but~~

"but"

a simple word yet important...

because it can connect two sentence become one...

and...

1. can give the fire heart become cool~~

how??

by saying in word...

" i have no money, no home, not working yet, not that rich BUT i love u and want to marry u now"

and

2. can give the great feeling become down, such as~~

"i love u and want to marry u now BUT i have no money, no home, not working yet"

can u spot the different??

just a thought for me today!!!

BUT....

love for Allah doesn't ask u to sacrifices anything(money,home,time,life) but only your pure n sincere heart...

and because of that pure and sincere heart u actually want to give everything to Allah swt...

got my point??

i do wrong things...and i don't know how to turn back time...

and i want to continue with the right thing, but i don't have the power to do so...

i will stuck in this place forever with the guilty feeling to Allah...

and i can't take it anymore...

crying everyday...

thatz all i can do...and trying hard to improve back my energy and feeling...

BUT~~~~

why i become so negative??

p/s: ayah masuk hospital lagi....and i really need someone to cry on...who can give her shoulder to me??