun my special frenz...jeng3


p/s: yosh~~~knape aq post awal mlm nie...sebab aq rs mcm xsedap hati, xsedap badan...
feels sleepy pun ade...tapi xpe...nk tunggu call dr someone...pastu br bley tidor dgn happy nye...haha..yosh~~

Monday, May 23, 2011

madah

saat mendengar azan subuh....
tibe..terbit satu ilham pujangga dlm hatiku...
untuk hati dan jiwa yang mendengar...

‎~~dan aku yakin, jauh itu bukan bererti berhenti mencintai...namun sekadar memberi ruang untuk merindui...agar di saat pertemuan, hati akan berseri-seri untuk memiliki....dan
biarlah cinta itu untuk sesuatu y halal untuk dicintai (Allah swt), sesuatu y memberi pahala jika merindui (Rasulullah saw) dan pemilikan yang hakiki untuk dimiliki (syurga)...~~-madah jiwa sang perindu shahid


p/s: ilham (bukan name orang)haha dtg tetibe...romantik gak aq nie...kan??kan??

aku

aku/me/i/wa/ana = ur fingertips pointing at your nose...ok?? thatz what its mean...

aq rs aq xpernah ceciter lagi sape aq sebenarnye....
ewah~~mcm la de orang nk tau...
xpe..untuk sape2 yang nk tau je...
err...anyone??haha~~
whatttevehh!! (gaya tangan: lurus ke depan smbil melukis tanda soal (?) besar di atas udara...dan dihujung titik tanda soal,sila ketik jari)-folow me?? XD

ok...alasan aq seriusly...
bosan tgh mlm nie...xbley la tido...
sebab pikir...besok nk p ikut adik aq ke x walk in interview kat kilang german...
ok...sebab tu aq nk tulis sesaje je mlm nie...(jgn tnye lagi)

name penuh: erm~~assume je aq lupe...(bley ke??)
name nick: team (sebab life aq mmg suke hidup dlm group)
klu dlm tulisan indonesia tim=kumpulan...so, either english or indonesian its still mean team...
ok??get me??its team..

sorang dr peserta imam muda pernah tanye aq personally...
"knape name shah mohamad?? ceciter..ceciter"
ewah...
nk story la skit...
aq minat name shah...n seseorang yang telah memberi kesan dalam perubahan hidup aq pun name nye ade "shah"...sape?? boleh kate ayah angkat la...cume xrasmi...haha
n zaman dolu2...sume y ade name shah is someone yang kite panggil sultan...
so, aq teringin gak nk jadi sultan...so, why not aq berangan2 gune name nie skang...mane la tau...

sekarang mohamad...
well, nie name ayah den...betul n serius...
sebab tu aq suke name aq (yang rahsia tu) gabung dgn name ayah aq...serius nmpak hebat...
lagipun, mohamad (arab) maksud die terpuji...so, aq suke sgt...

ingat lagi kisah Rasulullah saw...
sebelum Rasulullah saw, xde sorang orang arab pun name Muhammad...
so, kira Muhammad nie, Rasulullah saw la org pertama yang pakai name tu...terbaik~~~
so, walaupun maksud name aq xdela hebat mcm "sempurna", "pemurah", "lemah-lembut",
tp aq suke name aq bile gabung dgn name ayah aq...haha~~ok, cukup di situ...

tempat lahir: sabah...tp 2 tahun je duk sane..
pastu aq pindah keyell (kuala lumpur) 10 tahun, and negeri sembilan 11 tahun...campur2 semua...jadi la umur aq 23 tahun...simple math...haha
tp aq study sarawak 3 tahun, and still study skang kat selangor...universiti same, tempat je lain...
uni ape plihan aq?? tgk entry nie: sensei

ok..ape lagi...
kawan??kawan baik??kawan sejati??kawan dunia akhirat??
alhamdulillah...sume aq ade...
mention name??ohhww...no no no...
cukup la aq mengenali mereka sebaiknya...hehe

tp aq nk tnye sesuatu la...
pernah x korang percaya kawan korang 100% tnpe korang sedar??
best frenz aq??no no no
well, aq ade la sorang..jgn tnye knape??
sebab aq pun xtau...cume aq rs die cukup "sempurna" untuk dipercayai....
haha..aq rs la...
klu kne tipu, nk wat mcm mane...
org kate setiap org yang muncul dalam hidup kite mampu buat kite menjadi lebih tabah, matang, baik, etc...(byk sgt)

ok cukup la kot...ngantuk kot bace entry panjang2 nie...klu novel jiwang, layan la gak~~
ohw, besok aq ingat nk wat citer romatik la...
korang pernah ade x??aq ade...haha
mak ayah aq pun ade...tgk la bile aq free aq post...


cr aq dlm gamba nie...erm~~
haha...jwpn die, aq tukang tgkap gmba...
yang ade beg camping kesayangan aq je dlm gamba nie...
ok~~choww...

p/s: besok...aq nk p semua tempat yang bley bg aq keje kat seluruh senawang nie...aq bosan tahap gaban da nie duk umah...walaupun home sweet home, tp klu duk dlm umah 24 jam..tetibe jd x sweet...jd pemalas lagi ade la...kah kah kah

Friday, May 20, 2011

jiwa

jiwa a.k.a soul +.+"

keletihan jiwa bukan kerana penat bekerja...
namun kerna rapuhnya ikatan dengan Allah swt...
rapuh??

ape kes sebenarnyer nie??
ceciter...ceciter....

seorang akhi bgtau...
"dunia student nie heaven....nak suruh ape pun xde hal...
klu keje mcm ana nie...lg la engineering...tenage da la kne perah mcm perah tebu kt plan..
tenage yang tinggal bile balik tu la...nk buat keje kite...nk p usrah, nk bangun qiam...
tenage yang telah diperah habis...air pun da xde...
tp kite kne paham...walau ape pun...knape kite berade kat jalan nie??
tenaga yang tinggal tu la yang kite nk tunjuk kat Allah nanti"

oh...serius bile kenang balik pertemuan tu,
rs diri nie useless sgt kat bumi Allah swt nie...

da la xmampu nk ubah ape2...kdg2 diri nie plak yang terubah...
nak salahkan keadaan??
aku bukan lagi mangsa keadaan...
sebab..."seorang mukmin tidak akan jatuh kali ke-2 dlm lubang yang sama"

klu kite mampu mencari sesuap rezeki untuk badan...
takkan la kite xmampu nk cari sedikit iman untuk makanan jiwa kita...

my situation:
praktikal mungkin xdapat cuti semster nie...xper...aq da prepared untuk itu...
and mungkin nak cr keje starting next monday...
tp keje ape??
ade tugas yang aq kne priority kan...dan ade jiwa yang aq kne suapkan makananya...
dilema...dilema....
semoga Allah swt permudahkan urusanku...

sgt benci bile diri dlm keadaan mcm nie...
dgn level iman yang semakin kebawah graf nya...
ape nk jadi la aq nie??
mood: xde mood + dilemma + sedih + xhappy + pening

my frenz used to say : "rasa REDHA penghilang KESEDIHAN"
bile pikir balik ayat tu...rs tenang skit...
tp bile pikir balik keadaan diri...down balik....

xpe...hidup kne focus...
ustaziatul alam is the aims...i can't spoil the first level (IM)...
Allahuakhbar!!!

"kelesuan selepas mujahadah....adalah kerana rosaknya langkah bermula"


p/s: kene setup betul2 sebelum nk pilih keje ape nk wat...insya-Allah...i'll find my way~~

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

ISABELLA

for the first time, a women names' appear to be my entry title today...cewah~~

wondering...who is actually this girl??
what does she do to me??
will she touch my heart??
or maybe, she can change me to be a better person...
well, i think she can...

and she can do it to most people...

ok~~continue...

isabella is actually a title of novel that i am reading now...
the real story, ok.....(beli mase pesta buku hari tu)
what can i say about this book (i just read the first 70 pages now) is...
SUBHANALLAH....AMAZING!!
theres only 272 pages...but i'm sure...it has a lot of input to all of us...
different than other novel i use to read..(well, for real...im not really read books)
but this novel is absolutely great and different...
why dont try and find it if u hav time to do so...
can also borrow from me...if u know me...hehe


alrite...after i finish this, maybe i can give the overall feedback and maybe some sinopsis about this book....
ape2 pun, xmnyesal p pesta buku hari tu dan beli buku nie...

p/s: nk cari keje la...bosan gell duk umah 4 bulan...bley hypertense aq..haha


Tuesday, May 17, 2011

sensei


sensei(japanese)/ guru(malay)/ teacher(english)/ laoshi(chinese)....
16 may 2011...
xde hal lain y akan muncul dalam kotak kepale kite melainkan...
"yup, hari nie hari guru"....

jom imbas kembali 5 tahun lepas...

mase tu umur aku...17 tahun...lebih kurang sweet 17th la...haha
hidup aq lebih suke main2 je...
suke2...gurau2...erm~~lebih kurang gitu la...
smpai la dtg seorang cikgu y aq minat...haha

die student praktikal UPM...(tempat aq blaja skang)
kos bac. pend (bahasa melayu sebagai bahasa pertama)...
serius...time nie aq da start blaja2 jd stalker....
nk dijadikan cerita...bile cikgu nie nak habis praktikal...
mase tu aq rs mcm kehilangan la gak...(padahal cikgu tu xajar pun kelas aq...haha)
die just pernah jage kelas aq waktu cikgu bahase melayu aq xde...
tu pun dalam 30 minit je kot...kenangan tu~~~haha

mase die nk tamat praktikal tu, aq de la bg gift...
1st time dlm life aq bg gift kat org...
then, ckgu tu pun mesej la aq balik...
die kate "sy nk bg sesuatu kat awak...emm,besok jumpe sy"
ohhooo...nervous nie~~
besoknye bile aq jumpe die...die bg aq satu penande buku..
serius, aq mmg suke dpt n kumpul penande buku (ok..walaupun aq xminat membaca...)
kat penande buku tu tertulis...

cikgu saiful + no phone (rahsia~~~haha)
"sebuah mahligai bermula dari seketul bata, kejayaan yang sedikit bukanlah satu kegagalan, tetapi ia permulaan menuju puncak kejayaan...insya-Allah"

dan apa yang paling aq rs terkesan dalam life aq adalah...
kat penande buku tu ade satu logo yang menjadi punca di mana aq sekarang...
yup...logo UPM...serius logo UPM mmg cun~~~(logo uni lain pun ok gak..)


aq mula ade impian utk masuk UPM sebab penanda buku tu...

dan bermula kat situ, aq mohon masuk UPM walaupun aq tau aq akan ke Sarawak waktu tu...
dan ade la beberapa sebab lain...
and guess what...i am UPM student for 5 years now...

ade seorang ustaz cakap...
"turning point kite kadang2 bukan lah dr satu2 masa, atau satu2 ceramah....tp ia bermula dari awal lagi...setiap org y muncul dlm life kite adalah menjadi as sebab siapa kita sekarang..."

dan yang pasti bukan cikgu saiful je...
pada aq setiap insan y pernah muncul dlm life aq adalah cikgu aq....
xkire siapa die, baik mak ayah, org awam, best friend, friend, dan sape2 jugak pun...
terima kasih atas segala ilmu...
mungkin tanpa mereka aq xreti nak makan gune tgn,
mungkin tanpa mereka aq xreti membaca,
mungkin tanpa mereka aq xkenal penciptaku...
sesungguhnya jasa semua akan dikenang smpai mati...insya-Allah...

terima kasih buat semua cikgu, and also lecturer...
# sek.keb.kampung cheras bharu (1995-2000)
# sek.ren.agama Kampung Cheras Bharu (1995-2000)
# sek. men. keb. Senanwang Dua@ Seri Pagi (2001-2005)
# Universiti Putra Malaysia Kampus Bintulu (2006-2009)
# Universiti Putra Malaysia, Serdang (2009-present)

p/s: 2 hari lepas dpt mesej dari cikgu saiful...katenye die nk kawin jun nie kat Muar, Johor...hope dapat g...insya-Allah...

Thursday, May 12, 2011

nervous


nervous means "1 easily upset, timid, highly strung. 2 anxious. 3 affecting the nerves"-oxford

easily upset??ohw, ok...not that....

erm, suppose to be today, my result from my practical industry will be confirm...
nervous?? agak la...
tp result xkuar2 lagi...call dr en.saifudeen pun xdapat lagi...
insya-Allah, klu dapat...i will start by next monday...
and i pray for my senai, kota bharu, and guar cempedak friend to start next monday gak...ameen..
semoga dipermudahkan urusan kalian dan hamba jugak...

nervous...nervous...(poyo seh...)

erm, sebut pasal nervous...
mari kite reflect ape citer semalam...ceciter...ceciter...

mak:"ko ikut k.dah p penang??"
aq:"ntah la...tgk la...ade ape balik penang??"
mak:"adik ipar k.dah nk tunang...sape name tu...ayang??ehh...."
aq: "nana la..."
mak: "haa...nana...berape umur die ye??"
aq: "tu..baye adik zul tu...21...(smbil tunjuk ke arah adik ku y sedang berangan...kahkah)
mak:"kau bile nak tunang...da 23 kan??(smbil pandang aq dgn penuh serius)..."
aq: "hah??"(dgn agak terkesima...) "tnye la ct"

haha...adoyai....
adakah itu green light??kah kah....
klu green light..hari nie gak aq p lamar anak orang...haha...
tp serius...mesti kne settle kakak2 atas dulu...
jd yang terakhir mesti best...
banyak backup..banyak sponsor...terbaik~~termeriah~~

but i'm telling u something...
in this age (23 an above la yer)...when people ask us about marriage...
u will feel something different in the inside...your heart beat fast then normal...
and maybe u can find a butterfly in ur stomach....
and at that time...u will feel nervous and in the same times, thinking...am i ready??
and do i have the exact person that can take care of me for the rest of my life??

marriage is not that easy...believe me...
sometimes i could be a scary part in life...if ur choices wrong...


ape2 pun...pilih la seseorang yang boleh kite melangkah masuk ke syurga ilahi dengan nya...
yang membantu kite dlm urusan dakwah kite...
yang mencintai kite kerna die mencintai Allah...
supaya marah die, sayang die, cinta die, cemburu die...semua kerna Allah swt...
insy-Allah....

argh~~
jauhnye merayau...dr citer praktikal p crite kawin...
dah..dah....nk smbung buat keje umah...cewah~~(acah je tu)..haha

p/s: pray for the best result today...erm, and lupe nak thankz pada yang sudi hantar balik seremban hari tu...thankz a lot...hehe XD

Monday, May 9, 2011

today

finally, i've gotta say goodbye to all my final exam paper...
yeah~~finally...score!!!!
but the knowledge hopefully remains forever...

thankz to all my lecturer and also my course-mate...
my friends and my best friend...
my group member~~
sorry if i said before this i dont want u guyz to be my group member ever...
maybe i just lost control a bit..u know what stress can bring u to...
and specially thankz goes to someone that always be my group member in this semester...
thankz for everything...
next sem??don't know (mane la tau 6 bulan xjumpe)..hehe

talking about today...
firstly, i need to settle all my practical problemz...
not yet settle...erm~~so complicated...
harap2 dapat la...tp klu xdpt pun, insya-Allah, i'm fully prepared..insya-Allah...

and for akhawatz yang tgh wat prog adik IPK...
pray for everything fine...
really sorry coz cannot join u girlz...afwan~~

today, hopefully much better than yesterday...
yesterday gotta be a memoriez...either u want to remember or not...

but, last day (8 may 2011) or "mei" in malay...hehe =P
it is sure be my unique memory...
why>>...secret~~hehe

erm,today...
klu semua perasan la kan...
2-3 hari nie panas lain mcm skit~~
upm, klu panas mesti hujan....tp 2-3 hari nie x...
pelik...pelik~~~ok xde la pelik jugak pun...
mcm la xpernah terjadi...hehe


panas2...layan ice room ok gak na??
terbaik~~lagi2 bile org belanje...thankz =)

sebenarnye rs mcm sayu je nk tinggalkan upm nie...cewah~~
xtau knape...
mungkin sebab sem nie...
1. aq paling kurang balik rumah...
2. aq paling banyak assignemnt
3. aq paling byk habiskan masa dgn upm..
4. aq paling...er~~~tu je kot...haha

jd rs lain...lagi2 klu aq xdapat praktikal cuti nie...
lagi la...
7 bulan kot tinggalkan upm...
and mungkin xjumpe course-mate2 aq selama setahun...
setahun tu~~gonna miss all of them (mcm confirm je xdpt pratikal)...haha

ok...satu rangkap untuk semua:
"kasihku.....
ku amat mencintai kamu.......
kerna kau beri arti hidup...
ku kan terus mencinta....
sedetik lebih~~~
selepas selamanya...."

p/s: besok insya-Allah balik ghumah den kek somban...lamo bonar den xbalik...smpai anak buah den pun x kenai laie maksu dio...xbley jd nie...4 bulan nie den nk kenalkan diri den je kek anak buah den...confirm~~~lame tu....fuh~~

Saturday, May 7, 2011

langkah

i'm not sure, what is "langkah" in arabic, but i know...
muntalaq mean langkah bermula...

someone ask me:
"betul ke nie ujian kite??"
"ape y kite rancang, x macam yang kite rancang.."

me: "yup, ini lah ujian.."

mungkin dalam keadaan depress, kite akan rasa mcm2 dgn takdir yang berlaku...
kite rs xbermaya, xde mood, rs nk larikan diri dr dunia y penuh dgn harapan y palsu...
tp bile smpai satu tahap...kite akan dapat rase hikmah disebalik setiap kejadian yang berlaku...
sudah menjadi fitrah manusia yang inginkan hikmah itu didepan mata (muqadimah tafsir fi zilal)
tp, keyakinan dan pegangan y kuat akan buat kite sabar dan tabah dlm hidup...

the truth is:
mungkin aq tertekan dgn kehendak dan keperluan...
kehendak nak abiskan degree 3 tahun, mcm kne pending dulu...
dan atas sebab kehendak tidak dapat dipenuhi...
keperluan jd mcm bukan lagi keperluan...
mood: mula rs malas nk amik tahu segla bende...rase mcm.....xbest...
mungkin rs nk marah sepanjang masa...mungkin rs xbley nak bercakap dgn baik...
setiap word mula ditemani dgn air mata...
n bile dipikir2 balik...knape la jd mcm nie???
kehendak menguasai diri melebihi keperluan...
binasa la jiwa klu mcm nie...

mungkin helaian 1-2 muka surat al-quran da xcukup lagi utk tenang kan hati and jiwa yang berkecamuk...kne tambah bilangan page nie...

semoga Allah permudahkan urusan...

p/s: rs mcm Allah da bg aku uruskan dunia aku sendiri...teruk nye aq sebgai insan dan bukan manusia...

Friday, May 6, 2011

DIA

cun x??
di edit oleh "diri saya sendiri"~~klu xsuke diam2 suda...haha XD

dia and DIA...
look the same...but different...
why??
because it is different...

DIA...
i plan something, DIA will determined...
i said i love him...DIA always love me, even before i love him...
i once or always forget about him...but DIA never forget about me...
i will do the best...and DIA will do the rest...
DIA promises is sure and confirm...

DIA always there when i sick, hurt, stress, sad, dying...
DIA always there when i happy, eating, studying, walking...
DIA always there in every single breath that i take...

how about dia??

i plan something, dia will support me...
i said i wanna forget about dia...dia always just say "ok"
i said i will do the best..and dia will pray to DIA for me...

dia not perfect...
dia only there if i need him...
dia will give me smile if i cry...
dia will support me no matter what am i doing...
never say no to me...
never give me the uncertain promise...

dia and me needs DIA...
so that, i and dia will always in the bless of DIA...insya-Allah...

see the different...
dia and DIA is never the same...never, ever....

because DIA is my aim, my destiny....
always be my aim...insya-Allah...

and dia??
i pray for dia will always be beside me and aim for DIA together...
insya-Allah...

side story:
thanks for my best friend today...u give me, my spirit and my smile...
u always give support and the things that i love about u...
u always there everytime that i need u...
even though i put my emotion on u...
i put my bad attitude on u...i don't put my trust on u...
but u just always there for me...
and the most thing that i like abou u is....u never give up on me...

p/s: u dont know how caring can bring u to the deepest part in heart and that will stay there forever...can't be deleted even u want to...and thatz also, was something that i'm afraid to.."care"


Wednesday, May 4, 2011

undur


undur (in malay) or reverse (in english) means:
"turn the other way round or up or inside out. 2 change to the opposite character or effect. 3 (cause to) travel backwards. 4 make (an engine etc.) work in a contrary direction. 5 revoke or annul (a decree, act, etc."-oxford dictionary...

i'm not really wanna talk about reverse anyway...
i was just thinking, if i cant turn back time...
what actually i wanna be today??
that i am better or much worse??
ever have a thought about it??

someone said, that i reveal too much my personal story in my writing...
well, he's right...
i should do something thats benefits others using this social media...
but, i'm not good in advising people...apatah lagi untuk meng'inspired' orang lain...
so, i just thought maybe my story would be some moral value to others...
about what am i doing, what am i feels about what am i doing...
i just hope so...but if it wasn't, so i couldn't do anything bout it...

today, i go through my 2nd killer subject...
yeah...but always keep a thought in my mind..
"bukan lecture yang bagi markah...tp Allah yang bagi markah.."
and i believe, evertyhing is already being fate...
like hadith 19 in hadith arbain...
"pena telah terangkat dan dakwat telah kering"...
in life..."reward (pahala) goes to somebody that keep the hardwork...."
i need to keep that in mind...

actually, many things keep running around and around in my mind....
1stly,my practical not yet decided...may be not going to settle my degree in 3 years...
i actually sad...and sometimes, i can't even focus...
the things that i plan not going as i plan...anyways, Allah is the best planner...
yeah...i know and i should believe it...but still i want to cry...(need someone to talk to)...
2ndly, i make a lot of mistake in my bizness plan...(well, its going to ruin my others members mark)
feel guilty about it...sgt~~~

am i stress about it??
no...i'm not...
someone use to wrote something to me:
"dont stress up ur self again..coz i dont want to see ur face full of stress again"

so, i hope i dont show any of my stress stuff towards others...
let see the positive side of this life...be optimistic person...
or maybe...if i stress, i can go to "TAMAN RIMBA KITA" and screammmm there~~~
so that, i will smile back later...insya-Allah...

as conclusion (cewahhh~~)
i don't think i'll be better person if i can turn back time...
coz, the best thing that happen in life is the things that already be fated for us by Allah swt...
right??

to someone: don't stress up urself too...smile can heal the hurt...not only for u, but also for someone else...

p/s: 2 more paper to go...pray for everything goes smoothly...hehe..dean in hand??pray for that also...haha

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

dedicated

oxford dictionary says about dedicate:
"devote (esp. oneself) to a special task or purpose. 2 address (a book etc.) to a friend, patron, etc. 3 devote (a building etc.) to a deity, saint, etc."

rs nak tulis puisi plak hari nie...bg jiwang skit musim2 exam nie..haha

Aku mengenalinya tanpa aku sedar...

Dan mula merapati setelah pertama kali berjumpa...

Tarikh dan hari aku tak ingat..

Tapi yang pasti, kami berkenalan di saat sama-sama menunggu bas...

Tidak pernah aku sangka..

Allah menghadiahkan dia padaku...

Hidup seakan berubah...

Andai dulu, aku seorang diri...

Kini ada insan yang perlu aku sayangi...

Ada insan yang perlu aku cintai...

Melangkah aku pergi jauh dari dia...

Sedih dan takut mula menyelubungi...

Bimbang jika dia tidak kuat...

Tapi keyakinan dan tawakal...

Ku serah pada yang Maha Mentadbir dan Merancang...

Sekuntum bunga merah aku terima dari nya...

Tanda perpisahan dan perjumpaan terakhir...

Dan buatnya, hanya keychain buat pengganti ingatan...

Dan aku yakin..

Berpisah dan bertemu kami kerana Allah...

Hari ini,

Ingin sekali aq imbas kembali rasa itu..

Rasa sayang dan cinta itu...

Kerna jika kami ditemukan semula...

Aku ingin rasa itu kekal seperti biasa...

Hari ini,

Dia akan kembali dengan izin Allah..

Ke sini, di sini...

Dan pastinya harapan ku tinggi...

Agar kami bertemu semula..

Setelah lama terpisah...

Tanpa wajah dan juga suara...

Dan sekembalinya dia...

Aku ingin berkongsi denganya...

Kabar iman ku, kabar iman nya...

Semoga kami diredhai-Nya...

I’ll be wait for u, dear...

Dedication to: Noramalina Zainordi

Monday, May 2, 2011

understanding


bukan mudah untuk seseorang memahami atau difahami...

bagi yang cuba memahami:
"teringin rasanya memahami seseorang itu lebih dr orang lain...
agar diri ini lebih bermakna dari orang lain...
teringin rasanya untuk cuba memahami....
agar tiada salah faham yang akan mengisi..."

bagi yang xingin difahami:
"cukup bagi aku, diri aku sendiri....
cukup bagi aku, kesah aku sendiri...
xperlu difahami dan tiada sebab utk kamu memahami..."

segalanya jelas...kan??
cuma...

bagi yang cuba memahami:
"hati mungkin akan sedikit tercalar...mungkin juga fobia...
mungkin juga cuba mencipta prinsip hidup yang baru...
untuk tidak mahu lagi memahami..."

bagi yang xingin difahami:
"aku sememangnya tidak sedar kehadiran orang yang cuba memahami~~
sebab aku tidak mahu dan tidak paksa sesiapa untuk faham...."

p/s: ok..bile time2 exam...emosi akan mula terganggu...klu tidak betul tali pegangan, tersilap langkah membawa padah...

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