decided!!

well...well...

tonite...packaging stuff and get off...haha

by tomorrow morning i need to admit one things...

I NEED TO START STUDY....AGAIN...

fuh..thankz Allah coz just one year left...

Alhamdulillah...

well, decide go to Manchester next year...so

guess need to pay some ptptn or else...BLACKLISTED!!!

sgt melampau...aq study lagi kot...siap tak bg tangguh...

uwaaa...ngadu kat mak...haha

however happen today...i guess i feel release..

why??

well, i decided something this morning...

something about my future...what is that??

wait until the day comes...hihi...secret for a moment...

sometimes, we think we can live better without anybody...

but in some moment...we actually can't....

people use to said...

"u only realize that u love something when the things is already gone..."

well, i don't want to be that kind of person...so, i decided to wait...

coz actually i'm already feel scared since last 7 dayz...

thought i already lost something in my life...something important and something that i love..

but actually, i don't...yet...hehe

so, i better take care of it while i still have it...didn't i??yeahhh...

one a.m in the morning...not finish packing my stuff...no one helps...

everybody sleeping and happy...

me...keep smiling~~

hoping and praying next 2 sem will be the best moment in life..insya-Allah...

alritezz yoo...CHOW!!

p/s: well, i guess i have new best frenz today and promise to love this one more..hehe..fair??yeah..i know...not fair... =)

Wordless Wednesday#3-fasting

3rd day fasting...for me...

1st day fasting...for my best frenz (at plantation)...=)

makanan buke pose???
sume masak sendiri u...jgn jeles meles ye...

alritez yoo...CHOW!!

today

TODAY i miss someone, hate someone, love someone, sad, happy, nervous,sick....
how about you??

haha...
getting start again using english or maenglish because i need to start some engine in my mind...haha
next week, back to school again!!!

after 4 month holiday...not really since i went to practical trainee...
but one week raya plus one week full real holiday makes me a bit.......

"arghhh...studyyyy!!!!"...haha..(student...u know...)

a bit nervous anyway...

not yet done my report...not even start it..haha
what a shame of me...get reallll plezzz...

next week nak hantar...oh my~~

somehow, my best frenz must be soo much nervous today...(somehow, i feel nervous for him)

his 1st day on plantation...hope everything will be just fine there...

ok frenz...nothing can stop u...

if u read this...chill out!!

i always support u from behind...so, chillex n smile!!

by the time we feel happy with our situation, other might feel different...

load of work, burden u so much...but less makes u down...

hope my lovely girl will fight the situation just fine...right shida??hehe

uhibbuki fillah ukhti...

let gather and talks someday...miss u!!ooohh

for myself...

2nd day fasting (pose 6)..makes myself busy,and sleep more...haha
need to forget all the things happen in this 4 month...kind impossible to success...

but, i need to...promise already...

yeahh...gambate!!!

alritez...nk p masak2 buke pose!!haha
chow yoo..

yosh!!

sabar

alrite~~sabar...

sape xtau...sabar is sabar...haha

ade org, xmampu nk bersabar...tp tau x...

"the time kite rase da xbley sabar, tu lah sebenarnye permulaan sabar"...

so, sabar....haha

tinggal 5 minggu lagi...

last date praktikal aq...26 august 2011...

mmg da x lame lagi...fuh~~sabar..sabar...

today, buat kali ntah keberape ntah....

i keep making bad things, n my best frenz keep patient with my attitude...

well, my d-best frenz is always like that...

and sometimes u may feel bad to have a frenz like that...mcm rs xlayak..haha

ape2 pun, thatz a relationship suppose to be...

bile seorang buat hal, y sorang lagi bagi masa n ruang untuk perbaiki suasana...

because, "time will fix every things"...i'm sure believe that...agree??

anyway, my d-best frenz might be down now since result upu a bit disappointed...

ape2 pun i pray for the best becoming result...

GAMBATE OK!!!! yosh~~

so, lagi sekali...sabar is all about~~

p/s: tired and byk sgt keje...knape la hanya 4 org nak uruskan kerja kosong more than 100 vacancies...stress!!! anyone need job??

wordless Wednesday #2

my 2nd wordless wednesday...wuuhuuu~~~

:::::my wish for:::::

MUHD NUR AS SHABAH MOHAMED

Vanue: Cafe Serumpun

Semoga diberkati umur dan sentiasa mendapat keredhaan dari Allah swt....

kawin cepat skit...xsanggup aq nk tunggu sampai hang umur 30...kih kih

even though, hari nie sambutan kali ke-2 birthday ko...tp we had fun along the way, right??

and kek pun sedap kan??kan??

(sobah, thankz sanggup lmbat p tgk bola malaysia lwn Taiwan)

bak kate siti "da lame x happy mcm nie"

thankz to y meraikan:

1. Siti Nasihah

2. Zaim

3. Suhailah

4. Teh Arfah

p/s: lepas penat keje, rindu plak nk masuk blaja balik...wah~~2 bulan lagi!!!!

uhibbuki~~

sejak 8 may 2011 sampai la hari nie...19 jun 2011...

brape hari da agak2 nyer hah???

erm...setelah kire hampir seminit...

nmpak nye jumlah keseluruhan hari adalah 42 hari...

wah~~seakan masa lambat sgt bergerak...

tp byk bende da berlaku dlm hidup aq, kita, dia, engkau, mereka, kamu etc...

setiap hari, ade je bende y happen...

baik, buruk, indah, teruk, kosong, gembira, sedih etc...

tak tau hari nie, mcm rindu sgt pada seorang insan...

insan y byk memberi aq erti hidup bertuhan...

i mean, mengenalkan aq pada jalan menuju ilahi...

aq tau...mesti susah utk die....dpt teman seteruk aq...

tp sejak aq balik semenanjung, tahun 2009 tu....

kite da jarang sgt tidur sama, makan sekali, berbual mesra same2~~

org kate, kami selalu sgt bersama...

so, tiap kali daurah mesti kne pisahkan...tp sebenarnye,kite da jarang bersama...

masa y ade cume dlm train bile nak p usrah same2...jaulah pun pisah krete....

train ktm tu je la mase kite...rindu saat tu sekarang!!!

rindu sgt nk sit and share same2 mcm dulu2....

byk sgt y da brubah dlm diri nie...

tau je...xbley jadikan alasan sebab kite da jarang bersama n kurang caring each other menyebabkan kite mudah lemah n mungkin malas, or mungkin down...

niat kne sentiase betulkan..memang pun, n tau je...

cume....klu dpt bersama2 lagi best...

hamassatus shabab!!

ape2 pun, jazakillah khair buat ukhti kesayanganku yang juga merangkap teman sejati, sahabat dunia akhirat, buah hati saya...hehe

serius, tanpa ukhti...mmg rs lain~~jauh kite walaupun sejengkal sememangnye memberi kesan y teruk buat saya...seems like i need u to baby sit me again n forever...

balik la upm, jenguk saya...duk pahang lame2 pun, bukan best...hehe

uhibbuki fillah (i love u because of Allah)

p/s: sedih sgt....n mcm xnk p keje je besok...xsuke...xsuke...xsuke~~~

time

time or....

1 indefinite continued progress of existence, events, etc., in the past, present, and future, regarded as a whole. 2 progress of this as affecting persons or things- oxford

well, i think the 2nd point is really related to myself...

why??because i think i just be a totally different person now...

totally...no doubt~~~

why??because...

when u change, u can feel it...and i feel it...

i'm not like this before...i mean, i much more better la before....

i think i want to change...how bout that??

meaning that, i can live without someone who can i called best friend...

i once live in that lifestyle...and i feel like i live life better~~

should i start today??

no no no....i should start a long time ago...

so, should i start now??yoshh~~

treat all people as the same...

no best friend, no bestest friend, no soulmate...soulmate??kah kah...

(mane la aq blaja perkataan mcm tu..adakah pngaruh rakan sekerja??)

no one could get more love from me...cewah~~

except for Rasulullah saw la...

my heart more toward him, and i won't feel hurt by loving him thiiissssss much...

promise that...haha

tired, hungry, sleepy, not in the mood....

making me unconscious, and in this time (beta wave)...

u can make all the decision as mind set...

so,

i (heart), agree to what brain have set...which...

brain said: "Heart...please don't get hurt again...or u make all the functional body not function..."

heart reply: "well brain...u need to decide something then...please don't think about stupid things again...ok brain??"

brain said: "as u wish, heart"

anyway, in hadith-6 (hadith arbain):

"...sesungguhnya dalam badan kamu terdapat seketul daging...jika baik daging itu, maka baik lah seluruh anggota...dan jika buruk daging itu, maka buruk lah seluruh anggota...ketahuilah bahawa daging itu adalah hati"....

so, the most important part in u, is ur heart...and for sure...

your heart needs al-quran n hadith+sunnah Rasulullah saw more than others things...

so, from now on...

i try to promise myself...

i will take care of my heart, my iman and my amal....

its about time to change~~~but, i really hate myself now....

p/s: ...........bile emosi mula melawan logik...

donation

haha...actually, i just don't know what is the best title should i put...

donation or blood??

anyway, i wanna talk about blood donation...

but since, i used to use only one word to describe things, so maybe donation is the best title to put on that place (title place)...walllaaaa~~

ok...

besok atau hari nie (sebab da jam 2:50 am) bersamaan ahad, 25 jamadilakhir 1432...

ade karnival kesihatan kat kawasan rumah aq...

kat mane??

p je senawang, pastu cakap Apartment seroja...

confirm2 semua tau...glamour kot...haha

well, semua dijemput hadir...

antara aktiviti2 y dijalankan (promote baikk punye)

1. derma darah

2. pertandingan masak2

3. Jualan n gerai...

4. check kesihatan

5. ntah...aq xtau..sebab aq bukan ajk..kah kah

berminat??dtg la..jemput2~~

anyway, sebut pasal blood donation,

teringat zaman bintulu...

well, as a ahli PBSM selama 11 tahun (sejak sekolah rendah),

aq confirm2 pernah derma darah...tp 2 kali je la...hoho

and y paling best, aq pernah jd pengarah program utk kempen derma darah...

pastu aq insaf....xnk jd pngarah lagi...haha~~susah n penuh tanggungjawab

xsanggup rsnya..tp timbalan pengarah aq ok..haha

ape type darah aq??agak2??

darah aq jenis kedekut...type AB+, same la dgn best friend aq..haha

well, aq rindu mase tu...ade la kenangan terindah y setiap kali aq tgk kempen derma darah, kenangan tu mesti menjelma kembali...cewaaaahhh...ayat xtahan...

kenangan ape??xbley la bgtau...

ingat lagi, kne marah pun ade sebab......ops~~rahsia lagi

tp byk aq blaja mase kat bintulu dulu...wah~~~

kire tempat jatuh lg dikenang la...

ok la..besok aq nk p berniaga...haha..

amik kesempatan di karnival itu...sshhhh, rahsia kite2 aje...

ok...jam da 3:06 am...

solat isyak da..so, bley tido la kot...

terbaik~~~

p/s: xde sape pun wish birthday tarikh islam aq (22 jamadilakhir)...sedih2..my best frenz pun xingat...y lain apatah lagi...n nmpak sgt xde sape minat aq...

argghh, suda la...baik aq tido~~~haha

intern

intern means: latihan industry...(kamus:aq sendiri)

when i open up oxford dictionary, i also don't understand what the dictionary wanna explain about whats is intern means...so, i use bahasa kasar which mean praktikal industri...

get it??...no???

never mind...avoid it...i'm cool~~

well, suppose to be 8 person will be going for internship this holiday...

however, problemz appear...(appear la sgt...benci)...

so, the person that already go for their internship only 3 person...

my fren, my frenz, n my frenz...jd la 3 orang...kah kah

oh my~~

and tomorrow, (tukar bahase la...tergeliat speaking2 nie...a.k.a xde mood)

sorang lagi my friend akan p internship...

xdapat nk borak sepanjang malam lagi...cewah~~

kat mane??

kluang...(oohhh...snap) -tempat kluang man~~terbaik!!!

yup...dekat kluang, johor...

doakan supaye semuanya akan ok besok...baik pendaftaran, baik perjalanan, baik penginapan...

jgn tido dlm krete sudah...haha

cakap pasal tido dlm krete...

ade brite sedih...bile sorang budak 3 tahun, meninggal sebab tertingal dlm krete...

berite td kat tv...Al-Fatehah~~

tu belum lagi kisah pasal umah anak2 yatim : tragedi hulu langat

so, pesanan khidmat masyarakat...

take care kat tempat org...n jgn tido dlm krete...terbaik~~

intern aq??

oh my...malas nk cite...tp nk cakap gak...

mule2 mintak munchy's...senyap

then, mintak tlg one of my lecturer...dpat...tp prof plak reject...

fama??mintak maaf...klu bley nak lain..hehe
dapat giant....aq tolak...

mintak tesco...erm, resume da hntr...tinggal nk call besok...

klu dapat, dapat la...klu x, jom kite enjoy~~!!!

insya-Allah perancangan Allah swt lah yang terbaik sekali...

klu de rezeki ade la...MOJ (mak ok jer~~)

gonna miss them'all....skang pun da rindu~~waaaaaa

knape beriye aq nk intern: ceciter...ceciter...

1. aq nk tamatkan study aq 3 tahun je...

2. aq takut, lame2 aq study...mood nk 1st class degree hilang

3. sebab klu xdapat, nti aq xsame kelas dengan.........ops~~haha

4. aq dapat join graduation tahun depan...dgr x??tahun depan...excited ni..haha

5..ok cukup...polygamy xbley lebih 4 (ade kaitan ke??) whatevaahhh....

so, doakan semua berjalan lancar besok...

baik untuk aq mahu pun my special frenz...jeng3

p/s: yosh~~~knape aq post awal mlm nie...sebab aq rs mcm xsedap hati, xsedap badan...

feels sleepy pun ade...tapi xpe...nk tunggu call dr someone...pastu br bley tidor dgn happy nye...haha..yosh~~

sensei

sensei(japanese)/ guru(malay)/ teacher(english)/ laoshi(chinese)....

16 may 2011...

xde hal lain y akan muncul dalam kotak kepale kite melainkan...

"yup, hari nie hari guru"....

jom imbas kembali 5 tahun lepas...

mase tu umur aku...17 tahun...lebih kurang sweet 17th la...haha

hidup aq lebih suke main2 je...

suke2...gurau2...erm~~lebih kurang gitu la...

smpai la dtg seorang cikgu y aq minat...haha

die student praktikal UPM...(tempat aq blaja skang)

kos bac. pend (bahasa melayu sebagai bahasa pertama)...

serius...time nie aq da start blaja2 jd stalker....

nk dijadikan cerita...bile cikgu nie nak habis praktikal...

mase tu aq rs mcm kehilangan la gak...(padahal cikgu tu xajar pun kelas aq...haha)

die just pernah jage kelas aq waktu cikgu bahase melayu aq xde...

tu pun dalam 30 minit je kot...kenangan tu~~~haha

mase die nk tamat praktikal tu, aq de la bg gift...

1st time dlm life aq bg gift kat org...

then, ckgu tu pun mesej la aq balik...

die kate "sy nk bg sesuatu kat awak...emm,besok jumpe sy"

ohhooo...nervous nie~~

besoknye bile aq jumpe die...die bg aq satu penande buku..

serius, aq mmg suke dpt n kumpul penande buku (ok..walaupun aq xminat membaca...)

kat penande buku tu tertulis...

cikgu saiful + no phone (rahsia~~~haha)

"sebuah mahligai bermula dari seketul bata, kejayaan yang sedikit bukanlah satu kegagalan, tetapi ia permulaan menuju puncak kejayaan...insya-Allah"

dan apa yang paling aq rs terkesan dalam life aq adalah...

kat penande buku tu ade satu logo yang menjadi punca di mana aq sekarang...

yup...logo UPM...serius logo UPM mmg cun~~~(logo uni lain pun ok gak..)

aq mula ade impian utk masuk UPM sebab penanda buku tu...

dan bermula kat situ, aq mohon masuk UPM walaupun aq tau aq akan ke Sarawak waktu tu...

dan ade la beberapa sebab lain...

and guess what...i am UPM student for 5 years now...

ade seorang ustaz cakap...

"turning point kite kadang2 bukan lah dr satu2 masa, atau satu2 ceramah....tp ia bermula dari awal lagi...setiap org y muncul dlm life kite adalah menjadi as sebab siapa kita sekarang..."

dan yang pasti bukan cikgu saiful je...

pada aq setiap insan y pernah muncul dlm life aq adalah cikgu aq....

xkire siapa die, baik mak ayah, org awam, best friend, friend, dan sape2 jugak pun...

terima kasih atas segala ilmu...

mungkin tanpa mereka aq xreti nak makan gune tgn,

mungkin tanpa mereka aq xreti membaca,

mungkin tanpa mereka aq xkenal penciptaku...

sesungguhnya jasa semua akan dikenang smpai mati...insya-Allah...

terima kasih buat semua cikgu, and also lecturer...

# sek.keb.kampung cheras bharu (1995-2000)

# sek.ren.agama Kampung Cheras Bharu (1995-2000)

# sek. men. keb. Senanwang Dua@ Seri Pagi (2001-2005)

# Universiti Putra Malaysia Kampus Bintulu (2006-2009)

# Universiti Putra Malaysia, Serdang (2009-present)

p/s: 2 hari lepas dpt mesej dari cikgu saiful...katenye die nk kawin jun nie kat Muar, Johor...hope dapat g...insya-Allah...

nervous

nervous means "1 easily upset, timid, highly strung. 2 anxious. 3 affecting the nerves"-oxford

easily upset??ohw, ok...not that....

erm, suppose to be today, my result from my practical industry will be confirm...

nervous?? agak la...

tp result xkuar2 lagi...call dr en.saifudeen pun xdapat lagi...

insya-Allah, klu dapat...i will start by next monday...

and i pray for my senai, kota bharu, and guar cempedak friend to start next monday gak...ameen..

semoga dipermudahkan urusan kalian dan hamba jugak...

nervous...nervous...(poyo seh...)

erm, sebut pasal nervous...

mari kite reflect ape citer semalam...ceciter...ceciter...

mak:"ko ikut k.dah p penang??"

aq:"ntah la...tgk la...ade ape balik penang??"

mak:"adik ipar k.dah nk tunang...sape name tu...ayang??ehh...."

aq: "nana la..."

mak: "haa...nana...berape umur die ye??"

aq: "tu..baye adik zul tu...21...(smbil tunjuk ke arah adik ku y sedang berangan...kahkah)

mak:"kau bile nak tunang...da 23 kan??(smbil pandang aq dgn penuh serius)..."

aq: "hah??"(dgn agak terkesima...) "tnye la ct"

haha...adoyai....

adakah itu green light??kah kah....

klu green light..hari nie gak aq p lamar anak orang...haha...

tp serius...mesti kne settle kakak2 atas dulu...

jd yang terakhir mesti best...

banyak backup..banyak sponsor...terbaik~~termeriah~~

but i'm telling u something...

in this age (23 an above la yer)...when people ask us about marriage...

u will feel something different in the inside...your heart beat fast then normal...

and maybe u can find a butterfly in ur stomach....

and at that time...u will feel nervous and in the same times, thinking...am i ready??

and do i have the exact person that can take care of me for the rest of my life??

marriage is not that easy...believe me...

sometimes i could be a scary part in life...if ur choices wrong...

ape2 pun...pilih la seseorang yang boleh kite melangkah masuk ke syurga ilahi dengan nya...

yang membantu kite dlm urusan dakwah kite...

yang mencintai kite kerna die mencintai Allah...

supaya marah die, sayang die, cinta die, cemburu die...semua kerna Allah swt...

insy-Allah....

argh~~

jauhnye merayau...dr citer praktikal p crite kawin...

dah..dah....nk smbung buat keje umah...cewah~~(acah je tu)..haha

p/s: pray for the best result today...erm, and lupe nak thankz pada yang sudi hantar balik seremban hari tu...thankz a lot...hehe XD

today

finally, i've gotta say goodbye to all my final exam paper...

yeah~~finally...score!!!!

but the knowledge hopefully remains forever...

thankz to all my lecturer and also my course-mate...

my friends and my best friend...

my group member~~

sorry if i said before this i dont want u guyz to be my group member ever...

maybe i just lost control a bit..u know what stress can bring u to...

and specially thankz goes to someone that always be my group member in this semester...

thankz for everything...

next sem??don't know (mane la tau 6 bulan xjumpe)..hehe

talking about today...

firstly, i need to settle all my practical problemz...

not yet settle...erm~~so complicated...

harap2 dapat la...tp klu xdpt pun, insya-Allah, i'm fully prepared..insya-Allah...

and for akhawatz yang tgh wat prog adik IPK...

pray for everything fine...

really sorry coz cannot join u girlz...afwan~~

today, hopefully much better than yesterday...

yesterday gotta be a memoriez...either u want to remember or not...

but, last day (8 may 2011) or "mei" in malay...hehe =P

it is sure be my unique memory...

why>>...secret~~hehe

erm,today...

klu semua perasan la kan...

2-3 hari nie panas lain mcm skit~~

upm, klu panas mesti hujan....tp 2-3 hari nie x...

pelik...pelik~~~ok xde la pelik jugak pun...

mcm la xpernah terjadi...hehe

panas2...layan ice room ok gak na??

terbaik~~lagi2 bile org belanje...thankz =)

sebenarnye rs mcm sayu je nk tinggalkan upm nie...cewah~~

xtau knape...

mungkin sebab sem nie...

1. aq paling kurang balik rumah...

2. aq paling banyak assignemnt

3. aq paling byk habiskan masa dgn upm..

4. aq paling...er~~~tu je kot...haha

jd rs lain...lagi2 klu aq xdapat praktikal cuti nie...

lagi la...

7 bulan kot tinggalkan upm...

and mungkin xjumpe course-mate2 aq selama setahun...

setahun tu~~gonna miss all of them (mcm confirm je xdpt pratikal)...haha

ok...satu rangkap untuk semua:

"kasihku.....

ku amat mencintai kamu.......

kerna kau beri arti hidup...

ku kan terus mencinta....

sedetik lebih~~~

selepas selamanya...."

p/s: besok insya-Allah balik ghumah den kek somban...lamo bonar den xbalik...smpai anak buah den pun x kenai laie maksu dio...xbley jd nie...4 bulan nie den nk kenalkan diri den je kek anak buah den...confirm~~~lame tu....fuh~~

DIA

cun x??

di edit oleh "diri saya sendiri"~~klu xsuke diam2 suda...haha XD

dia and DIA...

look the same...but different...

why??

because it is different...

DIA...

i plan something, DIA will determined...

i said i love him...DIA always love me, even before i love him...

i once or always forget about him...but DIA never forget about me...

i will do the best...and DIA will do the rest...

DIA promises is sure and confirm...

DIA always there when i sick, hurt, stress, sad, dying...

DIA always there when i happy, eating, studying, walking...

DIA always there in every single breath that i take...

how about dia??

i plan something, dia will support me...

i said i wanna forget about dia...dia always just say "ok"

i said i will do the best..and dia will pray to DIA for me...

dia not perfect...

dia only there if i need him...

dia will give me smile if i cry...

dia will support me no matter what am i doing...

never say no to me...

never give me the uncertain promise...

dia and me needs DIA...

so that, i and dia will always in the bless of DIA...insya-Allah...

see the different...

dia and DIA is never the same...never, ever....

because DIA is my aim, my destiny....

always be my aim...insya-Allah...

and dia??

i pray for dia will always be beside me and aim for DIA together...

insya-Allah...

side story:

thanks for my best friend today...u give me, my spirit and my smile...

u always give support and the things that i love about u...

u always there everytime that i need u...

even though i put my emotion on u...

i put my bad attitude on u...i don't put my trust on u...

but u just always there for me...

and the most thing that i like abou u is....u never give up on me...

p/s: u dont know how caring can bring u to the deepest part in heart and that will stay there forever...can't be deleted even u want to...and thatz also, was something that i'm afraid to.."care"

kacau

yeah~~assignment masih xsiap...

and aq sangat benci group assignmnt...

sebab??

one thing to note this day:

promise to myself, xkan amik lagi diorg jd ahli group...note that!!!!

cukup la seksa semester nie...

klu situasi nie zaman keje...

confirm aq da fired awal2 lagi...

bukan banyak pun...

cume buat kerje sendiri and tolong jangan bagi sampah kat org lain...

thatz it!!! susah sgt ke??

(ok..nie luahan perasaan org yang jiwa kacau)

perasaan aku, emosi aku, jiwa aku, minda aku...semuanye serabut, kacau~~

~~romantiknye bila Nabi Nuh a.s meluah rasa sakitnya hati, dan kecewa baginda terhadap kaumnya kepada

Allah swt..kerna siapa lagi yang mampu mengerti jika bukan Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui...~~

yup...itu yang aq patut buat...

mengadu pada Allah swt atas segala kesakitan...kekacauan yang melande...

serius hancur life aq bile buat assignment a.k.a kerje sihir (sgt benci aq melakukanye)...

bacaan tarbiyah ntah ke mane...hafalan ntah ke mane....

juzuk 30,xsettle lagi..(kne mngaku gak bende nie...ini kenyataan hidup aq yang miserable)

thankz to Allah, al-quran menjadi teman setia mendengar tangisan dan luahan hati...

"sesungguhnya dengan mengingati Allah hati akan menjadi tenang"

serius ayat nie mmg betul2 shifa' ar pada aq saat2 marah nie...

plus satu bende aq kne highlight hari nie:

"dont put 100% trust on others, coz if they hurt you, it would kill you"...

even ur best friend....note that!!!

mungkin aq patut pegang kate2 aq 4 tahun yang lepas...

there will no best friend in this world...coz why??

coz it actually never exist...arghhh~~peduli la...

so, cause i already do a stupid things, so kne telan la rs sakit tu...

ok, cukup...byk bende kne focus...or i will fail this exam..

da ar carry mark mmg xbayk...hancus result aq sem nie...

ok2...cukup...makin stress aq tulis blog nie...

ingat nk release...makin pikir makin sakit hati...done and STOP!!!

p/s: bosan aq tgk assignment yang ntah ape2 tu...da ar buku xbukak lagi...besok nk exam da...serius aq benci group assignment~~!!!!!

journey

journey means:

"act of going from one place to another, esp. at a long distance. 2 time taken for this (a day's journey)"=oxford dictionary

finally, my marketing plan and farm management study is done!!!fuh~~scoreee~~

ok,stop...still have 2 more to go...u can do it mr.brain...haha

actually, sometime we need to rest...and unexpected journey or holiday give u the worthwhile experience that u absolutely can't buy in the market, for sure...

ok, this is my story:

25 april 2011, i decided to go to book fair, at PWTC...first time nie...

then, calling2 with some of my friends...to meet there...

found my wanted book.."isabella"-serius akan menyentuh jiwa..

seperti kesah bob lokman...ok..itu kne wat entry lain...~~haha

after buying some books, we going home...havoc!!

THATZ IT??~~not fun at all, ok...haha

ok..itu tipu...life is full of surprises, right??

so, chill+relax=chillex~~

serius cute tajuk buku nie...love it...

ok..nie la PWTC y baru 1st time aq g...haha malaysia...malaysia

serius ramai org walaupun hari isnin

anyway, cerite kami x smpai di situ shaje ok...

aq, teh n mr.hiccup bercadang untuk holiday dengan bumblebee...

ok..aq yang cadang sebenarnye...(mengaku2)

sambung citer....

dengan tidak sengajanya, terlihat satu sign board "PUSAT SAINS NEGARA"

1:"pernah p x??"

2:"x.."

3:"aq pernah g kot mase sekolah dulu"

1:"nak g x??"

2:"nak...jom~~"

1:"betul??"

2+3:"xkesah je...jom~~"

ok..dgn senang hati...melangkah la kami ke dunia dinasour...dlam pusat sains negare tu...

ok~~fine..mmg budak2 sekolah je yang p situ ok...

tp hello~~...kitorg pun still belajar lagi...so, what??

murah kot : MYR5.00 je kot(klu de kad matrix la)

ok, then??jgn fikir smpai situ je ok...

name pun unexpected journey kan...

1:"nk makan kat mane?"

3:"Melaka...makan asam pedas...best nyer~~"

2:"jom!!.."

1:"serius??"

3:"jom la...serius"

1:"serius???"

3:"ikut la"..(dlm hati mmg nk gurau2 jer...tp...)

ok..mmg serius kitorg g melaka...untuk??

unexpected holiday ok...sebelum final kne rest2 dulu...cewahhh....

ok...malas tulis banyak...

1st: melawat tempat bersejarah (kate g melaka...so, wat pe lagi ye x??)

2nd: cari pantai untuk tgk sunset...cantik dan penuh rama2 dlm perut mase tu...haha

budak2 xpaham...haha

ape2 pun ciptaan Allah akan buat kite speechless dan rs betapa besarnye keagungan Allah sehingga sanggup ke kite lalai dr terus menjadi hambaNYA yang taat??serius xsanggup...

mase tu teringat bintulu dan org2 nye...ok..xnak feeling2~~not fragile at all,k..cewahhh

then, perut da terlalu lapar sebab xmakan dr pagi...

lepas solat maghrib...

so,ape lagi...JALAN JALAN CARI MAKAN la....

jom cari ikan bakar!!!...

moral of the story is.....

mmg kitorg p melaka hari tu...tnpa dicadang...and its fun and sgt ala2 dreaming kot...=P

kenangan terbaik~~~

xpayah citer banyak...jom tgk ape kitorg buat...haha

berbaloi kosongkan perut untuk ini ^...haha

sejarahwan ke ape nie??erk~~

serius aq suke gamba y aq tgkap sendiri nie...memoriable sehh...(puji diri sendiri)

p/s: ok assignment masih banyak...so, dreaming smpai sini dulu...nti smbung balik...haiyakk~~

gambate

gambate (Japanese) means berusaha in bahasa..

cewah...see, i can speak japanese what..haha

nervousnyer..

final exam just around the coner..haha

my brother: "aq tinggal lagi 2 paper"~~siot je...

just wanna make me jealous...not going to happen...

anywhow, all subject this sem is killer...fuh~~

some assignment still pending...arghhh...tired doing this "sihir" job...

ntah bile nk tamat...adoyaiii...

let see what subject that gonna kill us...

1. farm management (killer)

2. leadership

3. entrepreneurship in agribusiness (killer)

4. financial management in agribusiness

5. agribusiness marketing (most killer)

fine~~forget about exam and all that dunniya things...

today i finally had a simple daurah with akhi...

after 2 years waiting, and finally....

can't tell u guys what actually i feel that time...

almost drop my valuable tears...huhu

first things that he remind us is

"Jalan dakwah perlukan keikhlasan yang jelas"

"keep asking urself, why choose this path and not the other"

"tekanan yang kuat kne di lawan dengan jiwa kita yang lebih kuat, or else kite akan hanyut"

oh my Allah...

this day, gonna be my day of push factor...

yes~~i wanna be the change agent....to change things not to be change by things...

permudahkan urusan dakwah ku ya Allah...

jgn sekali2 kau lalaikan aq dengan jahiliyyah baik yang da dibuang mahupun yang masih bertapak....

meh bace doa rabitah skit:

YA ALLAH,

Engkau mengetahui hati-hati ini

telah berkumpul kerana mengasihiMU,

bertemu untuk mematuhi perintahMU,

bersatu memikul beban dakwahMU,

hati-hati ini telah mengikat janji setia untuk

mendaulat & menyokong syariatMU,

maka eratkanlah YA ALLAH akan ikatanya…

Kekalkanlah kemesraan antara hati-hati ini

akan jalanNYA yang sebenar,

Penuhkanlah hati ini dengan cahaya RabbaniMu

yang tidak kunkung malap,

Lapangkanlah hati-hati ini dengan

limpahan iman dan keyakinan

dan keindahan tawakkal kepadaMU,

Hidup suburkanlah hati-hati ini dengan

ma’rifat (pengetahuan sebenar) tentangMU,

Jika Engkau mentakdirkan mati,

maka matikanlah pemilik hati-hati ini

sebagai para syuhada dalam perjuangan agamaMU,

Engkaulah sebaik-baik sandaran

dan sebaik-baik penolong,

YA ALLAH,

Perkenankanlah permintaan ini…

p/s: kepada mr.hiccup...jgn stress...semoga dipermudahkan urusan anda~~kite backup..=P

bukit

bukit is not gunung...meaning that bukit is hill (google translate) and gunung is mountain...

ok, x update 2 hari...what actually i do this two days??

erm~~let me think??

sleep??eat??and...ok..itu tipu...

aq dengan ini mengisytiharkan dengan baik dan sopan nye...

"AKU BUAT ASSIGNMENT SORANG2, k..."~~serius

well, when my groupmate act like forget to do the assigment that need to be send on friday (22nd april 2011), then i need to do it all alone...xper~~quite fun to do 53page assignment about marketing plan in only 11 hour left...what an experience..haha...ok, stop talking bout those REALLY GREAT experience...

talking about experience,

last day...on 21st april 2011...for the first time i go hiking...wow~~!!!

hiking to BUKIT TABUR with GENG SLIDE GUNUNG...

and the idea come from mr.as sobah mohamed n geng...terbaik la~~

anyhow, sgt la unexpectednyer...dgn xprepare ape2...air pun xbwk...

hebat xhebat cek, meh habaq mai...haha

bangun 3 pagi and balik 1 tgh hari...padahal, 2.30 ptg ade discussion...

serius letih sgt kot hari tu...mood malam...serius down~~

i just want to see the sunrise actually coz someone use to give me that sunrise as a gift...

who??who else..my best friend of course...

so, i took some picture...somehow, kabus tebal sgt...sunrise xnmpak sgt...

ape2 pun, kenangan kot...

siap solat subuh atas bukit smbil menikmati gaung yang amat la dalam nye...

haha...

aq:"boleh ke lalu nie??"

sobah:"boleh je...selame org panjat bukit ni, baru sorang je yang meninggal..."

aq: "apesal ko citer bende tu skang~~nervous"

sobah: "la betul la...ramai je jatuh, tp pokok kan banyak...sorang je pun meninggal"

aq: mati la..(dlm hati)

serius kiri kanan gaung...and yang tinggal mmg batu seketul utk dipeluk...

haha...stamina xcukup membuatkan aq terpakse brenti smpai puncak ke-8..

yang lain smpai je atas...

sayang la plak x daki abis...

xper2...next time i'll be prepared more la...haha...

satu bende yang paling terkesan utk aq sejak naik bukit tabur nie adalah:

1. klu la seruan perang smpai, stamina aq serius xcukup...

2. teringat kisah Thariq b. ziad and para tenteranya

3. Hanya Allah sebagai pelindung and pemberi segalanya

4. Alam itu indah dan ada masa ia mampu menjadi musuh

5. gunung2 nie la yang akan berterbangan mcm debu masa kiamat nanti...serius!!!

(semua nie tazkirah alam pada aq hari tu)

semua tu aq pikir mase naik bukit tu...

and my preparation??

insya-Allah aq nak jadi tentera Allah yang cukup bersedia...

anyway,byk nye citer...bosan??alrite~~~~

jom tegok gmba terbaik..haha

dari puncak bukit tabur

yeah~~akan ku tawan mu satu hari nanti..haha

lihat la dunia~~

wan,team,sue

pelakon terbaik~~

i am a camera man...thats it~~

to my best friend: ur gift is real beautiful...thankz

love this~~

my best picture i take...

p/s: sape la memandai heck facebook den nie...adoiyai...kne tukar password ni...

edition-entry for my best friend

update bukan bererti "tarikh naik"...atau pun "naik jumpa"..haha

ape2 la...yang penting, semua orang akan paham jer word update tu...

nak dictionary gak ke??~~~xpe la kot...

letz use my distionary..

update: maksudnye terkini...bahasa lain...ermm~~ok cukup...haha

erm, i thinkz lately...

aq suke update blog...oh my~~

somebody mule kate...

"hai team, da xde keje nak buat??update setiap hari nmpak...bagi keje kat awak boleh??"

haha...(tu hati aq cakap kat otak aq)...ops~~

ape2 pun, aq x update pun pasal my best friend birthday lagi...

well,

he's not the first person yang wish...ade org lain wish dulu...(kire seri la)

but anyway, thankz for calling 4 times that day...

cume sorry, sebab hari tu mmg busy sgt...

coz work come first...haha, and u should be else number...kidding~~=P

well, my card be appreciated already...

"haha nice...

as expected from my dear friend..hehe

tq so much..."-my best friend

even though kate nice, but actually theres some complaining jugak....

best friend:" sampai hati gariskan bestest tu..." reflash entry: sleep

aq: "da kate bukan bestest...so, i kne edit la"

best friend: "betul la tu..cume patut kne letak "the" sebelum best tu"

aq: "ooo...konon the best la tu"-i got what my best freind want to say...

anyway...die mmg best...haha

ape y best tentng my best friend:

1. we dont know each other pun, even already be friend for 5 years...tau basic jer...

2. xpernah berbual bile jumpe dan banyak bercerita bile x berjumpe...

3. pendengar masalah setia sejak 5 tahun lepas... tp never come out with solution...

4. xpernah tinggi suara, and klu marah lebih kepada diam...

5. xpernah serius tp klu serius, jd agak seram...

6. use to call me putri.."putri bz ke??"ops~~=)

7. suke sakitkan hati...best ke nie??ntah la...

8. last but not least...die terlalu ramai aweks~~"awek mane satu nie??byk sgt aa"-what ever!!

cukup la...byk jer lg...tp "biarlah rahsia"...

ape2 pun, die antra y paling memahami...sejak dulu, smpai skang...

banyak yang aq pelajari dari die...

tentang hidup, kasih sayang, ilmu, bahasa, nasihat etc...(al maklum la..dulu top 5 dlm kelas)

sebab tu kadang2 panggil die sensei@cikgu...

tadi dapat tau, yang die nak sambung belajar...

and itu pun kat UPM...

"tp team, 50-50 jer"..."hantr je borang, dpt ke x,xtau lagi"

xkesah la...i pray for the best...walau ape pun keputusan nye..

klu jadi,yang pasti...die akan jadi my junior...(boleh buli nie)

haha...can't wait...

walaupun aq jadi org yang lmbat diberitahu...

mungkin xnk aq kecewe mcm mase 1st sem which die sepatutnya dftar, tp xdatang...

ape2 la...

last word before i end: to my best friend>>>

i want the best ending for us...no more fight, no more misunderstood...

letz be friend as long as we can go for it...

please have the best life and good there...

p/s: assignment banyak xsiap lagi ni...xpe2...slow2...tp mesti siap ye...haha...

gambate team~~!!!

belong

As we born...

Come to this world, we had nothing but ourselves

Then, our mom and dad give us everything that we need...

Food, home, love etc...

Then, we go to school...

Found new friends...

Happy together...

Until now, we do the same...

We found best friend, friends...

Sometimes we fight, sometimes we laugh...

Sometimes we sharing, sometimes we hiding...

But I do believe..

That sometimes, will give us times...

To know the better us...

Until there is a time,

We misunderstand; we not talk to each other,

Like we never know each other

Like stranger... like enemy

Then we feel, we now losing our best friend, friend...

But as we think back...

We come to this world alone,

We had nothing from the beginning...

Then how come we losing something that not even belong to us...

It just, we back to beginning...

I believe, if we don’t try to have something,

Then we will never loss something...

Cause it never exist at first...

p/s: I don’t want to have anything in my life...cause I’m afraid to loss everything... i think i need to ask for forgiveness from someone..but..........

try

try a.k.a cuba(malays word)

no matter how much you try to understand, u will never understand if that someone don't want you to understand himself...

wasted?? i don't know...

normally i get this advice:

" hati tu Allah yang pegang...walau kita habiskan seluruh masa dan duit untuk itu, kite tetap tak mampu untuk memiliki hati itu...sebab hati itu milik Allah...so, ape yang perlu dilakukan is berdoa pada Allah hati itu mampu dimiliki..."

but, human have limits...(i made that statement)

anyways, i have limits...which i hope i don't...

really wanna cry right now...(already)

can't even focus on assignment...

thankz to this song: bersama-devotees

at least i feel cool a bit...

and makes me feel miss my best friend a lot...jap lagi nak call la...=)

besok ulang tahun my best friend...

jauhnya die..susah nk bg hadiah...sorry~~

terpakse la xbagi....hehe

anyway,this is for you:

Kita pernah bersama

Menempuh onak dan duka

Tidak pernah putus asa

Walau dugaan datang melanda

Dikau pernah bertanya

Bila bahgia akan tiba

Ku berkata bersabarlah

Serahkan saja pada yang ESA

Bila masanya menjelma

Kebahgiaan akan tiba

Namun tidak mungkin ku lupa

Kenangan indah kita bersama

Menempuh onak cabaran

Dan liku hidup yang panjang

Tidak mungkin hidup ini sepi

Selagi ku masih di sini

Bila masanya menjelma

Kebahgiaan akan tiba

Namun tidak mungkin ku lupa

Kenangan indah kita bersama

Kini terungkai sudah

kisah hidup kita

Berbekal taat dan sabar

Pastikan berjaya

p/s: gambate team!!! i'm stronger than i thought...left the sadness behind and get looking for the brighter day...