undur

undur (in malay) or reverse (in english) means:

"turn the other way round or up or inside out. 2 change to the opposite character or effect. 3 (cause to) travel backwards. 4 make (an engine etc.) work in a contrary direction. 5 revoke or annul (a decree, act, etc."-oxford dictionary...

i'm not really wanna talk about reverse anyway...

i was just thinking, if i cant turn back time...

what actually i wanna be today??

that i am better or much worse??

ever have a thought about it??

someone said, that i reveal too much my personal story in my writing...

well, he's right...

i should do something thats benefits others using this social media...

but, i'm not good in advising people...apatah lagi untuk meng'inspired' orang lain...

so, i just thought maybe my story would be some moral value to others...

about what am i doing, what am i feels about what am i doing...

i just hope so...but if it wasn't, so i couldn't do anything bout it...

today, i go through my 2nd killer subject...

yeah...but always keep a thought in my mind..

"bukan lecture yang bagi markah...tp Allah yang bagi markah.."

and i believe, evertyhing is already being fate...

like hadith 19 in hadith arbain...

"pena telah terangkat dan dakwat telah kering"...

in life..."reward (pahala) goes to somebody that keep the hardwork...."

i need to keep that in mind...

actually, many things keep running around and around in my mind....

1stly,my practical not yet decided...may be not going to settle my degree in 3 years...

i actually sad...and sometimes, i can't even focus...

the things that i plan not going as i plan...anyways, Allah is the best planner...

yeah...i know and i should believe it...but still i want to cry...(need someone to talk to)...

2ndly, i make a lot of mistake in my bizness plan...(well, its going to ruin my others members mark)

feel guilty about it...sgt~~~

am i stress about it??

no...i'm not...

someone use to wrote something to me:

"dont stress up ur self again..coz i dont want to see ur face full of stress again"

so, i hope i dont show any of my stress stuff towards others...

let see the positive side of this life...be optimistic person...

or maybe...if i stress, i can go to "TAMAN RIMBA KITA" and screammmm there~~~

so that, i will smile back later...insya-Allah...

as conclusion (cewahhh~~)

i don't think i'll be better person if i can turn back time...

coz, the best thing that happen in life is the things that already be fated for us by Allah swt...

right??

to someone: don't stress up urself too...smile can heal the hurt...not only for u, but also for someone else...

p/s: 2 more paper to go...pray for everything goes smoothly...hehe..dean in hand??pray for that also...haha