old

before,
i always get rite whenever i choosing something...
doesnt matter..either people or things...i just rite..no regret....

but this couple of year, i my ability just seems dissapear...
i always choose wrongly...
may be i just so so so far away from ALLAH...

the old me??i love Allah very2 much...nobody can separate us...
the new me??it seems like i forget my place on earth...
yes, i trying to be better after i realise this but still not as my old life...

i trying to love Allah more than anything in this world but...i dont know...
there is always something come across my eyes + heart and suddently i forget ALLAH...

i know the devil is laughing with so much fun..
but, what happen to me??
after one mistake to another mistake and then another...

just dont know what happen...i just hates this situation...

p/s: i wanna do now is ~~~too far, yet too close with ALLAH~~~