walimah

walimah a.k.a wedding...

oxford dictionary said: "marriage ceremony." (thatz it??!!)

ok then...ceremony...ok...ok....

haha...as simple as that huh??

walimah is hav much bigger thought than that ok...

xperlu jelaskan..takut ade kanak2 belum 23 tahun membaca blog ini...

anyway..knape 23??

jawapan aq: suke la...haha

gurau2...sebab aq da 23 tahun kan..sebab tu la...(derr...sebab tu jek...dull..)

ok...

jemput la dtg ke walimah aq....~~

s:"ko nak kawin da??"

a:"well....da tua pun aq kan??"

haha....

nervous nie...ops~~

ops~~walimah aq punye kawan...

xcakap habis plak td..so, aq xbley la nk jemput melainkan tuan punye badan yang jemput...

xper2...time aq nanti aq jemput...

haaa....yang belakang tu jgn la nagis guling2 sebab xdapat p...

nti aq post gamba..haha

ape2 pun, i'm happy for her...finally, she found her prince...

me??don't know...one time...another time...sometimes....=P

erm, letih jugak drive jauh2 nie sebenarnyer...

baru balik dr walimah belah perempuan...yup, kat batu gajah...

belah lelaki kat kelantan...xsanggup...

hari semalam, bangun pukul 4 pagi and skang da masuk 2 pagi...

almost 24 hour berjaga...terbaik~~

ape2 pun jaulah mmg best...

ade satu bende aq suke hari nie...kate2 dr seorang yang tidak dikenali...

agak dapat memberi tamparan pada aq gak la...tgk ape die cakap...

"cabaran dan duaan dalam dunia xkan ad pnghujungnya kecuali kita akan dapat merasai pe balasannya di akhirat kelak...so be patient dan letakkan kesabaran dalam diri anda...jangan sesekali rasa benci terhadap ujian yang diberi.... sandarkan usaha dan tawakal anda kepada ALLAH S.W.T.... kerana salah satu penyebab tension adalah kerana kurangnya keberantungan diri kita kepada ALLAH S.W.T."

well, aq rs sgt betul pun...bile hubungan dengan Allah xsettle...yang lain jd susah sgt...

aq harap sgt aq dapat putar balik waktu...tp itu sangat mustahil...

so, ape y aq bley buat is betulkan keadaan kepada y lebih baik..right??

p/s: ape yang berlaku dalam hidup aq selama 23 tahun nie, siapa yang aq jumpe, apa yang aq dapat dan apa yang aq hilang...semuanya ade hikmah yang tersendiri...adakala ia menampar, adakala ia membuat aq senyum di malam hari...tp satu bende yang aq yakin...

takdir Allah itu sesuatu yang terbaik dan sgt adil...

AKU RINDU RASULULLAH SAW....SGT RINDU!!!

kacau

yeah~~assignment masih xsiap...

and aq sangat benci group assignmnt...

sebab??

one thing to note this day:

promise to myself, xkan amik lagi diorg jd ahli group...note that!!!!

cukup la seksa semester nie...

klu situasi nie zaman keje...

confirm aq da fired awal2 lagi...

bukan banyak pun...

cume buat kerje sendiri and tolong jangan bagi sampah kat org lain...

thatz it!!! susah sgt ke??

(ok..nie luahan perasaan org yang jiwa kacau)

perasaan aku, emosi aku, jiwa aku, minda aku...semuanye serabut, kacau~~

~~romantiknye bila Nabi Nuh a.s meluah rasa sakitnya hati, dan kecewa baginda terhadap kaumnya kepada

Allah swt..kerna siapa lagi yang mampu mengerti jika bukan Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui...~~

yup...itu yang aq patut buat...

mengadu pada Allah swt atas segala kesakitan...kekacauan yang melande...

serius hancur life aq bile buat assignment a.k.a kerje sihir (sgt benci aq melakukanye)...

bacaan tarbiyah ntah ke mane...hafalan ntah ke mane....

juzuk 30,xsettle lagi..(kne mngaku gak bende nie...ini kenyataan hidup aq yang miserable)

thankz to Allah, al-quran menjadi teman setia mendengar tangisan dan luahan hati...

"sesungguhnya dengan mengingati Allah hati akan menjadi tenang"

serius ayat nie mmg betul2 shifa' ar pada aq saat2 marah nie...

plus satu bende aq kne highlight hari nie:

"dont put 100% trust on others, coz if they hurt you, it would kill you"...

even ur best friend....note that!!!

mungkin aq patut pegang kate2 aq 4 tahun yang lepas...

there will no best friend in this world...coz why??

coz it actually never exist...arghhh~~peduli la...

so, cause i already do a stupid things, so kne telan la rs sakit tu...

ok, cukup...byk bende kne focus...or i will fail this exam..

da ar carry mark mmg xbayk...hancus result aq sem nie...

ok2...cukup...makin stress aq tulis blog nie...

ingat nk release...makin pikir makin sakit hati...done and STOP!!!

p/s: bosan aq tgk assignment yang ntah ape2 tu...da ar buku xbukak lagi...besok nk exam da...serius aq benci group assignment~~!!!!!

journey

journey means:

"act of going from one place to another, esp. at a long distance. 2 time taken for this (a day's journey)"=oxford dictionary

finally, my marketing plan and farm management study is done!!!fuh~~scoreee~~

ok,stop...still have 2 more to go...u can do it mr.brain...haha

actually, sometime we need to rest...and unexpected journey or holiday give u the worthwhile experience that u absolutely can't buy in the market, for sure...

ok, this is my story:

25 april 2011, i decided to go to book fair, at PWTC...first time nie...

then, calling2 with some of my friends...to meet there...

found my wanted book.."isabella"-serius akan menyentuh jiwa..

seperti kesah bob lokman...ok..itu kne wat entry lain...~~haha

after buying some books, we going home...havoc!!

THATZ IT??~~not fun at all, ok...haha

ok..itu tipu...life is full of surprises, right??

so, chill+relax=chillex~~

serius cute tajuk buku nie...love it...

ok..nie la PWTC y baru 1st time aq g...haha malaysia...malaysia

serius ramai org walaupun hari isnin

anyway, cerite kami x smpai di situ shaje ok...

aq, teh n mr.hiccup bercadang untuk holiday dengan bumblebee...

ok..aq yang cadang sebenarnye...(mengaku2)

sambung citer....

dengan tidak sengajanya, terlihat satu sign board "PUSAT SAINS NEGARA"

1:"pernah p x??"

2:"x.."

3:"aq pernah g kot mase sekolah dulu"

1:"nak g x??"

2:"nak...jom~~"

1:"betul??"

2+3:"xkesah je...jom~~"

ok..dgn senang hati...melangkah la kami ke dunia dinasour...dlam pusat sains negare tu...

ok~~fine..mmg budak2 sekolah je yang p situ ok...

tp hello~~...kitorg pun still belajar lagi...so, what??

murah kot : MYR5.00 je kot(klu de kad matrix la)

ok, then??jgn fikir smpai situ je ok...

name pun unexpected journey kan...

1:"nk makan kat mane?"

3:"Melaka...makan asam pedas...best nyer~~"

2:"jom!!.."

1:"serius??"

3:"jom la...serius"

1:"serius???"

3:"ikut la"..(dlm hati mmg nk gurau2 jer...tp...)

ok..mmg serius kitorg g melaka...untuk??

unexpected holiday ok...sebelum final kne rest2 dulu...cewahhh....

ok...malas tulis banyak...

1st: melawat tempat bersejarah (kate g melaka...so, wat pe lagi ye x??)

2nd: cari pantai untuk tgk sunset...cantik dan penuh rama2 dlm perut mase tu...haha

budak2 xpaham...haha

ape2 pun ciptaan Allah akan buat kite speechless dan rs betapa besarnye keagungan Allah sehingga sanggup ke kite lalai dr terus menjadi hambaNYA yang taat??serius xsanggup...

mase tu teringat bintulu dan org2 nye...ok..xnak feeling2~~not fragile at all,k..cewahhh

then, perut da terlalu lapar sebab xmakan dr pagi...

lepas solat maghrib...

so,ape lagi...JALAN JALAN CARI MAKAN la....

jom cari ikan bakar!!!...

moral of the story is.....

mmg kitorg p melaka hari tu...tnpa dicadang...and its fun and sgt ala2 dreaming kot...=P

kenangan terbaik~~~

xpayah citer banyak...jom tgk ape kitorg buat...haha

berbaloi kosongkan perut untuk ini ^...haha

sejarahwan ke ape nie??erk~~

serius aq suke gamba y aq tgkap sendiri nie...memoriable sehh...(puji diri sendiri)

p/s: ok assignment masih banyak...so, dreaming smpai sini dulu...nti smbung balik...haiyakk~~

gambate

gambate (Japanese) means berusaha in bahasa..

cewah...see, i can speak japanese what..haha

nervousnyer..

final exam just around the coner..haha

my brother: "aq tinggal lagi 2 paper"~~siot je...

just wanna make me jealous...not going to happen...

anywhow, all subject this sem is killer...fuh~~

some assignment still pending...arghhh...tired doing this "sihir" job...

ntah bile nk tamat...adoyaiii...

let see what subject that gonna kill us...

1. farm management (killer)

2. leadership

3. entrepreneurship in agribusiness (killer)

4. financial management in agribusiness

5. agribusiness marketing (most killer)

fine~~forget about exam and all that dunniya things...

today i finally had a simple daurah with akhi...

after 2 years waiting, and finally....

can't tell u guys what actually i feel that time...

almost drop my valuable tears...huhu

first things that he remind us is

"Jalan dakwah perlukan keikhlasan yang jelas"

"keep asking urself, why choose this path and not the other"

"tekanan yang kuat kne di lawan dengan jiwa kita yang lebih kuat, or else kite akan hanyut"

oh my Allah...

this day, gonna be my day of push factor...

yes~~i wanna be the change agent....to change things not to be change by things...

permudahkan urusan dakwah ku ya Allah...

jgn sekali2 kau lalaikan aq dengan jahiliyyah baik yang da dibuang mahupun yang masih bertapak....

meh bace doa rabitah skit:

YA ALLAH,

Engkau mengetahui hati-hati ini

telah berkumpul kerana mengasihiMU,

bertemu untuk mematuhi perintahMU,

bersatu memikul beban dakwahMU,

hati-hati ini telah mengikat janji setia untuk

mendaulat & menyokong syariatMU,

maka eratkanlah YA ALLAH akan ikatanya…

Kekalkanlah kemesraan antara hati-hati ini

akan jalanNYA yang sebenar,

Penuhkanlah hati ini dengan cahaya RabbaniMu

yang tidak kunkung malap,

Lapangkanlah hati-hati ini dengan

limpahan iman dan keyakinan

dan keindahan tawakkal kepadaMU,

Hidup suburkanlah hati-hati ini dengan

ma’rifat (pengetahuan sebenar) tentangMU,

Jika Engkau mentakdirkan mati,

maka matikanlah pemilik hati-hati ini

sebagai para syuhada dalam perjuangan agamaMU,

Engkaulah sebaik-baik sandaran

dan sebaik-baik penolong,

YA ALLAH,

Perkenankanlah permintaan ini…

p/s: kepada mr.hiccup...jgn stress...semoga dipermudahkan urusan anda~~kite backup..=P

bukit

bukit is not gunung...meaning that bukit is hill (google translate) and gunung is mountain...

ok, x update 2 hari...what actually i do this two days??

erm~~let me think??

sleep??eat??and...ok..itu tipu...

aq dengan ini mengisytiharkan dengan baik dan sopan nye...

"AKU BUAT ASSIGNMENT SORANG2, k..."~~serius

well, when my groupmate act like forget to do the assigment that need to be send on friday (22nd april 2011), then i need to do it all alone...xper~~quite fun to do 53page assignment about marketing plan in only 11 hour left...what an experience..haha...ok, stop talking bout those REALLY GREAT experience...

talking about experience,

last day...on 21st april 2011...for the first time i go hiking...wow~~!!!

hiking to BUKIT TABUR with GENG SLIDE GUNUNG...

and the idea come from mr.as sobah mohamed n geng...terbaik la~~

anyhow, sgt la unexpectednyer...dgn xprepare ape2...air pun xbwk...

hebat xhebat cek, meh habaq mai...haha

bangun 3 pagi and balik 1 tgh hari...padahal, 2.30 ptg ade discussion...

serius letih sgt kot hari tu...mood malam...serius down~~

i just want to see the sunrise actually coz someone use to give me that sunrise as a gift...

who??who else..my best friend of course...

so, i took some picture...somehow, kabus tebal sgt...sunrise xnmpak sgt...

ape2 pun, kenangan kot...

siap solat subuh atas bukit smbil menikmati gaung yang amat la dalam nye...

haha...

aq:"boleh ke lalu nie??"

sobah:"boleh je...selame org panjat bukit ni, baru sorang je yang meninggal..."

aq: "apesal ko citer bende tu skang~~nervous"

sobah: "la betul la...ramai je jatuh, tp pokok kan banyak...sorang je pun meninggal"

aq: mati la..(dlm hati)

serius kiri kanan gaung...and yang tinggal mmg batu seketul utk dipeluk...

haha...stamina xcukup membuatkan aq terpakse brenti smpai puncak ke-8..

yang lain smpai je atas...

sayang la plak x daki abis...

xper2...next time i'll be prepared more la...haha...

satu bende yang paling terkesan utk aq sejak naik bukit tabur nie adalah:

1. klu la seruan perang smpai, stamina aq serius xcukup...

2. teringat kisah Thariq b. ziad and para tenteranya

3. Hanya Allah sebagai pelindung and pemberi segalanya

4. Alam itu indah dan ada masa ia mampu menjadi musuh

5. gunung2 nie la yang akan berterbangan mcm debu masa kiamat nanti...serius!!!

(semua nie tazkirah alam pada aq hari tu)

semua tu aq pikir mase naik bukit tu...

and my preparation??

insya-Allah aq nak jadi tentera Allah yang cukup bersedia...

anyway,byk nye citer...bosan??alrite~~~~

jom tegok gmba terbaik..haha

dari puncak bukit tabur

yeah~~akan ku tawan mu satu hari nanti..haha

lihat la dunia~~

wan,team,sue

pelakon terbaik~~

i am a camera man...thats it~~

to my best friend: ur gift is real beautiful...thankz

love this~~

my best picture i take...

p/s: sape la memandai heck facebook den nie...adoiyai...kne tukar password ni...

ceciter

ceciter is one of the term for "try to story"..haha

well, more word will coming soon on Kamus Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka year 2012..

interesting story huh??

what ever...

i guess, i have more interesting story for this couple days...

let me ceciter2 to u all...haha..

firstly, i be poke up with some person which in nasyid group- Devotees member...

interesting...never chat with of those anyways..thatz the first time..

quite mesra jugak la~~~bagus, xsombong...name pun nasyid, insya-Allah baik2..=)

anyways, truly love their song pun since kat bintulu lagi...

letz guess, who the person who poke me??

and the second story yang agak menarik jugak adalah...

i've be poke up and have a chat with one of the contestant of Imam Muda...

unexpected things that happen today...mungkin boleh share2 ilmu lepas nie...

walaupun xpernah tgk imam muda, but in term of ilmu, they must have a lot jugak la kan??..

well, sharing is caring...right??

may be we can ceciter more after this...

guess who i have chat with??-secret-

ape2 pun, menarik jugak bile berbual dengan mereka...

semoga industri tanah air lebih banyak orang mcm mereka2 nie berbanding orang2......hehe

bak kate nabil "lu pikir la sendiri"...

p/s: mari settlekan assignment....semoga dipermudahkan urusan...so, sabtu nie boleh turun tolong ustaz run program...insya-Allah....

edition-entry for my best friend

update bukan bererti "tarikh naik"...atau pun "naik jumpa"..haha

ape2 la...yang penting, semua orang akan paham jer word update tu...

nak dictionary gak ke??~~~xpe la kot...

letz use my distionary..

update: maksudnye terkini...bahasa lain...ermm~~ok cukup...haha

erm, i thinkz lately...

aq suke update blog...oh my~~

somebody mule kate...

"hai team, da xde keje nak buat??update setiap hari nmpak...bagi keje kat awak boleh??"

haha...(tu hati aq cakap kat otak aq)...ops~~

ape2 pun, aq x update pun pasal my best friend birthday lagi...

well,

he's not the first person yang wish...ade org lain wish dulu...(kire seri la)

but anyway, thankz for calling 4 times that day...

cume sorry, sebab hari tu mmg busy sgt...

coz work come first...haha, and u should be else number...kidding~~=P

well, my card be appreciated already...

"haha nice...

as expected from my dear friend..hehe

tq so much..."-my best friend

even though kate nice, but actually theres some complaining jugak....

best friend:" sampai hati gariskan bestest tu..." reflash entry: sleep

aq: "da kate bukan bestest...so, i kne edit la"

best friend: "betul la tu..cume patut kne letak "the" sebelum best tu"

aq: "ooo...konon the best la tu"-i got what my best freind want to say...

anyway...die mmg best...haha

ape y best tentng my best friend:

1. we dont know each other pun, even already be friend for 5 years...tau basic jer...

2. xpernah berbual bile jumpe dan banyak bercerita bile x berjumpe...

3. pendengar masalah setia sejak 5 tahun lepas... tp never come out with solution...

4. xpernah tinggi suara, and klu marah lebih kepada diam...

5. xpernah serius tp klu serius, jd agak seram...

6. use to call me putri.."putri bz ke??"ops~~=)

7. suke sakitkan hati...best ke nie??ntah la...

8. last but not least...die terlalu ramai aweks~~"awek mane satu nie??byk sgt aa"-what ever!!

cukup la...byk jer lg...tp "biarlah rahsia"...

ape2 pun, die antra y paling memahami...sejak dulu, smpai skang...

banyak yang aq pelajari dari die...

tentang hidup, kasih sayang, ilmu, bahasa, nasihat etc...(al maklum la..dulu top 5 dlm kelas)

sebab tu kadang2 panggil die sensei@cikgu...

tadi dapat tau, yang die nak sambung belajar...

and itu pun kat UPM...

"tp team, 50-50 jer"..."hantr je borang, dpt ke x,xtau lagi"

xkesah la...i pray for the best...walau ape pun keputusan nye..

klu jadi,yang pasti...die akan jadi my junior...(boleh buli nie)

haha...can't wait...

walaupun aq jadi org yang lmbat diberitahu...

mungkin xnk aq kecewe mcm mase 1st sem which die sepatutnya dftar, tp xdatang...

ape2 la...

last word before i end: to my best friend>>>

i want the best ending for us...no more fight, no more misunderstood...

letz be friend as long as we can go for it...

please have the best life and good there...

p/s: assignment banyak xsiap lagi ni...xpe2...slow2...tp mesti siap ye...haha...

gambate team~~!!!

menang

menang a.k.a win(english) means:

"secure as a result of a fight, contest, bet, effort, etc. 2 be the victor; be victorious in. —n. victory in a game etc" - oxford

first...sgt letih karnival renang hari nie..but...

i am absolutely happy...sebab ape??

finally, i dont have to think anything more about this carnival...mess...

ok...forget about the bad things that happen...=P

ehm, why win??

yeah...i am the winner...haha

doing my synchronize jumping and guess what??

i get the first prize worth: RM50...dont be jelous...

i beat up all the 13 others group...

wow!!~~

actually, i use to dream to be in that synchronize jumping (always watch in TV mase kecik2)...

but now, i won the game...

should/need go to WAMY this evening...

got important thing...

alamak!!!tazkirah x cari lagi...

alrite lah...

just want to talk about my victory...haha what the...

may be we can share something by tomorrow...

let me list up my job:

1. Bizness plan

2. Marketing plan

3. SWOT analysis and MAtrix function

4. IASS...what???

IASS???!!!!ohhh....letz fight for the best!!!!

p/s: really hope somebody would slap me because of my bad attitude i had...need to change that...for sure....

stress

stress means

"1 a pressure or tension. b quantity measuring this. 2 a physical or mental strain"-oxford

i just realize, even though my life full with all this stress stuff...

but i never wrote this title...i guess i'm not stress enough then...

besok, presentation bizness plan...

after i ruin my marketing plan presentation, i pray i dont do the same tomorrow..

gambate to all 3 group that will present tomorrow...

my group: shami himitsu farm

and other group:

pentagon leaf, plus "my superman" group..

since i made the logo for my group and pentagon leaf...

let see...is it ok??(doesnt matter..besok da nk present pun)..haha

so how??hehe...

ohh ya, isnin depan pun ade presentation lagi...

semoga Allah permudahkan urusan sihir ku yang nmpak nye semakin hebat menerjah diriku...

sihir...sihir...

team~~jgn la jd student oriented....promise myself that one...

but

the question is??

did i feel stress because all this stuff??no...never....

but i do feel stress for something else...

sometimes, no matter how hard we try to forget, we just can't...

so many things happen today...

already 3:01 am, and i dont feel like i wanna sleep...

because......arghh, forget it...

why i have this fragile heart...

i suppose to be cold person...

so that i will ignore all the things that makes my life miserable...

hate myself.....

i should focus on what exactly the most important in life...not this feeling...

i should try to get sleep, or i will lost on presentation tomorrow...

p/s: bile la agak2nyer org bintulu tu nk dtg semenanjung...

da xsanggup nk duduk upm nie...

hampir rosak jiwa....

cepat la datang.....

belong

As we born...

Come to this world, we had nothing but ourselves

Then, our mom and dad give us everything that we need...

Food, home, love etc...

Then, we go to school...

Found new friends...

Happy together...

Until now, we do the same...

We found best friend, friends...

Sometimes we fight, sometimes we laugh...

Sometimes we sharing, sometimes we hiding...

But I do believe..

That sometimes, will give us times...

To know the better us...

Until there is a time,

We misunderstand; we not talk to each other,

Like we never know each other

Like stranger... like enemy

Then we feel, we now losing our best friend, friend...

But as we think back...

We come to this world alone,

We had nothing from the beginning...

Then how come we losing something that not even belong to us...

It just, we back to beginning...

I believe, if we don’t try to have something,

Then we will never loss something...

Cause it never exist at first...

p/s: I don’t want to have anything in my life...cause I’m afraid to loss everything... i think i need to ask for forgiveness from someone..but..........

heart

Something happen at the earlier today...
Don’t know what else to say... the same thing that happen 4 years ago, happen again today...
And I hope the same consequence will not happen...

May be this time a bit different...but I have feeling that situation will be much better tomorrow...
At least the things that I really want will happen, insya-Allah..
i don’t plan this, but Allah does...

pray I can go on...
I’ve prepared to be on this moment...
The moment I loss everything...
The time that things that I can’t let go, need to let go...

Tired...sleepy...depress...feeling guilty....
Doesn’t matter anymore....
At least I get promises...and it need to be done...

I want to wait the time pass by with calm...
So that my tears will be worth and can’t easily to get out...

I need to makes myself alright again...
So that, the last word “ok” will give its real mean...

Please sleep and forget about everything...
Just forget it...please forget it....


p/s: denting yang berbunyi dari dinding kamarku
sedarkan diriku dari lamunan panjang
tak terasa malam ini semakin larut...ku masih terjaga....(just the same situation i had now)

try

try a.k.a cuba(malays word)

no matter how much you try to understand, u will never understand if that someone don't want you to understand himself...

wasted?? i don't know...

normally i get this advice:

" hati tu Allah yang pegang...walau kita habiskan seluruh masa dan duit untuk itu, kite tetap tak mampu untuk memiliki hati itu...sebab hati itu milik Allah...so, ape yang perlu dilakukan is berdoa pada Allah hati itu mampu dimiliki..."

but, human have limits...(i made that statement)

anyways, i have limits...which i hope i don't...

really wanna cry right now...(already)

can't even focus on assignment...

thankz to this song: bersama-devotees

at least i feel cool a bit...

and makes me feel miss my best friend a lot...jap lagi nak call la...=)

besok ulang tahun my best friend...

jauhnya die..susah nk bg hadiah...sorry~~

terpakse la xbagi....hehe

anyway,this is for you:

Kita pernah bersama

Menempuh onak dan duka

Tidak pernah putus asa

Walau dugaan datang melanda

Dikau pernah bertanya

Bila bahgia akan tiba

Ku berkata bersabarlah

Serahkan saja pada yang ESA

Bila masanya menjelma

Kebahgiaan akan tiba

Namun tidak mungkin ku lupa

Kenangan indah kita bersama

Menempuh onak cabaran

Dan liku hidup yang panjang

Tidak mungkin hidup ini sepi

Selagi ku masih di sini

Bila masanya menjelma

Kebahgiaan akan tiba

Namun tidak mungkin ku lupa

Kenangan indah kita bersama

Kini terungkai sudah

kisah hidup kita

Berbekal taat dan sabar

Pastikan berjaya

p/s: gambate team!!! i'm stronger than i thought...left the sadness behind and get looking for the brighter day...

active

active means:

"marked by action; energetic; diligent (an active life)"-oxford dictionary

"Having the power or quality of acting; causing change; communicating action or motion; acting; -- opposed to passive, that receives; as, certain active principles; the powers of the mind."

-think exist.com

seems like my sister semakin active mengaktifkan kelas bahasa jepun online die...

the latest is "donna supo-tsu?" which means "sukan apa?"
tergeliat lidah i nak mnyebut but great sharing sis...love it

credit to u la : hayatinogoogle

mention about tergeliat,
my english not so good la...how??

trying hard to speak well, but haiyakk!!...really can't...

need some private class...without payment...anyone willing??hehe-kidding =P

some assignment already done, and some not even start yet...

oh my Allah....permudahkan urusan hambamu ini...ameen..

one question:

is that too much if we not allowed our best friend to have another best friend??

yeah....its too much...like i don't have that experience...haha

so, i think i make a mistake last day...i suppose to plan what i'm going to say before i started to open up my mouth....terlajak perahu bley di undur, terlajak kata....speechless jadinye...haha

hope no matter what the decision that my best friend take just now, don't have anything to do with my statement last day...hope so...or i will feel guilty forever...

remember about some thought that i read from a magazine:

"tak mungkin hati seseorang itu bersih jika kata2 nya tidak"

-lebih kurang mcm tu la nasihat buku tu...

takut kan??word from your mouth actually represent your heart...

semoga hati2 kita dilindungi dari sebarang noda...insya-Allah...

try hard and istiqamah is important...

tibe2 miss akhawat2....miss bintulu jugak....miss kenangan2 best kat tanjung batu...

miss...ops~~enough...nanti ter"nangis" plak..payah2...

erm~~anyway mcm pelik...

knape 2-3 hari nie asyik sebut pasal best friend aq jer...bosan la...

is there no other topic to talk about in my best ever life???~~whatever...my writing anyway...

oh ya...baru paham knape...

because there some person yang not allowed me to talk about him...

nak mention name x???erm~~agak2??haha

xpe la..nti merajuk plak...

ape2 pun, besok kne plan perjalanan...supaya x kucar kacir....banyak bende nie nak settle...

cewah...mcm la busy sgt...fuh~~busy2....

p/s: yahoo...da masuk minggu 14...hampir tamat jugak sem nie....
pray for everything run smoothly.....insya-Allah...as Allah planning the best for me and the rest...=)

sleep

sleep mean:

"natural recurring condition of suspended consciousness, with the eyes closed and the muscles relaxed"-oxfrod dictionary

last night: cant sleep..because...dont know...too many things to think...to settle...too change....

i take a sleep after subuh...then, i forget that i should go for meeting on that morning...

i should called that: BAD ATTITUDE...oh my~~

last day: afraid to msg someone...will she forgive me??~~

i think i should msg her tomorrow, insya-Allah...as long as i dont msg her, my life will full of miserable...for sure...seram nye.....

tonite: i cant sleep...tired after koko...but my mind can't stop thinking...and thinking...

so much tired...but...;(

have a chat with my best friend...not solve any of my problem...always provoke me with some gossip and rumors...hate it...

have a chat with my sis...then, wireless probz...

so, then i have a chat with my own mind...

and guess what...thatz makes me can't close my eyes...argghhh!!~~

i need to settle my assignment....

but i need to rest first...but why??

can i cry??"u r stronger than u think"...

i make a card utk my best friend...tp die cakap die best je, x bestest pun...

me...so much disappointed...

yes, i know...i'm not the perfect person to have u as bestest friend...

so, i change that card a bit...and i will send it for your birthday...

biar die terase...haha =P

p/s: ketenangan tu Allah yang bagi and semoga Allah permudahkan urusan sihir yang semakin menimbun...+ pray for your happiness and the best in fight...as long as u happy, then i will be the same...happy sleep...*.*

guilty

guilty mean:

"1 culpable of or responsible for a wrong. 2 conscious of or affected by guilt. 3 causing a feeling of guilt (a guilty secret)"-oxford dictionary

sometimes, when we make a wrong decision, or some mistake...we dont actually realize the effect from that decision...after couple of time, then we know and realize...

yes..we can feel the uncomfortable about decision that we make...but to choose between two things~both will cause the same feeling~the, what should we do??

forget about "we"..its actually me...

i guess i just make the big mistake in mylife today...first time in my life...or i mean second time...

rase nak nangis??yup...but my best frenz use to say "u r stronger than u think"...

then, i know he is right...plus,

i know i need to pay fee for my mistake...xcukup ke dgn ape y berlaku sekarang...

thankz to Allah for make me to pay this in the world...it is better then hereafter...

need to change??that is the exactly i need to do...(tired of promise myself about this tp i'm still the same person as yesterday...what a pity of myself)...

pray for Allah not to take away this path from me...i know i make mistake and keep on doing it, but please dont take this from me...i really want to see him in hereafter...the one YOU love, and the one that i love too...

p/s: suddenly i feel like i need some word from my best frenz...tp die xkan paham jugak pun...

ape yang die tahu...ketawa...ish..mcm xde masalah jer die tu.... ape2 pun...thankz to someone for realizing this one...

broken

why broken a.k.a pecah/patah??

nothing...just a bit disappointed with someone...

its hard for some people say some word to someone..

and sgt2 patah hati when that someone just ignore that word...

you know, after we build up the spirit to say those word...

ingat senang ke??...deep in my heart...hate that attitude...

forget abut that broken2 and so on...

my internship akan happen on may 2011, insya-Allah...

semoga Allah permudahkan perjalanan dan pengurusan nya...

hope dapat sekitar selangor jer...coz still senang nak ke halaqah...

tp klu dapat batu pahat and sekitar johor...

mane plak nk cari rumah nanti...and transfer2 pun makan mase nak arrange...

so, pray to Allah for the best...kan Allah tu hanya memberi yang terbaik...love Allah..

ape2 pun..life become much more busy..

dengan bizness plan nyer, financial nye, management nye, marketing nye...

dan sem depan akan lebih mencabar...i'm taking international marketing..

why??

sebab nk tebus marketing sem nie yang hancus mancus...for sure, i really want to be a marketer...

p/s: kadang2 best frenz pun xbley caye n xpaham...nak percaya sape lagi...sape lagi nak paham..

malas layan perasaan...mari menjadi musleem productive....